i've been making plans to run away in my head all day. i might do it this time.
Anonymous
02:14:59 PM
Post anything that you want - a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Post twice if you'd like. And then share the site with your friends.
15 comments:
I've definitely contemplated it, and came close enough once that it took a major force of will to unpack my bag and stay.
Why, if you don't mind me asking, are you planning to run away?
where would you go?
the same reasons i found myself bleeding on the bathroom floor a little while ago. but the urge has passed, i'm staying. for now.
Are you the same person that posted the cutting topic?
actually yes
Tell us your problems. We'll listen.
i've been on the verge of cutting for almost 5 years now. it was really hard not to do it. a lot of shit has happened, some of which i've posted about before. lately i've been getting a lot of pressure from people (especially my mom), and it feels like i'm expected to do everything perfectly. i've been having a hard time dealing with it all, and today i broke down and cut myself. fortunately i had the sense to put peroxide and a bandaid on it, so it should be ok. it's not in a place where anyone will see it. right now i should be writing a paper, but i'm feeling too messed up to even concentrate long enough to make a thesis. i've been trying to be productive all day, and yesterday too, but i can't focus. all i can do is think about everything that's going on and i can't see a way out. there's really nothing i can do about anything. i'm seriously thinking about not doing this paper. i've been having these weird feelings that i won't make it past high school anyway. it's almost a relief to have done it and gotten it over with, but at the same time i feel guilty, especially posting about it on here. i'm not looking for pity. i just wanted to write it down somewhere my parents wouldn't find out. when i can think of more concrete things to write, i'll post that too. thanks so much for listening. it means a lot to me.
I don't know about anyone else, but I know that tomorrow at school I'm going to wander the hallways looking for someone with a bandaid on their wrist. And if I find one, I'm giving them a hug.
^ What a wonderful idea. I'll do the same. We're here for you op.
Same here. Except the OP said the cuts aren't in an obvious place. I will look for anybody in pain (emotionally or physically) and smile my biggest smile. And hug, if it's at all possible. And if you go to Enloe, OP.
i know how you feel
yes i go to enloe, but i'm taking a day off today. pretended to throw up this morning. but i'll be there tomorrow. this means a lot to me.
Just always know that there is someone who will listen to you. Know that there is always another choice, and that another day will always dawn. Never feel like you have no other choice. I can't tell you how to live your life, because I know that is exactly what you need less of. But I can promise you that we all care about you and want to see you happy, and that is something you can trust.
Sir, recognize yourself. It seems to me that you have had an unbelievable amount of pressure shoved down your throat. But this is school pressure. Think of it as a school problem.
What pisses you off?
Can you change it?
Can other people help change it?
I fucking hate school. So do many people here. We understand- though maybe not to the same extent- but still understand the taste. Dont feel guilty, getting it out is half the fun. We know youre not looking for pity. Hell, we're teenagers, we know how much pity helps.
In the meantime friend, try to ease up on the cutting. If your parents go balistic with grades and stuff like mine, think about what would happen if they discovered cutting. Nasty buisness.
Lastly, I would have to echo Knight_Racer's post, I could not have said it any better myself.
People do care, sir.
Remember it.
I... think... I... know... you...
Please, please, let my instinct be wrong.
Post a Comment