It hurt a lot when he popped my cherry, and I bled for the next 4 or 5 times after. I never had an orgasm from sex with him until like a year after we had been having sex regularly, and even then, I hardly ever had orgasms with him. I used to dread sex. Now, I'm with a new guy who makes sex enjoyable and makes me come almost everytime! Thank God sex is no longer a chore.


Anonymous
01:10:00 PM
7/08/2009

Don't you just love coming into the cafeteria, seeing a friend, sitting down at the table with them, and suddenly being plunged into an unexpected political debate?

I should have just eaten in my room.


Anonymous
10/27/2008
07:48:00 PM

So I'm finally home for Fall Break and I come back to see that all of my back-home friends have sunken really deep into the suburban "party" scene where all they do is drink and take pictures of themselves drinking to put on facebook. I mean, I trusted these kids to be fun when I came back and not remind me of the types of kids I'd regularly come across at school. I'm just so fucking disappointed in them all. I don't want to drink and get crunk for fall break, I want a real BREAK.

I guess I'm spending fall break alone this year. sigh. /tangst


Anonymous
10/09/2008
11:52:00 PM

I give my boyfriend oral because I'm afraid to have my REAL virginity gone forever, even though I know we love each other.

It is NOT that much fun to give, and I don't get the same kind of pleasure that he does in return. I really wish I was ready for sex.


Anonymous
7/12/2008
01:27:00 AM

i really really really hate my job. i'm probably going to quit soon so i can find somewhere else to work over the summer. what's a good place to work?


Anonymous
09:50:00 PM
4/29/2008

Everything I've done in my life has been to please my parents, and they're never satisfied. Just once I wish they'd be proud of me, but they always treat me like shit. I don't even get a "good job" when I did something well. They never seem to appreciate or acknowledge how much I try. All my life I haven't done anything for me. And yet I can't stop trying to please them. I just wish, for once, I'd get a "good job" or "I'm proud of you".


Anonymous
06:15:00 PM
4/27/2008

Damnit! I don't want to be worshiped, I want to be seduced!
Stupid boys.


Anonymous
09:14:00 PM
4/13/2008

I think that if college is truly the best time of your life I must be wasting it. College isn't as fun as so many people say, perhaps im just not happy in my current situation but does anyone else in college feel that if this is the best time in your life then your life's gonna be pretty crappy? maybe its just me. I'm just bored as hell with college right now, I find that im wondering if im missing something or if my expectations were too high or is college like this every where. maybe I need to change colleges cause not much here suits me. maybe it will improve next year or by the time I am in junior year but What if it doesnt then I will have wasted the best time in my life waiting for it to improve. If I leave and its the same then I will wasted my time and effort switching to another school. Its a question I find my self wondering every time im bored. I mean when I envisioned my self going to college I never though about wasting my time watching tv or trying to find a way to while away the hours I though of being busy learning and growing. my spelling and grammar is probably off but i just wanted to write it down and i don't feel like checking it.


Anonymous
11:05:00 PM
4/10/2008

I definitely put myself out there last night and, surprise surprise, there wasn't much on the other end. It actually WAS kind of surprising because I thought he liked me too. This is just one in a string of almost-something heartaches. I'm not bitter (well, yes I am, but it's not so bad, because I "learned" from it) but I just wish something would come my way.

All people can say is "at least you have the guts." Yes, yes I do. But it hasn't gotten me very far, has it?


Anonymous
02:54:00 PM

highschool is overrated.


Anonymous
11/09/2007 12:04:00 AM

Well, most of my friends drink and smoke pot, and I kind of hate it. I mean, they understand why I don't, but all the same, they won't stop. There is some sort of line between being "chill", and being illegal, right?


Anonymous
10/29/2007 11:26:00 PM

I AM DISSATISFIED WITH MY LIFE AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO MAKE THINGS BETTER.


Anonymous
04:07:00 PM

I want so badly to be aggressive, punch someone in the face, maybe kill someone, at the very least tell people in no uncertain terms exactly what I think of them. But not all of us can be Lady Macbeth. I'm stuck as a whiny, indecisive Hamlet.


Anonymous
06:46:00 PM

I hate having my hopes brought up and then dashed all to bits. I wish I could get some sort of sign out of you, but you are too hard to read. dangit


Anonymous
12:12:00 AM

There is nothing I hate more than feeling helpless.


Anonymous
10:15:00 AM

some days
I feel like a
dried up carcass, weathered and worn
hardened like a human jerky stick

as my soul is
gone
stifled.

and I realize that what I want out of life
us not the same thing, that
life wants out of me
as this society swoops in like a flock of overbearing vultures
ravenous
they pick me apart

To be.

I can’t.

a heavy sponge of chloroform over my nostrils
until my body functions
but there is nothing left within


Anonymous
10:03:00 PM

Turns out the man was right all along:

"Its not a cry that you hear at night, its not somebody whose seen the light, its a cold and its a broken hallelujah"


Anonymous
12:35:00 AM

get off my back, now. i'm sorry i'm not what you want, but no one can handle what you want. when i say no one, i mean no one. i'm doing my best. love you, but it's hard.


Anonymous
09:47:00 PM

I should have gone for it, I have no one to blame but myself. I wish i could be angry at someone it would make it much easier.


Anonymous
04:15:00 PM

i got a 2310 on my SAT...

i'm disappointed with myself...

does that make me an asshole?


Anonymous
07:00:00 PM