I planned out my suicide last night. Down to the details. The date, the time, the method, everything.
Is this normal?
At least, I sure hope it's just a awkward-teenage maniac depression phase I'm going through and I'll snap out of it soon enough.
Anonymous
06:11:14 PM
15 comments:
maniac? i believe you mean -manic-
no, thats not normal, get help. talk to someone.
not grammar, spelling
No. It's not normal. Get off your computer right now and seek professional help.
And to anonymous1 - shame on you.
Usually I am one of those grammar/spelling freaks. But with trivial things. Somebody's life? Not so trivial.
OP, get help.
The Hopeline number is 1-800-SUICIDE, or 1-800-784-2433. They're there for you 24 hours a day.
Please, tell your best friend, tell your parental unit, tell Hopeline, tell a stranger on the sidewalk.
Tell somebody who can help you get help.
Suicidal thoughts may be common, but they're not normal or good.
Nobody wants to have to attend your funeral.
Remember that.
C'mon dawg, suicide's the easy way out. No matter how down you get, there's always something else. Go get help, you don't really want this. There are people who love you, whether you think they do or not. Trust me, this is coming from somebody who doesn't express his emotions. Don't do anything you can't undo.
just listen to some happy music or something
You got some real good advice here. Please talk to someone. Anyone. Right now. It is NOT normal and you need to be with someone all the time. Never be alone. If you can't afford help call that number the other guys gave you on this site or call The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints any number in the phone book and tell them you need to talk to the missionaries or Stake President and they can set you up with someone to talk to for free. I know they can help you. Even if you don't think you need help just tell someone your plans. Please. My friend did this and it was totaly random and thousands were effected by it. He probably never even knew how sad so many people got.
Oh c'mon now... this person is no freak. Sure they may need help, but who doesn't? OP, you are a human being just like the rest of us. I suppose the main delineation of whether or not you need help lies in whether or not you really expect yourself to go through with it. See, I want to make this clear since I too, as many others though they probably won't admit it, have thought about suicide. You know, the process and everything. I used to have this sort of sick fantasy of suicide during a seminar in my 10th grade english class. Just kinda get up while everyone is talking... calmly walk over to a window and sit on the sill. Then gently pull a gun out of my jacket and converse with the class, until mid-word I blew my brains out. Not that I really wanted to do that.. but if I was gonna go by my own hand.. that was how I wanted to do it. Alright, perhaps not the same scenario... and yet, in a way, I think most people will understand what you're feeling, and empathize in some sense or another.
Empathy and a desire to help can of course be mixed.
I remember the letter I wrote. I never intended to go through with plans, but I would write pages and pages as if I were already dead.
Still, to this day, I think about jumping every time that I'm near a high ledge or I have access to a roof. It's just an ingrained thought process.
Just because a lot of us understand the types of thoughts you're having, that doesn't mean that we think it's okay, in our lives or in yours.
Help is out there.
ATTENTION!
There. Happy now?
anon 11, you're retarded....
^Not retarded, only cynical. After so many heartfelt, perhaps slightly sappy comments urging the poster to get help and remember that people love him/her, perhaps the thing that the OP needs now is a swift little kick of reality. Might bring 'em to his or her senses.
I think I'm better now. I guess I'm still a bit depressed, but I talked to people and that really helped. They told me to make a list of good qualities that I have, and I've realized I actually do have some good qualities. I'm of some use in this world. I'm not a complete failure, and ending it isn't the right way to make life easier.
I probably won't commit suicide.
I appreciate that all of you care enough about my problems to give me advice. And the person that corrected my spelling, don't worry, no hard feelings.
Thank you, just keep on talking to people. you're worth it.
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