I thought I could handle it. I really did think so.

It's been months, but now I've lost him for good. I haven't cried this much, for this long, this hard since we broke up. I've already thrown up twice.

But the mere "what if" of the two of them together... I can't take it.

I thought I had pulled myself back together, I was trying to date again. Not trying very hard, but trying.

I havne't posted here for months, but I don't have anyone to talk to. It just hurts so damn much.

Why do I fuck up my life so badly?
Why am I such a stone?

I can't do this. To her. To myself. But especially to him. It's not fair.

I've made such a mess of things.


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06:31:35 AM