Monday, January 28, 2008

All of this talk of colleges is really starting to scare me.

I'm a junior with mostly As, and decent extracurricular activities. But all of these people who didn't get into UNC-Ch, or even State, or Appalachian... it's making me worry a lot.

I always figured that I had at least a decent shot at UNC, and that State shouldn't be a problem. Now I'm beginning to wonder, and I just hope that my original assumptions were right.

11:41:00 AM

I met him last night and I barely know anything about him. so why cant I stop thinking about him?

07:23:00 PM

School is such a joke now.

08:07:00 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Why do I feel so disquieted about Heath Ledger's death?

1/22/2008 09:06:00 PM

so much blood aghhhh, why so much blood, imdrowing in blodd, aghhhh its every where all ove the walls and the floor and the bed and the stairs ohh dear god nooo.

1/21/2008 11:56:00 PM

I'm such an ass when commenting on posts. I'm sorry.

1/19/2008 09:10:00 PM

Thursday, January 17, 2008

I really hate cutters. I know there are complex emotional reasons for self-mutilation and all that bullshit, but for fuck's sake. Just STOP for the love of pete, it's so fucking stupid-- and don't act all jaded and "oh, I've been to therapists and they don't care, they don't help, blah blah blah." I secretly wish you would all cut deeply, the right way, and just remove your stupid depressed genes from the pool. Your life obviously isn't doing you much good, so why keep whining?

08:59:00 PM

i'm failing ICM. goddamn. the worst part is, i'm good at math. i'm just not good at making myself do pointless math projects.

11:19:00 PM

I think I'm in love. Like the actual kind.

08:49:00 PM

I am forgiven.

08:44:00 PM

My parents are just about ready to give up on me.

07:23:00 PM

hi, i live in cali, im 17 and i feel like im being left behind. everyone around me is going to parties and having sex, while im left in the dust, im not a bad looking guy, but i go to an all guys school, im friends with everyone, but not enough to be invited out.

05:34:00 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2008

I can never get my self to cry at funerals, or feel any sort of a emotion.

is there something wrong with me?

02:17:00 PM

I'm actually really embarassed, but feel like I can't tell anyone.

12:28:00 AM

sometimes i love my life.


11:58:00 PM

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Do colleges accept people who have Cs on their transcripts?

And by colleges, I mean nationally ranked top 30 colleges...

08:28:00 PM

i hate him and yet my body craves him. i want to walk away and my pelvis is pointed in one direction.

eeeerrrrrggggg... why do actors have to be so touchy feely!?!

08:42:00 PM

Monday, January 07, 2008

Seniors, I have a question:

Has anyone gotten a letter inviting them to UNC's scholarship day yet? (Just wondering if they'd been sent out...)

A grad is coming to teach AE... not sure I'm comfortable seeing him again... since he did ask me if i wanted to have sex with him the last time we talked. awkward much?

08:41:00 PM

anything to put off writing about heart of darkness is good enough for me.

08:40:00 PM


08:39:00 PM


How many individual users still visit Tangst? I feel like it's losing a bit of its luster, to say the least.

Count - 1

09:28:00 PM

Friday, January 04, 2008

i feel like i am failing at everything. but somehow, i maintain my arrogance.

god damn.

05:06:00 PM

"It is an interesting question how far men would retain their relative rank if they were divested of their clothes..." (Henry David Thoreau)

08:51:00 PM

I hate doing all the work in a friendship. I'm always the one who has to call you. You never think to invite me to your get togethers, and most of the time I don't find out about them until it's too late. I'd feel better if I thought you were just lazy, but since you spend so much time with your other friends (that you have known for less time than you have known me), I get the feeling that you just don't like me that much.

It wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't think of you as one of my better friends. One of my only friends.

I know people drift apart naturally over time, and five and a half years is nothing to cry over, but I just feel that this is the story of my life. I make a friend, and we're really close for a while. Then they meet other people, and stop hanging out with me. I try to make it work for a while, but eventualy I see it is foolish to keep up a one sided friendship. I wished it wouldn't happen to you, and I invested a lot to keep it from happening, but there's really no use wasting your time anymore.
I hope you're happy, I really do. You deserve it. But you don't deserve unconditional love from someone you don't really like.

06:45:00 PM

The adrenaline rush sure isn't helping anything--goddamn stupid video games.

03:18:00 PM