im racking my brain for the right words to express myself but here i find myself lost in thought scrambling to tell you or anyone how i feel, whats hurting me so deeply but my thoughts are not something i can easily tame when it comes to expressing myself these thoughts rarely leave my head their on the tip of my tounge but refuse to spill out of my lips. im giving this my best shot really i am, please say someone can relate to this feeling.. it seems nearly human instinct to seek out love but what if i dont want to seek it, will it find me?. ive come to accept that im not the kind of girl guys date or so it seems.. its not that i have trouble finding guys that find me attractive the problem is guys think im fun to flirt with, fun to get drunk with, and great to hook up with but when it comes to something more stable the crowd disappears and i find myself alone.


Anonymous
6/27/2010
02:25:00 AM

I suck at phone conversations.

I always manage to confuse someone, whether it's myself or the person who I'm talking to.


Anonymous
04:57:00 PM
5/27/2009

The Boy I just hooked up with last night: Really pretty, interesting, grating and annoying personality.

The Boy I have a crush on: Not bad looking, extraordinarily egotistical and pseudointellectual.

My "constant" boy: Pretty damn ugly, really, REALLY funny, can be a total dick when everyone else is around, also has an ego problem, makes me happy.

I wish I could find a boy who I liked for most of his characteristics instead of just a few.

Anonymous
2/28/2009
04:58:00 PM

i'm sixteen years old. i feel very lonely. i have a lot of friends but i feel like none of them share my vision of what is life. i want very close friends, i want to have meaningful discussions, i want to explore, i want to experience.

i want to be happy.

the reality i live in is so dissapointing. i'm afraid of what's coming up. it is so scary how no one really knows how i feel or who i am...

i am so confused about ... everything. i'm disturbed.
so hard to find the right words..
i do drugs, often alone, because i'm trying to escape from this existence. i'm trying to set my spirit and my body free.

im trying to get to know myself. i seek for authenticity.

why do most people have to make me feel so different...


Anonymous
07:31:00 PM
12/30/2008

I love my boyfriend more than anything in the world.
But my friend...
When he said that he was so lonely he sleeps with his arm around a pillow for comfort, I really wanted to be that pillow.
I want them both.


Anonymous
11/07/2008
02:29:00 AM

we cuddled the entire night and he tried to kiss me but I stopped him. not because I didn't like him but because I don't want random hookups and I wanted to make sure we both had feelings for each other/be potentially dating before we did anything. if he doesn't like me...its fine, but I'd still value his friendship except for after that night... he barely talks to me and acts like an ass around me.

I dont know what to do now. bring it up? let it be and forget about even being friends with him? did I do something wrong or offend him in any way?


he's also my brother's hallmate/basically roommates because they both have singles. and I hangout with my brother all the time so I see him a lot and I'm tired of being treated like shit.


Anonymous
09:17:00 AM
9/25/2008

Have you ever liked someone so badly that it hurts just to sit beside them? I can't even explain how badly I want to be with him. He lives on the floor above me in the dorm and he calls me all the time and there are times when I'm absolutely sure he likes me but others when I'm not so sure. It's driving me insane. Blarrrrg.


Anonymous
10:47:00 AM
8/20/2008

I'm so in love with a girl. I don't want to ruin our friendship by saying something, but she's the reason I can't look at anyone else. No one in the world compares to her.

We've fooled around a bit, but that was just innocent experimentation by two friends, right? At least, I'm sure she feels that way. Maybe.

Girl on girl love. Too confusing.


Anonymous
07:42:00 PM
8/14/2008

I'm 15, single, and a virgin.

I really want to have sex. I really want to know what it feels like. but I don't have a boyfriend right now and I don't just wanna go out and sleep with some random guy I hardly know.

what to do..what to do...


Anonymous
07:04:00 PM
8/07/2008

I don't know how to make my life work.


Anonymous
01:45:00 AM
4/28/2008

Wow, I really haven't figured this out yet at all. I hung out with you in a group of mutual friends recently after not talking in months. We barely know each other. All of a sudden, you act very nice to me. And you pay a lot of attention to me. And you don't act that way towards other people. Which, on its own would make it obvious that you had a crush on me. Except that, one, I'm nearly positive you have a crush on someone else and, two, even though you're unusually nice and attentive, you act that way in a way that seems completely platonic. And I usually know whether a person has a crush on me as soon as I talk to them. Which begs the question of why anyone would be nice and pay a lot of attention to anyone else unless they wanted love or something else. I don't have anything that you want. I don't get it.


Anonymous
11:13:00 PM

Do you ever feel like not wanting to go out with friends, and instead just relax (more like hang around doing nothing) at home? Or is something wrong with me.


Anonymous
02:01:00 AM

He told me that he liked me, that he'd "fallen for me" but not in the cheesy cliche way, I could tell that he meant it because he almost never says anything that personal.
He is possibly the greatest guy in the world, but I don't know if I like him back.


Anonymous
08:35:00 AM

i liked him in seventh grade and he turned me down after i wrote him a note asking him to the sadie hawkins dance. we didn't talk for two years and it was really awkward. then we got to high school and it was okay for the most part. i've always kind of been into him, he's exactly what i'm looking for in a guy and he's just so damn nice. we don't hang out with the same crowd but every time we talk it feels like there's a spark... or i could just be making this up.

dammit! i don't even know if i like him! i don't know what to do.


Anonymous
06:49:00 PM

I'm obsessed with picking scabs. Sometimes I even cut myself to make them, but not because I want to hurt myself, just to let them heal over and pick the scab it makes. I mostly do it on my chest, but whenever I'm with a boy and we get hot and heavy I always stop before he sticks his hands up my shirt. I'm not a prude, I just have this strange obsession.

I've always told myself that the day I get into a stable relationship I'm going to stop.


Anonymous
05:08:00 PM

there are two potential guys that i could have a "thing" with, and i kinda/sorta have had a thing for them in the past. neither of them seems likely to make a move any time soon. i'm not even sure if they both like me.
the only problem is, i'm leaving for two months. should i even try to start something? i'm thinking it's not worth it, considering i'll be a continent away. but it'd sure be nice... =)


Anonymous
12:25:00 AM

When we're alone you're different. You even asked me out on a date. Then when we're with friends you barely talk to me. What do you want?


Anonymous
12:06:00 AM

damn it why do you keep looking at me like that and flirting with me and such are you interested or not. You seem so random yet oddly attractive to me.
-confused guy


Anonymous
10:31:00 PM

I don't know if it's a crush or just an affinity I feel for her but I really hope it's an affinity because otherwise I will have to start questioning my sexuality.


Anonymous
06:53:00 PM

I don't know how not to apologize, for everything. I know it pisses people off, but I just can't stop. I feel like if I don't apologize all the time, even if it's just for standing where someone needed to walk or for mistakenly interrupting a conversation or even for existing, I'll come off as arrogant and self-centered.


I really do feel like my existence is a crime, and that maybe a lifetime of "sorrys" will make up for it.


Anonymous
11:25:00 PM