So this is quite a bit late, but still the source of some angst on my part.

I hate that admins/contributors on this site know who I am. I originally joined as a mysterious figure, and I enjoyed it. Sithgirl correctly weeded me out, but other than that I was just a faceless voice. At some point in a gathering of Tangst people I made the mistake of revealing myself to a few others. As one admin said at the time, "Knight_racer's posts were so much cooler before I knew who was writing them."

I wanted to say, "I claimed them because I'm proud of what I've done. Look at who I really am. I can't be real here, and now. But look at what I write, and look at what I think and feel. Know me for who I am, don't judge me for who I've become."

But I didn't. I should have remained anonymous, a faceless voice in a sea of anonymity. But I didn't.

So I say to all of you now. Congratulations. You on here have come to know me for me, not for who I pretend to be. And for all those who do know me, I beseech you to look back. Take a second look. Forget to judge, and read my words with fresh eyes and an open mind.

Not all is as it seems.

I don't think Im in love with her but she thinks she is with me. I don't want to hurt her. I don't know if I want to be with her anymore. I have alot to think about and no time to think.

Anonymous
04:58:00 PM
10/30/2008

Random firing of synapses

"And the guy was all like 'Gun!' and the tree was all like 'Eat!'"

ahh, what insomnia blesses us with!


Kudos to anyone who knows that reference.


Anonymous
09:40:00 PM
9/27/2008

I had sex with him last night. We're both one another's second partners. Seconds are a lot scarier than firsts. I'm actually still freaked out, but I care about him so I don't want him to know. Funny how your writing quality goes down the drain when you're quietly freaking out.


Anonymous
4/24/2008
09:35:00 AM