Wednesday, April 28, 2010

My name is Anna. I still post here even though I'm semantically (almost!) not suited for "tangst" anymore. It's a part of my history and it will never leave me but for now I am done with it and I feel that as I leave my identity should be revealed (or at least just my first name.) This group helped me get through my first love and it helped me get through my latest. I'm a sophomore in college and my first post on this site was published my sophomore year in high school. I had many posts on the popular list and many posts with comments that helped me through trying times at Enloe. I was a part of Tangst history (literally, I was a part of the phase of the "I Love You (name)" phase of Tangst, okay maybe that gives away my identity but I don't care). I loved you tangst and it's a weird goodbye but it has to be said. I've outgrown you and it hurts but I'm a big girl now. I will never forget you. Thank you for all of your care, support and help.

02:59:00 AM

Fuccck prom

12:01:00 AM

I like my best friend's brother a lot. He can't stop making fun of me and I can't stop thinking about him.

03:23:00 PM

Sometimes, I get so scared, I can't breathe. I inhale but nothing seems to go in so I gasp & gasp until bright spots appear infront of my eyes. Then everything comes into focus for a second. The lights are brighter, colors more vivid, the sound of my own small gasps more profound. I crave those solitary moments, the ones that show me how the world can look.

02:53:00 AM

I'm listening to the arcade fire again and suddenly I can't help but miss you. It reminds me of those cold dark nights when I sat alone in my car crying because I was left by a girl that I adored. My current girlfriend can't possibly compare. But now you're happy with some other guy.

I don't know, I guess I always assumed that, even though you're going to school halfway across the country we would somehow end up together. Fuck it. Blowjobs and an easy girlfriend aren't nearly as fulfilling as love. I miss you. And I doubt you ever think of me.

03:19:00 AM

Why do I always end up dating guys whose parents are divorced? It never ends well!

11:32:00 AM