Wednesday, January 31, 2007


"Wake County Public Schools will be closed on Thursday, Feb. 1 due to inclement weather."

Have a fun day kids.

I have no friends and nobody likes me. Every time I try to open up to someone, I get rejected to my face. I guess it's just because I'm so many undesirable traits, and so far, I have found nothing that I'm good at, no talent whatsoever. Nobody respects me, or values what I say. I have nobody to turn to, but I would really like someone.

But these undesirable things are me, my personality, and I can't help that I'm me. What am I supposed to do, become this happy but fake person? There's a general social stigma, that you must "be yourself" to be really be accepted by society. Many go as far as to say, "I hate fake people." But I've been myself all throughout life, and nobody likes me for myself. So what am I supposed to do about it? Change?

09:38:50 PM

If there is school tomorrow, Ima smackabitch.

Can't I keep my delusions just a little bit longer? They're so comforting.

09:04:54 PM

Fuck prom. And dates. And boys. And love.

06:17:37 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

if a man were a guy who is raped what would be he to do...
seriously take would nobody him....

11:08:36 PM

Your friendship means everything to me... thank you

04:26:19 PM

i am gonna fail my senior year because i am addicted to meth. i cant stop. i love it. i dont care anymore. my p's r gonna kill me. i dont care. i just want to be high.

02:44:10 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

holy crap i'm lonely.
i really really want someone.

10:46:46 PM

second semester, lame.

10:32:07 PM

cant stand ib students. especially the conservative ones. they are jackasses who think they know it all. i cant stand them.

05:21:52 PM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

i want to apply to a boarding school. but contrary to popular belief my family is not wealthy we definatly dont have the 35,000 a year. & i'm not ever sure what schools to apply to... most of the application dates have passed... oh and i dont think we qualify for tuition assistance...

any ideas?

btw i dont think i could get in on the schools smart people money because i dont have the best grades...

11:55:47 PM

I am sometimes dishonest, and almost never brutally honest.

But I will be now:
I think you were incredibly selfish tonight.
You thrive on drama, and you know it. You seek it out and it feeds you.
You're smarter than this, and that is why I respect you more than other people.
Except on nights like this.

09:52:56 PM

How does one measure intelligence?

I think that I am reasonably intelligent, but not very smart. Or the other way around, as I can't remember which is which.

It bothers me, often, that I have so much trouble formulating opinions on things. Is it through ignorance, which is bad in itself, or simply because I am bad at thinking for myself? Neither is a good thing, though I'd say that the second is almost worse than the first. Ignorance can be more easily corrected.

I am good at learning things. I am good at learning concepts and abstract ideas, and fairly good at picking up information. But I am terrible at knowing some of the most obvious, current things and am terrible at holding strong opinions on most things.

I want to figure out why, so that I can try and fix it, try and repair the damage if it is not too late. I also want to be less ignorant of current affairs and events that I should know. I want to become more globally minded.

But the trouble is, I don't know how, or where to start.

How does one go about learning to really think for themself?

All of the things that I have learned will not do me any good if I can't even use them properly.

09:47:52 PM

Heres a secret, that you all should benifit from.

ok, so one year ago when I was 17, I met this girl in an online forum. We started talking on aim and stuff, and I learned she lived two states away from me, and she told me she was 16, we became good friends,then one day she told me she 'loved me', no joke, i was a little a freaked out by that and thats when i started to not take things seriously, she sent me her pic and asked for mine, jokingly, i sent her a fake one, then i started telling her i was falling for her too,
just to see where it would go, we exchanged phone numbers, and started texting and calling eachother, she was crazy, she'd call me at 1 in the morning to have phone sex or sometimes cry to me about her family issues, and at those times i gave her the best advice and never lead her in the wrong direction. then one day she told she wasnt 16, she was only 14, so i became even more freaked out, at this point this had been going on for about 7 months, and i thought it was time to call it quits, so i told her the truth about everything, and she started crying and all but after a little while she said she didn't care, she'd call me in the middle of the night to seduce to have phone sex, but id say no and hang up, and then she stoped everything stopped, and i started to miss her, which came to me as a surprise, so a month later i called her, and said i missed her, and then it was all back to 'normal' once again, we made a deal that one of us would come to visit the other over summer, after 3 months , i realized no this really isnt right at all, and just like that one day i stopped replying to her texts,calls, emails, i changed my number, changed my aim, but till this day time to time, 8 months later, i still get emails from her asking me why i stopped just like that without any explanation.

ive stopped going to any online forums, chat rooms whatever, and the moral of the story is DONT TRUST STRANGERS ONLINE

05:10:03 PM

I hate being so wrong.

11:40:25 AM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

he pushed me away.


11:09:31 PM

how the hell does a girl get robbed in broad daylight on bertie? wtf.

07:23:49 PM

I shoplift.

05:50:19 PM


The only thing is, I'm scared of driving. :(

03:48:10 PM

I failed today.
But there is nothing I can do about it now except learn from it.

02:56:07 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

I haven't cut for over 3 months and I can't fight it anymore, I'm cutting tonight

09:32:43 PM

I'm strong. I'm smart. I'm independent. And I'm lonely. I want so badly for someone to come rescue me.

07:26:34 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

dear diary: my teen angst bullshit has a bodycount. i believe that it's 6 going on 7 now.

i'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
i'll wear your skin as a suit
your friends will like you more than they used to.

10:45:51 PM

[Song: "Ride The Wings Of Pestilence" by From First to Last.]

So this is what happens when I let my guard down?

I had other things to worry about like my future, my GPA, getting into college, and my parents expectations. I didn't have the time to call you. I'm sorry that I hurt you. You are the best that I've ever had the opportunity to have and that opportunity has presented it's self far to often to have it end so quickly. Maybe I'm your flavor of the week or something. Maybe I'm just not used to this. I've always been the one doing the hurting in the past, never the one getting hurt. It was bound to happen sooner or later. I guess this is what happens when you're still young and stupid.

10:37:14 PM

Second semester senior year! 07 is now an official noun, verb, adjective, etc.

But why do I feel that our senior class is apathetic and not as close as people seem to think it is.

10:11:22 PM

i'm quiet. and catholic. and apparently these two factors are enough to convince everyone who doesn't know me really really well that i am a goody-goody and never do anything wrong. in fact, some people seem to find it necessary to censore themselves around me. i hate it. it's not like i've never heard "the f word" (or said it myself) and i definitely don't hate people that use it. i'm not perfect, and i don't want to be ostracized from the rest of high school society because i have "higher moral values" or something, but i don't know how to change my image without changing myself in the process.

09:10:08 PM

end, day, end.
end, week, end.
I'm always asking for ends these days. Maybe it's time for a beginning.

08:21:55 PM

i made a girl cry at my school's winter formal.

i'm a girl btw. she thought i hated her. but since then i've realized she's a very nice and amazing person.

most of my friends are calling me spineless because i only acted like that to her because of what one friend said.

i guess they're right...

08:11:07 PM

Relaxing with my dog, playing on my computer, listening to music.

Feels like all I need.

06:37:46 PM

I am a terrible conversationalist.

12:35:37 AM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I've finally come to terms with the fact that most guys see me as the girl that's a friend and nothing more.
It's been a long, hard road.

08:12:27 PM

I need to learn to chill the fuck out. Dont make things bigger than they are. Everything is OKAY. What the HELL are you freaking out about?

but I cant seem to get that through my head.

05:05:54 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

To quote The Parent Trap:
"You don't always have to be so brave."

Don't run from the ones who can help you.

10:55:17 PM

And finally, I've realized it completely.

I'm so miserable without her by my side.

08:38:57 AM

I always feel really stupid around my friends. I doubt they do it on purpose but why do I constantly feel like I have to prove myself.

07:59:15 AM

You're pushing me away but you're the only real friend I have who knows a damn thing about the twists in my soul. It scares me to death that the only person who really understands me might not want to spend time with me anymore...

12:16:24 AM

i'm the typical goody -goody girl. i dont make out with boys, or grind with them at dances.

and last night...he didn't push me. and we were the happiest couple out there dancing.

12:13:22 AM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

fucking wisdom teeth.

actually i'm not bad at all, i can talk perfectly well and they only gave me laughing gas so i don't even have any good "when i was high" stories.
but they hurt.

... extra strength painkillers to the rescue!
too bad they won't do my mountain of hw for me.

11:41:58 PM

Symphony + chinese food > Winter formal.


Because the world is round, it turns me on.

07:50:54 PM

She reaches out her dying fingertips
And brushes his forehead.
The electricity shocks through him
As she writhes in misted agony
on the dead sand
his soul is shot with color and patterns
of all her nerves firing at once
and he feels boundless skies and great echoeing spaces
and wind from across the Great Divide
within him
Her dry cracked lips grin morbidly

Her eyes are the

Color of the End of the World

And he feels a current race in him
Back to the primordial swamp
he reaches the rainy fingertips of his brain
to the beginning of the world
where fireflies lurk like stars or secrets
and the foxfire will one day coalesce into human flesh

Begin at the beginning

There is a path that appears only in the rain
it is the only way through this
steaming forest of bones
You walk through, and the bones click together with a strange moaning
and up ahead you see nailed to a ribcage
Reduced from his former glory,
now clad like an old soldier in bonny bloody blue
but his eyes are still the clear
color of the eyes of a heretic who knows he speaks the truth
Reflected in them are HER last words

He bends down and kisses your forehead with lips like dry leaves or spiders,
I bless you in the name of all that is good and beautiful and true

And you are filled with fire and pure water

And there at the heart of things you make a wish
And the wish is the first domino
Watch as they all fall into place

She runs away,down the dark twisted lines of the future her bare feet pounding on the earth the rhythms of her heart
And her face is made of rivers
and her silhoette against the rising sun
Is a dream of Africa

In the smooth dark highway that is the future
Only the gods pick up hitchikers

And you and I stand here
with the disenfranchised youth
Here at the end of all things
they are Western dancing
the few who chose to face
the End of the World
Instead of ending their lives on their own terms with the personal seduction of cold steel

Night is a prostitute who
stalks in dark stillettos down the abandoned street
She would sell herself to the End of the World, but it will have none of her sharp yellow teeth
and April promises

It was always more of a voyeur, anyways

And we watch as the angels
Ascend from the subway gratings

one of them wears Marylin Monroe's dress

Watch as the devils, the children of
Lucifer, the bearer of the light
Come out from under the all-night hot dog stands
and kneel and weep

And we dance and feel through the soles of our feet the heartbeat of the long-forgotten Planet Earth
Here at last at the end of all things

And it flickers through us like the voice at the end of the line in a long-distance call

And we feel it rush inside us
speeding to a crescendo

And an angel kisses my forehead
And a devil sweetly draws
A star on my cheek
and I go to stand with the mortals
the children of the beautiful
I sewed my lips shut with coarse black thread and a needle like silver desire
So if I screamed, I could still hear the music

And I look at you and nod
But I do not get closer to your sweet surrender
We must face this alone

The shock wave shimmers electric blue
Through us, tracing every line of passion, everything your parents never knew
There are boundless skies in the hollow of my throat and the space between breaths

Now our hearts are laid bare, terrible shriveled things that they are

Pulsing and naked in the light of infinity like an August night or the number Eight

The human sacrifice looks deep into the eyes of the tenderly smiling priest

The man looks at the faces around him set in anger
drops his hands
And lets the darkness take him

their dark eyes speak of all that was lost and all that was given and all that waited for them

The last domino falls into place

with a sound that is heard around the world and the music stops but you feel radiant with a tangible finality
And I look into your eyes and the shock sparks through me with the electric blue that is the human connection, that is your fingertips brushing mine for the first time, is the hoarse timbre of your voice in the early morning, that is the light in the clear day of your love, is that electric blue ramming into my veins
Is the human connection
Is the Color of the End of the World

12:30:12 AM

Friday, January 19, 2007

The quiet can scrape
all the calm from your bones,
but maybe it should.
Maybe we need to be hollowed
to get up and grow,
and stop fucking around,
to kick off our braces and start straightening out.
Let's sift through the static
to find a simpler sound
Let's sift through the static
to find a simpler sound...
simpler sound than the shit that's clouding our heads now.

02:15:05 AM

[Song: "Cotton Crush" by Kevin Devine.]

Thursday, January 18, 2007

So... a two-hour delay? Whaaaat?

The chance of precipitation never rises above 20% tonight, and the temperature isn't expected to drop below 31.

Why, WCPSS, why?

11:32:33 PM

Why do people cheat?
It's the most self destructive thing that you can do if you get caught. Just take the 0...

06:48:33 PM

Sooo.... having your ex-boyfriend randomly walk in to the dorm room of a mutual friend right after you fishing sobbing about how your relationship is over COMPLETELY unexpectedly...

awkward, much?

04:22:20 PM

In other news: We totally don't have exams until Tuesday. Which means a three day weekend AND more studying, and a shorter real week coming up.

Today, EVERYONE wins!

04:19:47 PM

i don't understand why everyone's so freaking angry about the snow day. embrace it, kidlets.

and i know it took wcpss a long time to call it, but i live 30 minutes away from enloe and i hadn't left yet when they called it. chill.

12:28:41 PM

We have 3rd and 5th period exams tomorrow and 4th and 6th on...Tuesday???? Ah, the happiness/inconvenience.

11:14:52 AM


I just love driving all the way to school to find out its closed and then driving all the way back!

Why am I so sad school is canceled?

Because my dad took MY car because its four-wheel drive and because I was going to drive you home. I washed with vanilla just for you.

07:50:12 AM


Thanks to crazy WCPSS and our complete lack of ability to deal with cold precipitation, it is...


This means: no 3rd or 5th period exams.
This means: my lack of preparation for my English essay doesn't matter.

Today, procrastination wins.

It's nice to remember what snow looks like, even though the dumbasses at Wake County Schools still won't say about school today.

So here I am, ready as always, stuck in beaurocratic limbo about the rest of my day.

Im so apathtic about my life right now i just cannot get motivated to pursue anything even all this college stuff seems like a waste of time. I used to really look forward to it but now it seems like just another bump in the road.

12:24:28 AM

Hey everyone, how about sex?

12:23:14 AM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Anyone have any luck with other scholarships besides the Morehead and the Park?

11:59:32 PM

If it snows tommorrow maybe I will believe in God

disclaimer - not actually but I'll be real happy

09:38:32 PM

i walk in to my second hour class on the first day of second semester and... he's there. i've done all i could to avoid him 1st semester, even though i was completely over and done with everything. HE's made it awkward, NOT me. i said i wasn't going to initiate contact anymore; i'm done with trying to make friends every time he decides to wig out and not talk to me. fuck that shit.
he sits right behind me, too. so i can't focus to save my life.

fuck, i hate this semester.

09:05:15 PM

I think I have a serious problem. Everyone keeps getting hurt. It is already the fifth person who almost died. But I can't stop

06:01:29 PM

dont know you at all

But I swear,

When the night creeps in
if the air is right)

I would leave this chair,
caress 1200 miles,
To look in your tenacious eyes
And tell you (the person, not the name or face)
That you are

05:00:29 AM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

The real reason I hide my top friends on myspace is because none of my 297 'friends' actually qualify as a friend.

Im sure no one actually cares if I am their friend or not, and Im sure no one really cares if I'm dead or alive.

After texting 8 people and wanting to hang out with them, all of them gave me a lame excuse not hang out with me, so I decded to go to the effing library and sspend my evening there, reading a stupid book.

10:22:51 PM

One of my best friends is in a serious relationship. She is very in love with the guy, and theyve been together for a couple of years. Over the summer she met someone who lives far away that she really liked. She briefly thought she was maybe in love with him, but it passed and now she is very glad she stayed with her boyfriend. She told me once that she NEVER cheated on her boyfriend.

I have recently heard from a reliable source that my friend did indeed cheat on her boyfriend, and only told one person about it (whom she is no longer friends with). This person told a bunch of people, and pretty much everyone knows except her boyfriend.

I don't really care whether or not she cheated on her boyfriend, but I really care whether or not she lied to me. Is there a tactful way for me to find out, or should I just ignore it? I can't stand to think she might have lied to me.

08:58:23 PM

Monday, January 15, 2007

I'm angry, but I don't know who to direct it to: my friends or myself.
On one hand, I feel jipped because no one has given me any feedback whatsoever for getting into college.
On the other, I feel like an idiot for expecting feedback when I know the vast majority of enloe students will end up going to college anyway.

05:19:11 PM

nifong is a faggot. by the fact that they keep dropping charges, it has become clear that they have had no case from the beginning. it enrages me that they can simply point fingers and ruin peoples lives like that. this is ridiculous. even if the defendants successfully argue and win the case, they had to go through all that hardship and bs just because some worthless bitch has to strip for a living, accidentally got herself pregnant and wants to blame someone else for it. its true that they were stupid for hiring a stripper, and its also true that shes stupid for being a stripper, but its becoming clearer and clearer that this is almost entirely fabricated. its the salem witch trials all over again, a worthless girl points a finger and by her word alone so many people get caught up in her venemous web of malice. in response to her delivering the baby, shes a stripper, she probably has sex like 20 times a day. stupid worthless bitch.

04:28:45 PM

counseling blows.

12:49:28 PM

You're never going to give me what I need. It will never be enough. I can't wait until it is.

02:09:27 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

last night will be the last time i ever see him. but i'm okay. because it dosen't feel like it.
even though nothing happened, and i thought it could really work.
i hate it when boys are awkward.
but facebook gets rid of forever.

how lame is that?!

11:15:44 PM

I'm so sick of you doubting me all the fucking time. I think we've been friends long enough for you to know to trust me. I know what I'm doing.

I think it's jealousy. That's what I think it is.

11:15:16 PM


I am so angry right now I don't even know what to do

07:02:54 PM

I think I want a date to prom more to avoid the embarrassment of not having a date than actually enjoying someones company.

04:36:49 PM

ecological footprint calculator
take it, and then think about it

12:05:43 AM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

my best friend's preagnant. and i have no idea what to do. they had sex the night they broke up and i'm almost positive he got her preagnant so she would come back to him. what a jackass.

11:03:07 PM

Im tearing myself apart.

I've been obsessed with this one girl for a couple months now, but i'ts become obvious that she has little or no interest in me that way, but we have become very good friends.

Now, im trying to do everything I can to get over her and move on, but whenever i so much as see her or hear her voice, i fall for her again. All i can do now is ignore her compleatly, which goes against how i feel, and hurts me even more.

What hurts the most, though, is that I may be losing a friend, too, in all of this. I honestly have no fucking clue what to do, and it's emotionally destroying me.

10:29:01 PM

are they really going to close the middle east building?

04:12:33 PM

Exams are going to shot me in the face and leave my body in a ditch.

02:50:25 PM

hahah! duke application submitted at 11:58 pm. procrastination ftw.

09:52:15 AM

So here I am, 5:50 in the morning, in my dorm room. I have been in my dorm room since around 8sh. It is a friday night. My friends are either shitfaced or out getting shitfaced. Anything to forget your sorrows eh?

Here's the cute part though: while they are probably having the time of their lives with equally shitfaced people, I will be so effortlessly alone, all in the ignorable name of self-righteousness.

I cant break now,
though i am surely broken

05:55:11 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007

Eighth period firedrills FTW.
Nothing like getting to play three consecutive games of frisbee with the boy you like during what should be math midterm review ♥

08:01:51 PM

This was, without a doubt, the worst week of my life.

06:35:13 PM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

My tounge's the only muscle in my body that works harder than my heart.

11:05:49 PM

[Song: "Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't" by Brand New.]

There are so many girls that I am just friends with but that would never consider me more than that. And I really really really want a date to prom and a girlfriend so basically, I have no idea what to do.
Whenever I see a girl I like, I hang out with her, and she becomes my friend, which was my problem in the first place.
I swear, for like a year my dad thought I was gay.

09:46:36 PM

I really like this girl, but she recently dyed her hair a really different color and I'ts REALLY different. I don't know if I like her anymore, but am I really that shallow?

06:44:57 PM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

i wanna taste you.
i want to feel it in my mouth
while you call me a bitch

i'm too ugly to ever do it though. oh well!

09:50:53 PM

I have a bad personality.

09:38:36 PM

he told me to back off you for a while until you've done the appropriate period of wallowing. how long do you think it'll take before i can swoop in there? cuz i'm a lonely girl... who thinks about you way too much for her own good.

07:11:00 PM

Monday, January 08, 2007

oh dear god. they announced when prom tickets are going to be selling..

10:48:39 PM

I really just want someone I can cuddle with.
That is the entire bases behind my desire for a relationship.

10:24:38 PM

i feel like there's never enough time to do anything.

except i waste a lot of my time; i procrastinate almost every chance i get.

12:13:26 AM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I have finally decided to stop being sad about it. Freedom feels wonderful.

08:47:18 PM

Post Secret always brightens my day. Thank you for putting the link on here. I would have never looked at it otherwise.

04:07:05 PM

apparently the majority of enloe students got deferred from unc?

except people like K got in, and people like S didn't.

01:15:42 PM

i confess:
that i don't know if we're friends or not.

i care about you, and i want to talk to you. but everything is going crazy in my mind. i'm sorry. i'll call.

i care about you too, but you're a different story. i didn't think that we could be friends, just because i'm not usually friends with my ex, but we seem okay. truce?

11:19:52 AM

Its really weird to think that the people I've grown up with and my self are actually adults now. At least in the legal sense of the word. I mean Its really odd to tink that legally my friends could actully do porn.

12:14:44 AM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

I like you alot, and I think you might like be back. Yet somehow I'm not sure if a relationship is totally the best thing for us...You don't seem to be totally comfortable on that idea, not that I've brought it up before...

You also dont seem that comfortable anything remotly physical, even hugs. I dont know if I could date someone who I would feel awkward even HUGGING. What action should I take? Do you want me to put you on the spot?

11:20:46 PM

Inside it feels like someone is tearing me apart. I try not to let that show but I'm dying inside and I think only one of my friends can tell

06:00:54 PM

This is so fucking ridiculous.

I get into unc-ch, the school I want to go to, and it changes nothing. My parents say "study for midterms" and when I say "well, at least after midterms I don't really have to work anymore because I'm a senior and in college" they reply, "No, then there are APs"

WHAT THE FUCK. I am so sick of not being able to hang out with my friends when I want to. I am so sick of having to study for tests that have no meaning anymore. I am so sick of them not understanding that I just don't give a shit anymore.

12:44:29 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

i feel like i need to choose between weak and strong.

and i don't think that one is better than the other. strong people build the things they love. weak people destroy them to see what's really there.

11:33:17 PM

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.

11:17:36 PM

i hate how she wants you to be this cool half-something mix who listens to good music and dresses alright, who all the boys like, but like her more.

i hate how she wants you to be naive and get yourself fingered by some sort of cute boy, not realizing what you're getting into.

it's a trap.

but i love how you realize that.

10:14:43 PM

part of me wants to tell you how i feel.

but part of me says to wait, until i'm more comfortable with myself.

but if they don't feel this way now, then they won't feel this way later.


10:12:01 PM

I got deferred
Not that I really wanted to go there (UNC), but it still sucks. What else could I have done?

Queen Sekaf
06:17:55 PM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

I'm sorry I lost your friendship, but I'm not sorry I cheated on you.

10:33:13 PM

it doesn't hurt, it's just unbearably confusing that someone so nice could turn out to be so sleazy. i don't like being confused.

09:20:50 PM

"In October 2005, with the growing popularity of Facebook, the creator of Tangst also began a group on Facebook for Tangst entitled "Tangsty." This group has accounted for much of the increased traffic on the Tangst website."

I can't find it anywhere! What happened to the Tangst group on Facebook??????

08:13:49 AM

im quite envious of all you people having sex with out me.

01:48:48 AM

every school project is like a small death, with the denial, anger and finally acceptance stages. I really Do hate them.

01:46:51 AM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Where is everyone???

that first post has been up for almost a day!

wtf, mates?

10:29:53 PM

My god, he was here, after being gone for so long.

It's strange to see him here, but I feel the better for it, although I never knew him well, somehow, he represented everything we should be.

I only wish he had recognised me...

04:59:57 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

So, what happened to those admin apps?

I'm really curious...

11:13:04 PM

i want my family to fucking leave... i'm so tired of waking up and finding my grandparents lecture me about the appropriateness of my sleep attire.

08:05:29 PM

Rain again, how quaint
I see water bead outside
In here it is dry

06:43:41 PM

Monday, January 01, 2007

He leaves tommorrow morning.

It's like that All-American Rejects Song:

"When Darkness Turns To Light...
It Ends Tonight. It Ends Tonight..."

And I've cried my heart out for it.


I love him.

and its finally too late.

11:21:57 PM

can one orgasm during masturbation?

or is that only possible during real sex?

09:40:30 PM

Wow. I had the best sex of my life last night.

06:27:46 PM

i'm so fucking tired of my parents guilt-tripping me. it's MY birthday. and we don't enjoy each other's company so why should we be forced to go to what can only be the most awkward dinner (that won't even be enjoyable) ever?
my friend is in town for three days. i can almost guarantee that i'll have more fun with her. my dad's leaving for mexico tomorrow, on my birthday, so he wants to "celebrate" it today.
"dad, she's in town for three days."
"yeah, that's fine do whatever you want, i'm in town for one."

fuck you. you're such a fucking black hole, you suck the fun out of life. this year is starting off very poorly.

06:18:34 PM

is it true that the *****'s student teacher is hooking up with a junior?

03:05:21 PM

[Admin Note: Name removed to preserve anonymity.]

Oh, what?

Oh, seven. (:

Happy New Year!

12:16:23 AM