The other day I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine that started about her smoking habits (about a pack a day). She was lighting another one up and I guess she read my expression because she said something like "yeah, maybe some day I'll quit". I asked her why she doesn't now and she said it was because she didn't care what happened to her. I asked why she didn't love herself and she said "well it's kind of difficult to love yourself when your own father doesn't". And I realized then that it's true, he really doesn't. All this time I'd thought he was so cool for always letting us stay out late and giving us a a ton of money and leaving us alone, but I suddenly realized that he does that because he doesn't want the responsibility of being a Dad. He might be 50, but he's got the emotional maturity of a 15 year old. He figures if he just lets her do her own thing she'll be happy. But her Mom's a total wreck and she doesn't have anyone to support her. And she really needs it, and the kind she needs isn't always the kind that I or her other friends can give. Basically, I'm really worried about her and haven't been able to get it off my mind all week.
Queen Sekaf
11:23:31 PM
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yea i had a friend like that and her sittuation went as far as her being suicidal. her dad would always go out with at night and her mom would try to be there but wasn't. it was just me trying to save this girls life who I befriended out of pity because she didn't have any other friends. it was so stressful and I couldn't handle it so I told my counselor. she got help kindof but she'd lie to them all the time and tell me what she really felt. it was really annoying so i told her stop talking to me because i couldnt help her anymore. I think she wanted attention.
Yeah, this girl is suicidal too. She's also manic depressive, bi-polar, ADHD, and has really bad substance abuse problems. I actually really like her though; I'm not involved with this just because I feel sorry for her.
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