Sunday, June 29, 2008

Food for worms

Begin emotion defragmentation subroutine
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Definition: A Soul without a Body.

We need both, in short.

10%... Make my day
You do it without trying
I am sensitive to your words
Your touch
Your breath.
Definition: It keeps you alive. See also: love

20%... Feel something
This is not a suggestion.
Every day I remind myself
Every time you miss something
An angel gets its wings.
Definition: This will wreck your world. See also: Hate, Lust, Fate, Trust, Fake, Dust.

30%... God
Talk to him
He will not listen
Talk to yourself
You will not listen either
35%... (No one is coming to your rescue.)
Definition: Insanity, pretty packaging. Used in a sentence: My faith is of the slave’s towards the slave master. I know when he will beat me. I know what he wants from me. I know how he feels about me. I trust that he will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, violent. I trust that He will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, wrathful.
Definition: You’ll know it when you feel it.

40%... Despair
Please try to keep your feet clean.
The mat of human emotion. Wipe them down.
When you focus on one thing you might not succumb.

50%... Alone
I am never alone.
Eyes watch me through crevices.
Cracked blinds and huge bay windows.
Standing outside and waiting for me to join them.
I watch myself and feel the eyes from the future.
When I look back on my actions what will I see?
A story: When I was younger I would sit in my room and feel someone watching me from the ceiling. I have come back to that memory countless times from the viewpoint of the watcher. I am the watcher.
Definition: If you pay too much you might go broke. If you go broke you might do something crazy. Pay attention to that too. See also: Despair.

60%... Art
Make it when you feel it bubbling out of you.
I look in the mirror and see it spilling out of me.
I can feel it in the hands that clutch at me. See also: Corpse.
Don’t wait too long: the willow bends but the oak breaks under the strain.

70%... Love, redux
Every time I hear love described as a hurricane,
I can feel it welling up in me.
The violent eye wall tearing out of me something necessary to survival. See also: Ghost
Definition: You need this more than anything. See also: Money, Pain, Loss, Gain, Blood, Stain.
Definition: “A hundred miles of pounding rain.”

80%... History
Don’t let it define your future.
We aren’t trapped in a glass box called Earth.
We aren’t polluting your water.
We aren’t stuck in these bodies.
We aren’t lost and searching.
We aren’t breaking down now.
Error: stop.
It sucks.
Solution 1: Deal with it. Find a way to make your future bright.
See also: Ghost (A Soul without a Body.)
Solution 2: Let it consume you. The devil is hungry.
See also: Corpse (A Body without a Soul.)

90%... Emotion
Defragmentation almost complete.
Commence Erasure.
Let’s not be sentimental.
What did it ever do for you?
That sick feeling in the pit of your stomach? That’s reality.
Look at the most beautiful girl in the world.
Vapid and vacant: eyes like a cow facing the hammer.
Watch out for the pitfalls. See also: Faith, God, Love, Summer, History, Happiness, Despair.

100%... Healthy
You will feel better.
We have precisely tuned you.
We have stripped away what makes you incomplete.
Now, shattered and broken, we urge you: “Go forth into the world… something about Jesus.”
See also: Love, Faith, Despair, Corpse, 3 Days, Breath
Moreover, you will love freely.
Zeros, zeros are nothing.
1000% better. More effective at the things you need the most.

Talk, you zombie. Feel, you ghast. The best feeling in the world cannot match this. See also: Pressed, Against, The, One, You, Love
Definition: Worth it every time. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Faith.
Definition: Not possible. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Lonely.

Nothing changes unless you change it.
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Definition: I want to find you.
Definition: A Soul without a Body.
Definition: I know you’re out there.

I hope soo badly that you didn't lose my e-mail adress and that you don't forget about me and that you still think about that plane ride like I still think about it. PLEASSE e-mail me. I want to talk to you so bad.

02:33:00 AM

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

I finally had real sex. Not just sticking my dick in her and pulling it out when she said it hurt too much. I actually thrusted and came.

With a condom, of course.

07:32:00 PM

I just met this completely awesome guy who is sooo much like me it's scary. We even finish each others sentences and we just met!!! Only thing is.. he's a polygamous mormon :S

01:27:00 AM

man I need a girl so badly it hurts. Not for sex just for someone to be with.

I'm gonna go masturbate.

05:21:00 PM

Thursday, June 19, 2008

A Haiku

Uploading Tangst posts.
I've not done that in so long.
Boring summer, hah!

Every time a customer walks by the window I mutter cuss words under my breath and try to telepathically tell them not to come in my store. Ew. I just got a cut on my finger.

05:36:00 PM

Uh, yeah, so I graduated. It's so weird to think that I have zero years of high school left.
Weirdly awesome.
I pity the fools who have another year.

12:17:00 PM

I like you.

07:19:00 PM

I'm a guy and I hate the smell of pussies. I think that they are disgusting and awful and I hate putting my mouth near one. I have no problems with just my hand. On the other hand I enjoy "getting some" myself so I always return the favor, even though it means I have to endure the stink.

05:51:00 PM

i've recently found out that i am a completely shallow, superficial jerk who has unachieveable high standards for guys. i want perfect. i know if i wasn't, than i would've said yes. and i wouldn't have said no so quickly. i probably at least would've considered possibly saying yes to him. yes you. i'm sorry okay? it's just i'm shallow and i've always aimed for perfect finding flaws in everyone, even myself. i know it doesn't help but, it's not you, it me.

12:29:00 AM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I'm an extreme left-wing democrat, and I hate debating, and I'm from Canada, yet every guy who I seem to be attracted to is a super conservative couthern republican. Wtf.

03:50:00 PM

My boyfriend was there, and the three of us were walking to our cars and you decided to ride with me. It was dark, and the sky was perfectly clear and the air was just right. I rolled my window down and then you put yours down, and I loved that you preferred fresh air too. You talked about your girlfriend and I talked about my boyfriend, but my feelings for you still didn't change. I've loved you for 4 years, and I still do, and I guess I kind of want to know if you have ever felt it back. I thought you might after that night when it was about 20 degrees outside... you'll know what I'm talking about. If you think you know who this is, and if you've felt the same way, please comment and say so. I really need to know.

03:04:00 PM

I hate insomnia. I'd be leaving for school in two hours if it weren't summer.

05:09:00 AM

I don't like it when people don't post correctly.

11:39:00 PM

I don't think anybody likes bush these days.

(correct in any sense you interpret it)

06:17:00 AM

Do guys prefer girls to shave their pubes bare, or a landing strip? Or do they like a bush?

01:30:00 AM

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

my boss never went to college. and everytime I ask her about where she went to college or what her major was, she changes the subject.

01:52:00 PM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Why does this site still exist? Or rather, why are the admins still the same? I checked for the hell of it, and here it is? Damn.

12:17:00 AM

I'm a girl, but I wish I could be a boy for a few days. I'm not trans or anything, I just wonder what it's like to be a boy.

08:10:00 PM

I got a chinese symbol tatooed on each of my wrists. The swirls line up along my scars perfectly. Now no one will ask me about them again.

05:26:00 PM