How fucking messed up is it that right after a panic attack, I call my exboyfriend to talk through the fact that I was raped rather than my current boyfriend?
God. I don't know what my problem is. I don't know if I'm still in love with my ex, or if it's that sense of security, compassion, and familiarity I crave. Especially when my current boyfriend is so damn closed off.
I seem to have all the answers..until it's my messed up life.
Anonymous
01:37:31 AM
2 comments:
i don't think you should beat yourself up about. we all do things that require explanation, but sometimes can't come up with one. i think you just needed to be with someone that you trusted and felt safe with... and maybe your current boyfriend can't provide you with that.
seriously, i think you have bigger problems. you're okay!
That's funny. I always think about my ex after I have a panic attack. Or I used to. I don't anymore.
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