I cut myself again. I just want him to save me and the scars were disappearing. I feel so selfish and dirty.

I'm so sorry.


Anonymous
06:57:00 PM
5/03/2008

I never meant to be so bad to you
One thing I said that I would never do.
One look from you and I would fall from grace
And that would wipe this smile right from my face.


Anonymous
06:03:00 PM
4/30/2008

I'm such an ass when commenting on posts. I'm sorry.


Anonymous
1/19/2008 09:10:00 PM

I'm sorry...


Anonymous
09:18:00 PM

i am trying so hard to like you... but i just don't.


Anonymous
02:01:00 PM

fuck.

I want to tell you, but I can't. I'm sorry.

(you might like him too)


Anonymous
09:17:00 PM

So ive enjoyed the single life for awhile, its fun, because i didnt have to feel like this.

(I also didnt know what you felt like...that changed)

So we've been talking for months, its great, the saftey of never having to look a confident in the eye.

(but of course when we did lock eyes it was obvious who God gave first pick too, at least in the eyes department, and to think i was on this bouncing ball before you were)

So you were always the first to break the conversations off, sleep, you said was of high importance.

(And I swear after sleeping with you its gained a few notches on my ladder, yeah we didnt go beyond eachother's warmth, i didnt think to venture until later)

So I asked you then, when the lighting was just right, and we were both comfortably in bed "If i kissed your lips, would you slit my throat?"

(Yeah its a morbid sense of humor, and a lovely band allusion, and you did give me the answer I had been praying for....if only you gave it to me a closer....then 659 miles away.)

Ive learned from my mistakes
(i think about them enough)
You told me afterwards i needed to stop playing it safe
(little late for that eh)

I apologized.
And told you that you had to understand that
You burn so bright
For so many...
I have to be so very very careful with someone that beautiful.



forgive me.



Anonymous
02:17:00 AM

I don't know how not to apologize, for everything. I know it pisses people off, but I just can't stop. I feel like if I don't apologize all the time, even if it's just for standing where someone needed to walk or for mistakenly interrupting a conversation or even for existing, I'll come off as arrogant and self-centered.


I really do feel like my existence is a crime, and that maybe a lifetime of "sorrys" will make up for it.


Anonymous
11:25:00 PM

every time you go, you apologize. Every time I say it's okay.

every time it hurts like hell, but I lie to make you feel better.


Anonymous
10:28:00 PM

how do you personally apologize?


Anonymous
09:33:00 PM

I cut last night

I'm sorry


Anonymous
06:17:00 PM

Last night, I dreamed that I was dying.

As I lay in the hospital, I realized: I have done nothing memorable with my life, worked no miracles, touched no one's life significantly. I am only the sum of my bad decisions, my apologies.

I have been a cheater, a bitch, a backstabber, a traitor, a plagerizer, a liar, and an arrogant fool.

I woke up crying.

I'm so sorry.


Anonymous
09:12:00 PM

Christmas Eve is supposed to be so happy--

But the whole service, I couldn't be happy, I couldn't concentrate on anything else except for how you looked, sitting down there while we stood in front.

I'm sorry. It wasn't my fault, and it wasn't really anyone's fault, but I am so, so sorry.


Anonymous
08:24:37 PM