Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I just found out that my parents smoke weed. I found their bowl while looking for toothpaste in their bathroom.

And I mean, it's not the worst thing ever. I kinda laughed when I realized what it was that I found, but seriously, it kinda sucks. Come on, mom and dad, I don't smoke weed. I've stayed away from illegal drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, partially for my own good but mostly for you guys. And then you go and do this? What the hell?

Maybe I'm just feeling like the biggest prude ever-- all my friends enjoy the responsible underage drink on occasion, I know plenty of people who smoke weed at school, but it always seemed at least sort of okay for me to have my fun in ways that weren't drug-induced. It didn't make me weird or a societal tool. But then, my parents, man! They're the biggest moral compass I have in my life, and I find out their needle isn't pointing the same way I'm walking. What the hell does that mean?

I'm probably making too big a deal of this. It's just... I'm disappointed in my parents. I thought they were different.

10:57:00 PM

Monday, September 29, 2008

I've never been so turned on as when, today, he ran his palms over my breasts through my shirt and fingered me though my pants in the back room. He's married. He's 49. He hasn't even kissed me, yet...and I have a boyfriend.
I feel guilty, but, when I make out with my boyfriend (17) I feel absolutely nothing. Not even a spark.
'm not a bad person. I am not a cheater or a slut. I have only kissed two people in my whole life.
So I am plagued with the question...why?

11:55:00 PM

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Random firing of synapses

"And the guy was all like 'Gun!' and the tree was all like 'Eat!'"

ahh, what insomnia blesses us with!

Kudos to anyone who knows that reference.

09:40:00 PM

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Ive been dating my girlfriend for a while. its getting pretty serious. she has a good guy friend that she hasn't seen in a while, but i think there is something there I think she might have feelings for him that she cant tell him so she is displacing it onto me. Every time she says i love you I feel like she is merely using me as a face but saying it to him in her mind.

02:47:00 PM

Friday, September 26, 2008

So that girl who lives far away...
I like her.
Should I tell her?

It doesn't seem like it would do much but make lunch kinda awkward, if anything, as we eat lunch together every day.

whyyyy do you live so far away?
it's so tough to try to get over you. and waiting for college is lame.

i can't believe it's not sanskrit
06:21:00 PM

we cuddled the entire night and he tried to kiss me but I stopped him. not because I didn't like him but because I don't want random hookups and I wanted to make sure we both had feelings for each other/be potentially dating before we did anything. if he doesn't like me...its fine, but I'd still value his friendship except for after that night... he barely talks to me and acts like an ass around me.

I dont know what to do now. bring it up? let it be and forget about even being friends with him? did I do something wrong or offend him in any way?

he's also my brother's hallmate/basically roommates because they both have singles. and I hangout with my brother all the time so I see him a lot and I'm tired of being treated like shit.

09:17:00 AM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

how do i tell my roommate to maybe hook up with him when I'm not in the room. three nights of listening to heavy breathing is enough and I'm about to unleash a serious can of whoopass if I don't get some sleep soon.

02:42:00 AM

hey if im un-circumcised should i tell my girlfriend before we have sex?

11:55:00 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

i didnt want to date till college...
but this girl seems almost perfect.
she lives too far away for it to work out now, though..
what to do...?

I can't believe it's not Sanskrit
10:17:00 PM

we had a steamy tryst in the sauna.
nobody was looking.
my shirt was becoming quite moist, and she tackled me into the pool.
she heard the call for dinner
and said, "that sounds delicious."
delicious? really?
what do i do?

just finished mrs unreasonable's crazy amount of journals.

post-journal sex, anyone?

10:07:00 PM

Five years of my life
and it's finally over.

I feel free

03:31:00 PM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

this guy liked me and he certainly showed it. and i do too. i liked him too. then we reciprocated flirtations. until we hung out, and hooked up. but at school, he's not consistent with his feelings. at school he can sometimes be aloof and sometimes he'll pay attention. and sometimes he'll be affectionate. and then last weekend we hooked up again. but he's just still inconsistent with his feelings to me. i just don't what to do. he makes me so confused and i don't need this stress my junior year. i've got others things to worry about. i don't want just a friends with benefits/hook-up thing, i really really like him. he's absolutely amazing.

what should i do?

09:57:00 PM

So I really, really, REALLY like this boy who lives in my dorm. Sometimes I think he likes me and sometimes I feel like I know he doesn't. He'll spend days at a time hanging out with me and only me and he hugs me every time he sees me but after a few days we split up and don't call each other and I just asked him to hang out and he just said "No thanks"
Should I be freaking out y/n?

06:43:00 PM

Friday, September 12, 2008

wow so Im in quite a situation, My girlfriend who is madly in love with me and I with her, believes that I have had sex with two girls before her, I told her this early in the relationship because she asked me and I was too nervous to tell her that I am in fact a virgin. Now our relationship has become much more serious and we are probably going to have sex pretty soon. The problem is this lie, she thinks I have experience because I made up a back story for the two girls and everything, Each piece was a white lie but together they have created a monster. Its not that big of a deal or it wouldn't be except that she is a virgin too. I want to tell her that she will be my first because I hate lying to her and the more she ask about my past the more I have to lie to keep up the previous lie that Im not a virgin. I know it will hurt her to find out that I lied to her and that is the last thing I want to do, But I hate lying to her as well. What should I do, If I tell her how should I?

01:01:00 AM



02:43:00 PM

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

I'm a thousand miles away from home... and i hope i'm never coming back.

08:42:00 PM

I'm really tired of always ending up the "gay friend, but straight"

I also fail to understand why that makes me less desirable for a relationship

06:22:00 PM

You'll never know how badly I wanted you that night. I'm glad nothing happened, and I'm glad I never sat down and explained it all to you. I'm glad you're happy now, and I'm glad...

I'm glad I didn't let you use me, because it would have hurt both of us more than you'll ever know.

You're still my best friend, and I miss you.

12:19:00 AM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Soooo they test the LHC on wednesday.
End of the world party anyone?

11:43:00 AM

okay so I'm definently straight. I know that for sure, but I find myself attracted to a close friend of mine for some reason.
she's really athletic and she's a low maintence, tomboy type girl. she never wears makeup but she's pretty without it because she has good skin and idk what else to say. I think she's hot and actually WANT her sometimes. like I actually want to kiss her and be close to her and like makeout with her. all the lesbians/bisexual girls and alot of guys think she's hot, but she's straight(atleast that's what she says). it's just so weird because i'm usually never attracted to girls, but god it's insane how I want her sometimes.

04:59:00 PM

how do I meet people in college?

04:06:00 PM

Wednesday, September 03, 2008


06:03:00 PM

you got mad that she got in the way of our hug. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D x100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

09:36:00 PM


actually, I really do smoke weed every day, and I really don't give a fuck

09:12:00 PM

Damn Creationists. You've got no place in science, you bastards.

07:09:00 PM

Monday, September 01, 2008

This election isn't about the first African American to become president. This election wasn't about the first woman to become president either. This election is about defending our country from the encroachment of our most basic dignities and it is about the preservation and renewal of our stature in the world. Fellow citizens, you shouldn't vote for Obama just because you want a African American president and you shouldn't have voted for hillary just because you wanted a Female president; you should have picked a candidate based on your love for your country, your love for your freedoms and your love for your right to a lovable future. Hillary supporters switching to McCain will not give us a better future. "Punishing" the Democratic party for "sexist treatment" is not what the country needs nor is what this election is about. This election is historic, just like every other, but this election is first and foremost about this country, not about an African American or a woman.

03:44:00 PM

hey guys what are some good gift ideas for a girlfriend?

03:25:00 PM