AP tests are six weeks away and i'm ALREADY freaking out.
help with bio?
p.s. i am the worst junior ever. even though i'm not really, i just feel inadequate compared to all of the crazy smart people i hang out with... i'm way too much of a slacker/procrastinator.
Anonymous
06:19:00 PM
Saturday, March 31, 2007
I think the amount I post on tangst is inversely proportional to my amount of real life angst. A lot of things are bad now.
Published by Queen Sekaf 1 comments
Tags: general angst
Friday, March 30, 2007
Whenever you're bathed in light,
it will forever remind me of this night.
God laid me down into your rose garden of trust.
And I was swept away,
with nothing left to say.
Some helpless fool,
yeah I was lost in a swoon of peace.
Come to me; love will lead us.
Anonymous
11:33:00 PM
[Admin note: "Dolphins Cry Chords" by Live]
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
this has been a very bad day,
My friends have denied me
I have failed myself, and my potential
My future looks quite dim when it was once bright.
All is for naught and I'm just a little person in a big cold world.
Anonymous
10:51:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, frustration, future, I miss you
No Stanford for PChis.
Published by PChis 5 comments
Tags: application angst, by PChis, college, reality
agh why wont you tell me if i got in or not.
Anonymous
12:25:00 AM
Published by numero-seis 2 comments
Tags: application angst, college
Thursday, March 29, 2007
What are the odds of being wait listed at three different schools? Fuck it all.
Published by thewordofrashi 4 comments
Tags: by thewordofrashi, college
I would rather die than have Alzheimer's disease. I hope I'll remember that.
Published by TintedFragipan 0 comments
Tags: by TintedFragipan, death, sickness
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
DAMMIT! Is Draco Veritas not availible anywhere? I gotta get my free internet HP Cassie Claire fix! And she's left Schnoogle since I read the first two in the trilogy! AAAAAUUUUUUUUGGGGH!
Anonymous
06:57:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 2 comments
soccer season starts today.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmm :]
Anonymous
06:54:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 0 comments
Tags: happiness
Congratulations! The Admissions Committee and I take great pleasure in offering you a place in the Duke University Class of 2011. We are delighted to give you the opportunity to become part of the Duke community.
Anyone else?
Anonymous
06:07:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 4 comments
Tags: acceptance, college, happiness
Turns out the man was right all along:
"Its not a cry that you hear at night, its not somebody whose seen the light, its a cold and its a broken hallelujah"
Anonymous
12:35:00 AM
Published by Hannah 6 comments
Tags: depression, dissatisfaction, lyrics
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
...I just want to believe in us.
Anonymous
01:08:00 AM
Published by numero-seis 1 comments
Tags: dating, relationships, sadness
Monday, March 26, 2007
every time my bf and I hang out, we spend the majority of the time being physically intimate. it's fun, but I wish sometimes that we could control ourselves long enough to have conversations, do other things, etc. looking back, it seems sort of hollow.
any suggestions?
Anonymous
08:57:00 PM
Published by thewordofrashi 9 comments
Tags: intimacy, relationships, shallow
anyone know how to check a status on a unca application?
Anonymous
06:11:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 5 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), application angst, college
I need to talk to my best friend, but she's not around when I really need her.
Anonymous
04:55:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 3 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, frustration
It may not be my dream school, but I am SO excited to know where I'm going to college.
Anonymous
04:33:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 0 comments
after closing down at work at night, i go outside and start acting like im texting, so when my associates pass me by they'll think im important.
for once i wish i actually had someone to text.
lame.
Anonymous
12:44:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 4 comments
Tags: general angst, I suck, lies, lonely
Everyone around me is in a relationship except one friend of mine. That's complicated because he loves me and I don't love him, (which is stupid because he's a nice guy and all, but this stuff is supposed to happen, not be forced...) and now apperantly so much as agreeing to hang out with him now is 'leading him on'.
The person I do love just got a girlfriend last night to match up with all the other 'friends' who all hooked up over spring break and never told me about it.
Thanks guys.
I deleted all the information off of my facebook, removed my aim profiles, privatized every livejournal account.
I'm going to dissappear off of the face of the planet socially.
...and none of them are actually going to notice.
Anonymous
11:23:00 AM
Published by numero-seis 2 comments
Tags: bitter, boys, cynicism, friends/friendship
My friend told me that she liked him...but I don't know how I can stop...because I'm falling into him and I don't know how to pull back out.
Anonymous
01:34:00 AM
Published by numero-seis 1 comments
Tags: boys, friends/friendship
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Hey guys
What turns you off?
Yes I do realize there are lots of different opinions.
Anonymous
08:56:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 11 comments
i love him. why is that so hard to admit? maybe because he doesn't love me. well sure thats nice thats really nice. to let someone love you but you not love back... thats like letting someone buy you a gift and then you not giving them one. ok so maybe he loves me just a bit but we will never mesh again. nope never. then why does it feel like we are still in love but without all the good stuff?
Anonymous
08:14:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 6 comments
Tags: analogy, frustration, love, unrequited love (girl's side)
I stuck it in once and then I pulled it right back out..."no" I told her, not without a condom.
I now there's not much risk in pregnancy, but exactly how small is it?
Anonymous
06:24:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 4 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), sex
I suppose, even after all of this time, I'll always be at least a little bit in love with you.
And...the fact that you missed me made me ache with happiness.
I thought I didn't care...but I did.
Anonymous
03:58:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 3 comments
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I worry about my ugly friends and that no one showing an interest in them yet might be an indication that no one ever will.
I want to have faith in their good(ish) personalities and intelligence but it is not easy.
Anonymous
01:40:00 AM
Published by The Watcher 5 comments
Tags: beauty, friends/friendship, intelligence
Friday, March 23, 2007
I hate situations where everyone seems to know someone there, except me. I feel that im connected enough to see The social life i could have but im just not able to reach out and grasp it.
Anonymous
10:54:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 3 comments
Tags: life, no friends
two drums and a cymbal fall down a canyon
*Ba-boom chhss*
I love band kids.
Anonymous
10:17:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 5 comments
Tags: band/orchestra, joke
So ive enjoyed the single life for awhile, its fun, because i didnt have to feel like this.
(I also didnt know what you felt like...that changed)
So we've been talking for months, its great, the saftey of never having to look a confident in the eye.
(but of course when we did lock eyes it was obvious who God gave first pick too, at least in the eyes department, and to think i was on this bouncing ball before you were)
So you were always the first to break the conversations off, sleep, you said was of high importance.
(And I swear after sleeping with you its gained a few notches on my ladder, yeah we didnt go beyond eachother's warmth, i didnt think to venture until later)
So I asked you then, when the lighting was just right, and we were both comfortably in bed "If i kissed your lips, would you slit my throat?"
(Yeah its a morbid sense of humor, and a lovely band allusion, and you did give me the answer I had been praying for....if only you gave it to me a closer....then 659 miles away.)
Ive learned from my mistakes
(i think about them enough)
You told me afterwards i needed to stop playing it safe
(little late for that eh)
I apologized.
And told you that you had to understand that
You burn so bright
For so many...
I have to be so very very careful with someone that beautiful.
forgive me.
Anonymous
02:17:00 AM
Published by sithgirl 2 comments
Tags: apology, intimacy, joke, relationships, secret
It is 1:47 in the morning. I have less than two pages written of my six page DBQ worth three test grades.
I give up on junior year.
Anonymous
01:48:00 AM
Published by sithgirl 4 comments
Tags: procrastination, school
Thursday, March 22, 2007
I'm gonna stop obsessing over you, stalking you, delighting in your every flaw and cursing every positive trait you have. I'm getting help from a psychologist soon. Nobody knows I'm so pathetically enslaved to comparing myself to you, trying to surpass you in every field, trying to prove to myself that I'm at least your equal if not your better--when I've never even met you face to face!--and hopefully, no one will ever know. I'm ashamed of this, it's ruining my life, and I'm gonna try to stop it.
Anonymous
10:06:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: change, competitive, regret, stalking, therapy
A boy called my house today to ask if you have a boyfriend. I told him no then hung up the phone.
Why doesn't anyone ever ask that about me? And if they do why hasn't anyone DONE ANYTHING?!
I'm sick of being single.
Anonymous
06:23:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 3 comments
Tags: dating, frustration, relationships
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
how far is too far when flirting with a guy friend who has a girlfriend? i don't like him like that, it's just fun. but i don't know how much his girlfriend would like it.
Anonymous
08:37:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), flirting
I'm crying because of a complete stranger.
He masturbated in the seat behind me at the movie theater.
I should've punched him.
Anonymous
06:09:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 12 comments
I read all the articles about the Wakefield HS drinking scandal, just so that I can sigh at the end of the article because your name wasn't there.
I miss the days when we were best friends, and I miss the days when I heard from you.
I hope you haven't gotten stupid in high school. I don't ever want to read your name in one of those articles.
Anonymous
05:35:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 0 comments
Tags: drinking, friends/friendship, I miss you, school
I didn't believe in true love, I still don't believe in it as far as mutuality is concerned, but I do believe in one person's ability to love truly with the complete fullness of one's soul.
I think I was really, am really, and maybe will always be in true love.
I'm not that young, I'm not without experience. Older friends of mine are already getting married, starting out in promising careers, moving on in life.
It feels like I've already lost The One.
Anonymous
02:49:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 1 comments
Tags: love
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
"And life is for the alive, my dear, So let's keep living it --!"
--Sweeney Todd
PS: COME SEE IT KTHX. And listen for my terribly exciting part--I play the linnet bird. :D
Published by Hannah 1 comments
I'm worried about you. Get better, please.
Anonymous
10:30:00 AM
Published by numero-seis 3 comments
Tags: compassion
Monday, March 19, 2007
Thanks for playing pretend with me today. On a more real note:
I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU,
a thousand times, I LOVE YOU!
Hopefully our secret identities will blossom a secret romance. Or a real one if I'm super lucky.
Anonymous
11:36:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 4 comments
I hate girls (and boys) who are overly romantically sensitive and think that every single boyfriend (or girlfriend) they ever have must be the one they're going marry and be with forever and ever. They post grotesque make-out/dry sex pictures of themselves all over the place as if it's some gorgeous new phenomena. They become one self-centered blob, sucking on each other every where they go, even the principal's office.
Please grow up and get a hold of yourself. I know what falling in love is, and it's not whatever the hell you're doing.
Anonymous
11:18:00 PM
Published by 龙年 6 comments
Tags: life, love, relationships, romance
u are taking my best friend to prom
why the hell isn't it me?
u don't even like her
pissedofffffff
10:15:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 1 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, prom
He is two years younger than me... so wrong... but suddenly it feels very right. Please help me, I feel kinda pedo.
Anonymous
10:14:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 5 comments
Tags: boys
i can't tell you what i did or else i'm scared you'll never want to speak to me ever again. i'm stupid, i fully admitt that, and i'm sure that if i lose your friendship i'll lose everything that is keeping me here.
Anonymous
10:13:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 0 comments
Tags: fear, friends/friendship
These lyrics remind me of you:
"She's the kind of girl who gets her slings and arrows from the dumpster
The kind who tell you she's bipolar just to make you trust her
She's the kind of girl who leaves out condoms on the bedroom dresser
Just to make you jealous of the men she fucked before you met her"
I wonder if you know who you are.
Anonymous
09:36:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 6 comments
I had forgotten how good multiple orgasms were...
Anonymous
04:17:00 PM
Published by 龙年 4 comments
Tags: sex
In that dark room I lay on your chest and listened to our heartbeats together that one last time. Our breathing grew quickly together, too, together. From the shadows I watched the graceful arc of our dreams as they fell.
I was calling down those stars. In my blindness I thought I saw a way clear before me. From a distance I couldn't see the horrible flaming meteorite those falling stars would become.
The tears came down our cheeks in terrible agonizing slowness and as they fell I knew the mortar of our relationship was washed away, all our future was burnt out like a fragile ash, and blown away on the breath of the whispered word 'no.'
A hurricane of words, a maelstrom of thoughts, and a torrent of tears cannot wash away the solemn power of that word!
What sin! What regret! Is there no peace, no penance with which I could change that past? I would do anything, anything. Slay a dragon, walk on fire, swim a river, or die trying if it meant I could be with you again! I would bleed, I would die. I would and I mean it. I never thought I could fall in love so hard, so true, so brutal that it lay like an open wound before the world.
Oh how I HATE the world that let me be this way. How I Despise the God that made me so broken as to reject the only part of me worth anything.
Thsi final year, the applications, the work, the stress, the family that rejected me, the friends that left me, my last floundering attempts to get it under control were voiced in my small request for time.
TIME.
Not forever. Never forever.
But from that moment it was broken. I stand now at the mouth of the gaping abyss and am torn RAW by the openness and the nothingness and the meaninglessness of that forever without you.
Please.
Please come back to me. I'm sorry I ever left you and I'm sorry the stress and the goals and all the stupid frivolous things that don't matter kept me from realizing how important to me you were.
I needed that lesson. I did. I needed it because I would've never realized how dear you were to me before this. I would've never known how special or pure or beautiful and all those things I should've known the INSTANT I laid eyes on you.
Now I know, I know them and they settle in my stomache with a sickening finality.
Please. Please, oh please, I am so sorry.
Any way that I can help you, I will. Any aid you need, I'm there. A shoulder to lean on, a hand to lend, an ear to listen... My mind, my soul, my body belongs to you.
You won't accept it. You shouldn't. You should fidn someone who cantreat you the way you deserve from the very beginning...
...
But I want that person to be me.
The thin thread of hope is wrapped around me, cutting off my blood and air and thoughts and holding me in a tentative agony of uncertainty and a deep, deep fear of never.
Its cold, cold, so cold to be so alone, and the only thing warm is the way this heart burns for you.
Please...
Be happy. My selfish hopes have hurt you enough.
((but really, in my core, in the depths of my bones, I want you to be happy with me... to see you smile at me again... to feel your embrace...))
Give me the opportunity to prove myself to you or let me die trying....
My mind is forever caught in that hour of darkness, in that one moment I so long to change...
...
Please.
Anonymous
03:08:00 PM
Published by 龙年 5 comments
Tags: I miss you, lonely, relationships, selfish, uncertainty
Sunday, March 18, 2007
i didn't get in
99% on my tests and i didn't get in
i'm dead on the inside
god FUCKING dammit
pray for me tonight
this may be your last chance
Anonymous
09:19:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 7 comments
Tags: general angst, wish me luck
So I'm still addicted.
Things are getting worse.
Much worse.
I can't deal with myself any longer.
Anonymous
08:11:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 1 comments
Tags: drugs, general angst
I don't know if it's a crush or just an affinity I feel for her but I really hope it's an affinity because otherwise I will have to start questioning my sexuality.
Anonymous
06:53:00 PM
Published by The Watcher 2 comments
Saturday, March 17, 2007
dr. pepper makes me feel like an octopus, and i want you to know that i would do almost anything to get our friendship back.
Anonymous
07:11:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 2 comments
Tags: follow up post, food, octopus, relationships
oh my fucking god. how did i get wait-listed at unc??
Anonymous
12:30:00 PM
Published by TintedFragipan 4 comments
Friday, March 16, 2007
For the first time in my life, a guy who is not related to me and who is very, very handsome and older told me I'm beautiful. :)
Anonymous
07:28:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 7 comments
Tags: beauty, body image, confidence, happiness
Thursday, March 15, 2007
fever...
100.1
BARF
i'm sorry i sat next to you since you went home early and barfed on the student common room floor... no you've got me sick
Anonymous
11:11:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 0 comments
why am I always stuck in the friend zone??
seriously though...is it something I am doing?
Anonymous
12:32:00 AM
Published by 龙年 3 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, life
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Before I met you I honestly believed that people were reasonable and good and human.
Anonymous
10:26:00 PM
Published by 龙年 2 comments
Tags: you suck
She kind of liked him. You're kind of a bitchface.
Anonymous
07:54:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 5 comments
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
why am i so hesitant to get into a relationship?
Anonymous
08:53:00 PM
Published by numero-seis 3 comments
Tags: relationships, why?
Monday, March 12, 2007
what is the bible's take on mixed marriage outside of christianity?
Anonymous
11:33:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 8 comments
Sunday, March 11, 2007
i don't even have real opinions, i just do what everyone wants me to do. and now the chickens have come home to roost because someone wanted me to do something that other people didn't want me to do so instead i lost all of them.
i can't tell if it's that i don't have real opinions, or if i just don't care.
Anonymous
09:57:00 PM
Published by 龙年 2 comments
Tags: apathy, friends/friendship, opinion
i want to know what it's like. but nobody will teach me. sex, love, inner beauty, outer beauty, everything, anything.
Anonymous
09:56:00 PM
Published by 龙年 3 comments
i took this quiz thing and i guess i didn't realize how rare people like me are, it pretty well fits me.
***Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)***
Your personality type is introspective, principled, self critical, and sensitive.
Only about 2% of all people have your personality - including 3% of all women and around 1% of all men.
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.
Anonymous
06:04:00 PM
Published by 龙年 22 comments
Tags: opinion, pop culture, popular post
hahaha!
http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Main_Page
Anonymous
04:41:00 PM
Published by 龙年 2 comments
Tags: joke, No Content, pop culture
I am terrified.
I have never had sex, but my boyfriend and I have had genital contact. I know that it's possible to get pregnant without sex, though.
And my period should have come a few days ago.
Could I be pregnant?? I can't even remember a time in the past month that we've done anything that risky.
Anonymous
03:48:00 PM
Published by 龙年 3 comments
Tags: period, sex, uncertainty
I'm worried I won't be accepted in to college.
Anonymous
11:51:00 AM
Published by 龙年 2 comments
Tags: college, uncertainty
Saturday, March 10, 2007
okay, focus, she's your close friend, and having any negative feelings about her going out with your ex, would not be supportive. focus.
Anonymous
07:46:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: acceptance, break ups, dating, friends/friendship, relationships
Friday, March 09, 2007
Thursday, March 08, 2007
God, stop it with the "you need to exercise" crap already! God damn it's annoying! Come on, I do the same as most of you! You don't bother others! Is it just my extra weight around the middle? I feel bad enough about it already, thanks. Just shut the hell up already!
Anonymous
10:44:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 4 comments
Tags: body image, fat angst, frustration, fuck you
I'm so alone I can't stand it.
I really can't. I've never thought this hard before about what it takes to end the pain of it.
I'm never going to be loved.
Anonymous
06:39:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 6 comments
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
people don't really understand control freaks.
you think I am one. maybe I am. but its not the way you think it is.
I dont even know how to explain it.
Anonymous
10:01:00 PM
Published by 龙年 0 comments
Tags: understanding
your so self centered nowadays , it seems everything is about you and your girlfriend. What happened to the time when it was just us guys? The two can coexist if you'd let them but no your pussy whipped into leaving your friends for a girl. Just because its the first one you've ever had doesn't mean we all need to hear about it. Bros before hoes man, Bros before Hoes.
Anonymous
09:48:00 PM
Published by 龙年 5 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, girls
I am just as much of a slacker as the other seniors with senioritis...
Unfortunately, I've been this way for years.
But FUCK THAT I'm STILL going to a kick-ass college. With a scholarship.
Kiss my ass, hard workers of the world. Top 50 college, and I had a great life too.
Anonymous
08:52:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 6 comments
Tags: college, happiness, scholarships, seniors
so i went to the interview today not really wanting a job and not really expecting to get hired because of my own inflexible schedule...
but the manager was so impressed that she hired me right away. and gave me a $.50 higher pay than she gave my friend who started working there like 9 mos. ago. hehe.
first job!
advice?
Anonymous
06:54:00 PM
Published by Dr.A 0 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), friends/friendship, money
I think this whole not seeing each other for long periods of time thing is good.
It'd be even better if we stopped talking too.
Anonymous
06:45:00 PM
Published by Dr.A 0 comments
Tags: avoidance
It's a dangerous game I could be playing. I can either risk everything or nothing, but until I make my move, nothing will happen.
We've had this discussion and I know that neither of us will ever start anything.
So I guess the answer is nothing. I wish we were braver.
I don't know what I'm doing.
Anonymous
06:38:00 PM
Published by Dr.A 0 comments
Tags: relationships, uncertainty
For as long as I've known you I've only known you from a distance. From a distance everything looks amazing, I'm told.
Today, though, you looked into my eyes (something you almost never do) and I couldn't help but think of how amazing those eyes were, not even a foot from mine.
You're going far far away, soon, soon, too soon.
I know it's hopeless.
I can't help but think, though, that you'll still be beautiful,
Even from a distance...
Anonymous
06:06:00 PM
Published by Dr.A 0 comments
Uh so... I need cough*want*cough a date to formal so that aside from the whole corsage ceremony, my mom can embarrass me and take corny pictures. So how do I get someone to ask me?
Anonymous
01:30:00 PM
Published by Dr.A 3 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), dating
I just drank a mug full of my parents' sherry because I was in a bad mood. It seems to have helped so I think I will go do my homework now.
Anonymous
01:50:00 AM
Published by Dr.A 4 comments
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i want to tell you i like you
but i know it will just make our fake hate relationship thing be more screwed up... i dont like pretending to hate you.
Anonymous
11:13:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: crush, facade, relationships
he's probably going to die soon. of cancer. and then my father will probably lose it.
i hate it when all you can do is anticipate. fuckk. he's probably the nicest person i've ever known too...
Anonymous
10:44:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: death, friends/friendship, frustration, parents
Yoohoo is phucking delicious, yes I spelled it with a ph.
Anonymous
10:02:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
he said "i love you" but he didn't mean it that way.
i don't think he realizes how much being around him is slowly breaking my heart.
otherwise he'd stop doing things like that without meaning them.
i'm trying really had not to take them the wrong way.
Anonymous
08:42:00 PM
Published by 龙年 1 comments
When I heard my friend had been pregnant I tried to be kind and supportive.
I went home and puked.
It disgusted me. She had something inside her, and she's the same age as me.
Inside her.
Anonymous
08:22:00 PM
Published by 龙年 3 comments
Tags: friends/friendship, pregnancy
What does sperm taste like? and how awkward would it be if I tried his?
Anonymous
03:59:00 PM
Published by 龙年 8 comments
Monday, March 05, 2007
i keep listening to clap your hands say yeah, not because i like them, but because they remind me of you.
Anonymous
11:18:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
Tags: music angst, nostalgia
i can't do this anymore.
do you think i fucking asked for this?! is this the lifestyle that you think i dreamed of? no. but if i've learned anything, it's that dwelling on your problems just makes them worse, and all anyone can do is move on.
Anonymous
11:17:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
Tags: change, frustration
Administrator Resignation
I would like to use this post as my chance to announce my decision to relinquish my duties as an administrator for tangst.blogspot.com
I've enjoyed my time here and, while I may not have been good to Tangst, Tangst has been good to me. Really, regardless of how it may have seemed, I did enjoy moving posts from the main page and reading about your problems. Usually.
Anyhow, you, the Tangsters, are welcome to use this final post of mine as a thread for taking some final potshots at me, though I can't guarantee that I will read them.
Take care.
Published by Graffiti Pastry 6 comments
Tags: admin notice, by Graffiti Pastry
Sunday, March 04, 2007
There are several possibilities:
1. Just when I get a steady boyfriend, more than one suitor starts showing amorous attentions toward me, and it is a cruel twist of fate that I have to turn so many nice guys away simply for being too late.
2. These attentions are completely platonic and I, in my self-centered mind, perceive them wrongly as being of a romantic nature to make myself feel more desired.
3. I feel trapped in a long-term relationship to which I committed before realizing exactly what that commitment meant, and I deal with those feelings by inviting the attentions of other paramours and subconsciously engaging in emotional affairs with all of them.
4. I'm just a bitch.
More and more I believe in number four.
Anonymous
10:30:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 2 comments
"I told him I loved him. Quietly, under my breath. And then I kissed him really hard so he wouldn't have a chance to say anything back, because I knew he didn't feel the same way.
I'm just glad he didn't say it back without meaning it. It means that when, or if, he does...it will mean so much more. I like that he's frugal with love. I like that I have to earn it.
And I especially liked the intensity with which he kissed me back. Fear, lust, uncertainty, and yes...the slightest hint of the beginning of that dirty four letter word. It was beautiful."
UPDATE: He said it. :)
Anonymous
03:55:00 PM
Published by Graffiti Pastry 3 comments
Tags: follow up post, love, relationships
Being in Enloe Theatre, I've discovered, is like...being in a cult.
Do we scare you?
Anonymous
02:01:00 AM
Published by Graffiti Pastry 10 comments
I love my parents to death, but I'm so angry at them for never teaching me to speak, read, and write proper [insert my first language]. I tell people I'm fluent because I would be ashamed to know any less. I mean, it's not completely FALSE. I can listen to pretty much everything (except some super "intellectual" stuff because of the vocabulary, but I think that's pretty normal in all languages, even English) and speak very well, but not as good as I wish I was. I wish I could say that I was fluent and meant it from the bottom of my heart. But I know it's not too late.
Anonymous
01:55:00 AM
Published by Graffiti Pastry 0 comments
I miss the sound of someone's voice on the phone as we fall asleep together.
Anonymous
12:39:00 AM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
Tags: I miss you, sleep
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Haiku about sex
sex sex sex sex sex sex sex
sex sex sex sex sex
Anonymous
11:52:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 8 comments
preface: this is really lame and cheesy and probably incredibly stupid, so try hard not to judge.
he finally checked his facebook (not that many people have them over here... obviously they don't understand that if you're not on facebook you're practically nonexistent) ... and he finally friended me.
we can only go farther from here! first, a few posts. then a private message! and then i'm just going to ask him out. bahaha.
Anonymous
11:34:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
I hate having panic attacks and that when I'm trying to surpress one I become a bitch
Anonymous
09:23:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 0 comments
Tags: drama, general angst, guilt, irritation
I'm failing Calc BC.
I have never been failing a class in my life.
This would probably be a good time to pull it together. If anyone wants to tutor me during 5th lunch or after school, I'd really appreciate it. Or if you know someone who would, let me know.
Published by Queen Sekaf 8 comments
Tags: by Queen Sekaf, parents, question, school, self-improvement, tired
It's been found that when overworked, overstressed, and underfed, that the mind can begin to play tricks on you.
Can a mind just snap out of control like that, then upon acceptance, be perfectly normal again?
Anonymous
07:57:00 AM
Published by Queen Sekaf 0 comments
Tags: acceptance, food, question, stress
where can i buy condoms?
Anonymous
12:03:00 AM
Published by Graffiti Pastry 16 comments
Tags: condoms, popular post, question
I was lying and I am really sorry about it.
I am glad you recognized it though. Thank you for caring enough to look, and bothering to know me well enough to notice that I was not telling the whole truth.
If only you had called me out on it.
Anonymous
11:06:00 PM
Published by Graffiti Pastry 0 comments
Tags: lies
Friday, March 02, 2007
Ojalá que llueva café en el campo.
Anonymous
10:07:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 3 comments
Tags: food, not in english, weather, wishful thinking
I just really miss Interlochen.
Published by Hannah 0 comments
Tags: by Hannah, I miss you, music angst, summer
i have a slight crush on Graffiti Pastry
Anonymous
07:16:00 PM
Published by Hannah 5 comments
Tags: admin crush
Masturbating is actually helping my sex life.
Anonymous
07:10:00 PM
Published by Hannah 1 comments
Tags: health, self-improvement, sex
so, guys: pubic hair or no pubic hair?
Anonymous
06:56:00 PM
Published by Hannah 4 comments
Tags: advice (wanted), girls, health, poll
If you broke up with her to be with that ho I'm going to hire someone to kill you.
Anonymous
04:51:00 PM
Published by Hannah 2 comments
They are so amazing, so glamorous. They live a life of flirting and intrigue. They are the best of the best, the valedictiorian, the salutatorian, the tennis star, the chess champian, the theater children, the elite. They can get away with wearing evening dress to school while not looking like complete idiots. They can talk back to the teacher, and everyone loves them for it.
I want to be one of them. God, I want to be one of them.
Anonymous
01:04:00 PM
Published by Hannah 4 comments
Tags: bitter, jealousy, perfection
i dont think i've ever wanted to cry this badly
ever
Anonymous
12:39:00 AM
Published by 龙年 0 comments
Tags: sadness
Thursday, March 01, 2007
This time of year is hard on relationships. I can't wait till spring.
Anonymous
11:36:00 PM
Published by 龙年 1 comments
Tags: future, relationships, time
I don't know why it bothered me so much to hear it aloud. I've always known he's smarter. He learned things at a younger age than I did and learned more. He took on intellectual hobbies. But it's still sad to know (and know that you think)that I am not the smart one. I never was and I never will be.
By the way, it didn't help when you laughed for a very long time afterwards and said "It's okay, you're smart too."
Anonymous
11:32:00 PM
Published by 龙年 1 comments
Tags: intelligence, siblings
I don't know how not to apologize, for everything. I know it pisses people off, but I just can't stop. I feel like if I don't apologize all the time, even if it's just for standing where someone needed to walk or for mistakenly interrupting a conversation or even for existing, I'll come off as arrogant and self-centered.
I really do feel like my existence is a crime, and that maybe a lifetime of "sorrys" will make up for it.
Anonymous
11:25:00 PM
Published by 龙年 1 comments
i'm starting to slip in school.
not terribly, but i've basically stopped doing the majority of my homework and i don't feel like i have the will to do anything. i think it's more than senioritis, because i've had that before and that's just laziness. i don't know why i do this to myself. i missed a day of school and now i'm ridiculously behind in almost all my classes especially my harder APs and i don't want to do ANYTHING.
crap. i hope this goes away soon.
Anonymous
09:47:00 PM
Published by sithgirl 1 comments
Tags: apathy, frustration, school, seniors
every time you go, you apologize. Every time I say it's okay.
every time it hurts like hell, but I lie to make you feel better.
Anonymous
10:28:00 PM
Published by thewordofrashi 0 comments
get off my back, now. i'm sorry i'm not what you want, but no one can handle what you want. when i say no one, i mean no one. i'm doing my best. love you, but it's hard.
Anonymous
09:47:00 PM
Published by thewordofrashi 0 comments
Tags: Back Off, dissatisfaction, perfection