He's gone. and this time he's gone for real.

I want to scream. but more than that, I want to hear him say goodbye.


Anonymous
02:03:00 AM
8/16/2008

I found out he likes another girl today, and it breaks my heart.


Anonymous
07:02:00 PM
8/15/2008

I miss everyone.


Anonymous
03:54:00 AM
8/15/2008

college is weird


Anonymous
11:52:00 PM
8/14/2008

I'm so in love with a girl. I don't want to ruin our friendship by saying something, but she's the reason I can't look at anyone else. No one in the world compares to her.

We've fooled around a bit, but that was just innocent experimentation by two friends, right? At least, I'm sure she feels that way. Maybe.

Girl on girl love. Too confusing.


Anonymous
07:42:00 PM
8/14/2008

Introverts shouldn't give speeches.


Anonymous
12:00:00 AM
8/14/2008

That night was amazing. For once, I wasn't in charge. I didn't have to call the shots or make the moves. I just had to say yes. It was the greatest any man had ever made me feel.


but he doesn't remember. He knows it happened, and he hates me for it.

but he doesn't remember.

I don't know if I should be angry or cry.

I want to talk it out with him... that's my usual approach to 'issues'...
but everything's telling me that's the wrong idea.

I wish I could just sleep it off, but my dreams recreate him.

God. Damn. It.
I'm not like this. I don't mourn over the past; I move on. Why the fuck do I care? We have ONE mutual friend, and she knows I don't deserve his hate. It doesn't fucking matter what he thinks of me. We may never see each other again.

God. Fucking. Damnit. This is why I don't do emotions.

Fuck you, irony.


Anonymous
12:39:00 AM
8/12/2008

I got TOTALLY fucking smashed last night.

I made a horrible first impression on an attractive senior guy I was hanging out with for the 1st time.

He just bought a new white mustang and I barfed in it 3 times.

I barfed on HIM and my bestfriend several times. I got drunk really quickly because I was drinking scotch whisky straight from the bottle. I have no god damn clue what I was
thinking!

He and my bestfriend had to change their shirts multiple times and the guy held me up in the shower while my bestfriend washed puke out of my hair. They had to actually call a 3rd person to help them; another guy I'm sure I made an impact on that night.

I remember absolutely nothing about last night except for laying on some grass and someone pouring cold water on my face, the senior holding me up in the shower, and my bff trying to get me to pee, but then I started throwing up so she put the trash can in my lap, meanwhile both guys were standing in the doorway of the bathroom-watching.

I'm also told I asked the senior if he had a big dick and then continued to ask him to stick his dick inside of me. lovely. yes I know.

-first time I've ever gotten trashed and I wouldn't change it for the world.=]

NO REGRETS. EVER.

p.s. I'm still having the hangover right now.


Anonymous
10:11:00 PM
8/11/2008

Best. Race. Ever.

i have to have surgery and i'm scared out of my flipping mind. its just getting a cyst removed but seriously...i've never even had a broken bone and its really nerve-racking.


Anonymous
08:13:00 PM
8/10/2008

I've been horny for a few weeks now and I decided to give masturbating a try.
I've tried at least 10 times now and I still haven't had an orgasm. I've read up to see what objects I might use and tried a few(pen,pencil,hairbrush,etc.)
And I'm getting pretty frustrated at this point. any suggestions or ideas? anyone?


Anonymous
01:24:00 PM
8/10/2008

I know it silly and a bit sexist by some views but I find a girl who shaves her pubes alot more attractive , Im going out with this girl and I wish she would shave or at least so among other things I could go down on her more easily how might I tell her this?


Anonymous
11:01:00 AM
8/09/2008

Fuck. I like a guy who likes my friend and I dont know what she thinks about it. some other girl likes him too and he knows. he confides in me,we're pretty good friends even though we have different circle of friends.....im loosing sleep because of him

uuuh...I dont wanna tell him though since it might freak him out and I might loose him as a friend. my god, is there anything I CAN do?


Anonymous
07:45:00 PM
8/07/2008

I'm 15, single, and a virgin.

I really want to have sex. I really want to know what it feels like. but I don't have a boyfriend right now and I don't just wanna go out and sleep with some random guy I hardly know.

what to do..what to do...


Anonymous
07:04:00 PM
8/07/2008

How do I trust my boyfriend? He's done nothing to make me feel like I can't trust him, but he's just so fricken friendly that girls think he's flirting. How do I stop this stupid insecurity? Please help!


Anonymous
03:04:00 PM
8/06/2008

okay so I have a question for all you guys out there:

I know that typically guys find girls with big boobs more attractive than girls with small boobs, but if they have nice bodies and pretty looking faces are small boobs a total turnoff/letdown to a guy?


Anonymous
11:44:00 AM
8/06/2008

I was going to try out for American Idol at Crabtree on Saturday, and I thought you could use instruments like last time, but then I found out it's a capella so I changed my mind. :(


Anonymous
04:00:00 PM
8/03/2008

my roommate is prettier than i am


Anonymous
07:32:00 PM
8/02/2008

i've forgotten i written the orginial post and commented on it.


Anonymous
02:48:00 PM
8/02/2008

I'm not from Enloe and I don't even know anyone from Enloe!


Anonymous
12:30:00 AM
8/01/2008

is anyone else so stoked about shark week that its absolutely ridiculous?


Anonymous
05:27:00 PM
7/29/2008

Josh, please stop killing yourself. You're better and smarter than that. I miss who you were and you're scaring me.


Anonymous
12:46:00 PM
7/29/2008

I smoke weed every once in a while. Not nearly every day or even every week. When I feel like I want some I buy some, maybe once every two or three weeks if even. One of my friends completely freaked out on me because of it and started citing health problems and how I'm going to fail out of college because of my "habit." This post is dedicated to all of you overprotective and wayyy too sheltered friends out there: fuck off. I'm not going to fail, I'm not going to die, and I'm not going to go crazy. It's just weed. If you don't want to be around me when I smoke it I completely understand 100% but that doesn't change the person I am when I'm sober so shut the fuck up.


Anonymous
08:13:00 PM
7/28/2008

take leaps of faith it is worth it ten fold.


Anonymous
01:03:00 PM
7/25/2008

Im so happy , I feel better than I have in a long time, I dont care about eloquence or style I just want to cry out to the world my joy.

Anonymous
09:06:00 AM
7/25/2008

if you just completed your first year of college and your a guy can you date a girl who is just coming into college?

If two people go on a date that might or might not be a date should they guy still pay, should a guy usually pay?

If a girl has got a crush on another guy but seems interested in you how could you tell if shes just friendly or if there is more?


I feel embarrassed just asking these questions but They are occupying the back of my mind and stuck in my head like sand in a oyster. Ive come across most of the questions/ situations before but this time it just feels different, its something I really don't want to mess up.


Anonymous
05:41:00 PM
7/23/2008

damn. I was sort of hoping we'd go a whole month without a post.

I've said this before....Tangst is dead.


Anonymous
01:01:00 PM
7/20/2008

god I cant stop thinking about her and it terrifies me. She scares me and excites me more than anything Ive every encountered. I only hope I'm brave enough.


Anonymous
12:59:00 PM
7/20/2008

holy shit I just figured out how sex is supposed to work and it is AWESOME now!

that's all.


Anonymous
12:45 AM
07/20/08

I got my AP score! 4 in English IV :D


Anonymous
7/18/2008
08:02:00 PM

...I hate to be the one to ask, but what the heck.

AP scores, anyone?


Anonymous
7/17/2008
07:45:00 AM

i've been waiting for a long time for my post to get up so i can read comments on it. i guess the admins are all on vacation.

which means i guess most everyone else is too. no comments for me.


Anonymous
7/14/2008
11:47:00 PM

I give my boyfriend oral because I'm afraid to have my REAL virginity gone forever, even though I know we love each other.

It is NOT that much fun to give, and I don't get the same kind of pleasure that he does in return. I really wish I was ready for sex.


Anonymous
7/12/2008
01:27:00 AM

My summer self seems to be so different than my school self. I seem to get stupider in the summer, it's probably just the idiots that I hang out with, though.


Anonymous
7/05/2008
08:32:00 PM

remember the boat times?


Anonymous
7/04/2008
08:25:00 PM

wow its been forever since i've been here. just reading up, and here's a recap.

hair: i got really hairy nipples. dark ones. i pluck, but its probably ab 15/nip. and i gotta pluck the happy trail. also gotta shave my legs every other day. yup, that hairy for a girl.

sex: i was gonna save myself for marrage, but then i dated a guy for a while who loved me and we did it. he loved me but i pretended i loved him. never did. never will, and i dont even feel bad ab it, though ive been broken so many times. he still loves me. i've moved on and i'm dating guy. feel like i totally wasted the sex.
at least it was fun.

porn: i swear i'm the only girl who ever watched porn. i was addicted for a while. i've only been clean for 2 weeks and thats pretty darn good for me.

work: my job is one of those good experience jobs, but it sucks. i hate all the stupid office work. sometimes i pass off work to the guys who are older bc they're gentlemen and take it.


thats good for now.


Anonymous
6/30/2008
11:59:00 PM

Power naps at work are the best...right up there with visiting tangst on the job.


Anonymous
6/30/2008
02:14:00 PM

Food for worms

Begin emotion defragmentation subroutine
0%...
Corpse
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Ghost
Definition: A Soul without a Body.

We need both, in short.

10%... Make my day
You do it without trying
I am sensitive to your words
Your touch
Your breath.
Breath
Definition: It keeps you alive. See also: love

20%... Feel something
This is not a suggestion.
Every day I remind myself
Every time you miss something
An angel gets its wings.
Love
Definition: This will wreck your world. See also: Hate, Lust, Fate, Trust, Fake, Dust.

30%... God
Talk to him
He will not listen
Talk to yourself
You will not listen either
35%... (No one is coming to your rescue.)
Faith
Definition: Insanity, pretty packaging. Used in a sentence: My faith is of the slave’s towards the slave master. I know when he will beat me. I know what he wants from me. I know how he feels about me. I trust that he will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, violent. I trust that He will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, wrathful.
Ire
Definition: You’ll know it when you feel it.

40%... Despair
Welcome.
Please try to keep your feet clean.
The mat of human emotion. Wipe them down.
When you focus on one thing you might not succumb.

50%... Alone
I am never alone.
Eyes watch me through crevices.
Cracked blinds and huge bay windows.
Standing outside and waiting for me to join them.
I watch myself and feel the eyes from the future.
When I look back on my actions what will I see?
A story: When I was younger I would sit in my room and feel someone watching me from the ceiling. I have come back to that memory countless times from the viewpoint of the watcher. I am the watcher.
Attention
Definition: If you pay too much you might go broke. If you go broke you might do something crazy. Pay attention to that too. See also: Despair.

60%... Art
Make it when you feel it bubbling out of you.
I look in the mirror and see it spilling out of me.
I can feel it in the hands that clutch at me. See also: Corpse.
Don’t wait too long: the willow bends but the oak breaks under the strain.

70%... Love, redux
Every time I hear love described as a hurricane,
I can feel it welling up in me.
The violent eye wall tearing out of me something necessary to survival. See also: Ghost
Love
Definition: You need this more than anything. See also: Money, Pain, Loss, Gain, Blood, Stain.
Definition: “A hundred miles of pounding rain.”
Definition:

80%... History
Don’t let it define your future.
We aren’t trapped in a glass box called Earth.
We aren’t polluting your water.
We aren’t stuck in these bodies.
We aren’t lost and searching.
We aren’t breaking down now.
Error: stop.
It sucks.
Solution 1: Deal with it. Find a way to make your future bright.
See also: Ghost (A Soul without a Body.)
Solution 2: Let it consume you. The devil is hungry.
See also: Corpse (A Body without a Soul.)

90%... Emotion
Defragmentation almost complete.
Commence Erasure.
Let’s not be sentimental.
What did it ever do for you?
That sick feeling in the pit of your stomach? That’s reality.
Look at the most beautiful girl in the world.
Vapid and vacant: eyes like a cow facing the hammer.
Watch out for the pitfalls. See also: Faith, God, Love, Summer, History, Happiness, Despair.

100%... Healthy
You will feel better.
We have precisely tuned you.
We have stripped away what makes you incomplete.
Now, shattered and broken, we urge you: “Go forth into the world… something about Jesus.”
See also: Love, Faith, Despair, Corpse, 3 Days, Breath
Moreover, you will love freely.
Zeros, zeros are nothing.
10%
100%
1000% better. More effective at the things you need the most.

Talk, you zombie. Feel, you ghast. The best feeling in the world cannot match this. See also: Pressed, Against, The, One, You, Love
Love
Definition: Worth it every time. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Faith.
Definition: Not possible. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Lonely.

Nothing changes unless you change it.
Corpse
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Definition: I want to find you.
Ghost
Definition: A Soul without a Body.
Definition: I know you’re out there.

I hope soo badly that you didn't lose my e-mail adress and that you don't forget about me and that you still think about that plane ride like I still think about it. PLEASSE e-mail me. I want to talk to you so bad.

Anonymous
02:33:00 AM
6/26/2008

I finally had real sex. Not just sticking my dick in her and pulling it out when she said it hurt too much. I actually thrusted and came.

With a condom, of course.

Anonymous
07:32:00 PM
6/25/2008

I just met this completely awesome guy who is sooo much like me it's scary. We even finish each others sentences and we just met!!! Only thing is.. he's a polygamous mormon :S

Anonymous
01:27:00 AM
6/25/2008

man I need a girl so badly it hurts. Not for sex just for someone to be with.

I'm gonna go masturbate.

Anonymous
05:21:00 PM
6/23/2008

A Haiku

Uploading Tangst posts.
I've not done that in so long.
Boring summer, hah!

Every time a customer walks by the window I mutter cuss words under my breath and try to telepathically tell them not to come in my store. Ew. I just got a cut on my finger.

anonymous
05:36:00 PM

Uh, yeah, so I graduated. It's so weird to think that I have zero years of high school left.
Weirdly awesome.
I pity the fools who have another year.

anonymous
12:17:00 PM

I like you.

anonymous
07:19:00 PM

I'm a guy and I hate the smell of pussies. I think that they are disgusting and awful and I hate putting my mouth near one. I have no problems with just my hand. On the other hand I enjoy "getting some" myself so I always return the favor, even though it means I have to endure the stink.

anonymous
05:51:00 PM

i've recently found out that i am a completely shallow, superficial jerk who has unachieveable high standards for guys. i want perfect. i know if i wasn't, than i would've said yes. and i wouldn't have said no so quickly. i probably at least would've considered possibly saying yes to him. yes you. i'm sorry okay? it's just i'm shallow and i've always aimed for perfect finding flaws in everyone, even myself. i know it doesn't help but, it's not you, it me.

anonymous
12:29:00 AM

I'm an extreme left-wing democrat, and I hate debating, and I'm from Canada, yet every guy who I seem to be attracted to is a super conservative couthern republican. Wtf.

Anonymous
03:50:00 PM

My boyfriend was there, and the three of us were walking to our cars and you decided to ride with me. It was dark, and the sky was perfectly clear and the air was just right. I rolled my window down and then you put yours down, and I loved that you preferred fresh air too. You talked about your girlfriend and I talked about my boyfriend, but my feelings for you still didn't change. I've loved you for 4 years, and I still do, and I guess I kind of want to know if you have ever felt it back. I thought you might after that night when it was about 20 degrees outside... you'll know what I'm talking about. If you think you know who this is, and if you've felt the same way, please comment and say so. I really need to know.

Anonymous
03:04:00 PM

I hate insomnia. I'd be leaving for school in two hours if it weren't summer.

Anonymous
05:09:00 AM

I don't like it when people don't post correctly.

Anonymous
11:39:00 PM

I don't think anybody likes bush these days.

(correct in any sense you interpret it)

Anonymous
06:17:00 AM

Do guys prefer girls to shave their pubes bare, or a landing strip? Or do they like a bush?

Anonymous
01:30:00 AM

my boss never went to college. and everytime I ask her about where she went to college or what her major was, she changes the subject.


Anonymous
01:52:00 PM

Why does this site still exist? Or rather, why are the admins still the same? I checked for the hell of it, and here it is? Damn.


Anonymous
5/29/2008
12:17:00 AM

I'm a girl, but I wish I could be a boy for a few days. I'm not trans or anything, I just wonder what it's like to be a boy.


Anonymous
5/28/2008
08:10:00 PM

I got a chinese symbol tatooed on each of my wrists. The swirls line up along my scars perfectly. Now no one will ask me about them again.


Anonymous
5/27/2008
05:26:00 PM

Im back in town from college ready to see my old friends but now they seem to have forgotten me.


Anonymous
12:35:00 AM
5/25/2008

Why am I so jealous of her?

I need to learn to be happy with who I am and stop wanting what she has


Anonymous
11:23:00 PM
5/24/2008

I shaved my dick and ball it itches. gaaaah it itches


Anonymous
09:39:00 PM
5/24/2008

my mind is a prison large enough to tempt, but too small for action.


Anonymous
06:50:00 AM
5/24/2008

Only four people have signed my yearbook and I'm pretty happy with that because I hate everybody and I'm not friends with anyone anymore :/
Four is enough for me. Hell, they're signatures of people I don't even like.


Anonymous
07:02:00 PM
5/22/2008

this is so cliche and typical but I'm in love with my best friend.

aughhhh


Anonymous
11:06:00 PM
5/21/2008

I think subconsciously I get a kick out of ruining all of my friendships because I sure have been going out of my way to do that lately.


Anonymous
09:06:00 PM
5/18/2008

my only caloric intake in the last three days has been from alcohol.

I'm just never hungry anymore. I need to fucking leave this place.

I'm running away to college. As fast as I fucking can.


Anonymous
02:00:00 PM
5/17/2008

I'm going through another self-destructive phase, and I'm determined to bring down as many people possible with me.


Anonymous
06:09:00 PM
5/13/2008

i sucked my own dick and came in my mouth.

how kinky is that?


Anonymous
11:29:00 PM
5/12/2008

i......... really need to lose weight.


Anonymous
09:06:00 PM
5/11/2008

I concede. Rule 34=true. I found this which changed it all.

http://gnymphs.dreamhosters.com/front/thumbs.php?series=1


Anonymous
03:23:00 PM
5/11/2008

I want to have sex with him...how do I know if I'm ready?

And how the hell do I buy condoms without my parents finding out?


Anonymous
07:10:00 PM
5/08/2008

"Cry, 'Havoc!' and let slip the dogs of war"

its on, its on like donkey kong


Anonymous
04:34:00 PM
5/08/2008

I'm concerned that I might not do very well on the US History AP Exam.

Any last-minute advice or reassurances?


Anonymous
09:10:00 PM

Ugh, I hate Jews. They need to get out of our country.


Anonymous
08:15:00 PM

Sometimes it's hard to admit it's over.


Anonymous
03:59:00 PM
5/06/2008

Being voted the Prom Queen is not so great when at the after prom party you discover that the only man you've ever truly loved is in the hands of another woman. I feel like kicking something, but now I have to go to school and face all the people at my school whom I feel the need to get away from.


Anonymous
08:41:00 AM
5/05/2008

Why people say Rule 34 is true? It's not. Not smart enough to get a 3 on the physics AP so stuck here doing physics (V/I)(F*D) ,(Ohm-work), and It'd be great if I could find some inclined plane porn, or some pulley and axle bondage sites, maybe some circular motion bukkake. It doesn't even matter if the girls be ugzzzors, just as long as they not have too much rotational inertia.


Anonymous
08:39:00 AM
5/05/2008

I got a rose tattooed on my wrist to cover the scar. My parents and friends are gonna freak when I start wearing t shirts, but better that then have them see what's underneath.


Anonymous
08:58:00 PM
5/04/2008

Why are my female friends taking over my life? I just broke up with my girlfriend and now they are taking it upon themselves to let her know how much they hate her. I don't want to hurt her anymore and I don't want them to be involved in it. I know they are doing it because they care about me but where is the line drawn between supporting me and hurting her?


morethanjustajock
06:41:00 PM
5/04/2008

Prom08bestnightever
theend.


Anonymous
01:38:00 PM
5/04/2008

I cut myself again. I just want him to save me and the scars were disappearing. I feel so selfish and dirty.

I'm so sorry.


Anonymous
06:57:00 PM
5/03/2008

This is not OK. I am being stressed and worked to my breaking point. Why the fuck wasn't I informed things would be this hard before I accepted the offer of admission. People say its good to be challenged to your limits, that it makes you grow. Fuck that, having to work regularly work 12+ hours on 1 HW assignment is just ridiculous.


Anonymous
08:21:00 AM
5/03/2008

fuck you. I will destroy you. No exclamation points only destruction.


Anonymous
04:08:00 AM
5/03/2008

This rant is pretty pointless in its self to the reader and only really serves any purpose to me, the writer. As such I would recommend that you do not waste your time reading.

My roommate is a pain in my side. A real thorn in the heel of my foot. He the kind of "friend" that creates endless drama that must be sorted through. The kind of person you want to slap with a baseball bat and tell them to shut up before you do it again.

The kind of person who takes every piece of advice and turns it into criticism. Telling him this will only incite further drama and pull me further into this predicament.

I learned a while ago that grudges are pointless. The petty clasping of conflicts only to resurface them during a civil conversation is ridiculous and unnecessary. This is not something he knows.

Anger and frustration is pointless something must be done , I say. But what. Discussion has been tried, but it failed , grinning through it will not suffice, I would prefer not to burn bridges but perhaps I will have to.

Can what was once a friendship be salvaged? Perhaps If i can get my roommate to let go of petty conflicts its possible, if not then I will go the way of so many others that he has come in contact with, stray outside my normal bounds and seek swift and furious vengeance, destroy his life and leave him to sit and think in the rubble.

oh how sweet that would be, yet my logic tells me that it is not the best path for either of us. I will search the safari of human relationships for a solution and if one cannot be found I will slash and burn that jungle and build a parking lot on top.


Anonymous
01:05:00 AM
5/01/2008

i'm glad i finally talked about how we don't talk anymore. i really missed you.

we stopped talking and well...it really affected me.

i mean you were my best friend.

and i guess i want you back in my life...

i think?


Anonymous
09:07:00 PM
4/30/2008

I never meant to be so bad to you
One thing I said that I would never do.
One look from you and I would fall from grace
And that would wipe this smile right from my face.


Anonymous
06:03:00 PM
4/30/2008

The bitch down the hall broke up with her boyfriend two weeks ago. She still wears her promise ring and cries every night. Get the fuck over it. Life sucks. I want to punch her in the face.


Anonymous
02:56:00 AM
4/30/2008

After coming clean to myself and then to my close friends and admitting that I am bisexual, I was finally able to achieve the big O! I'm happy, I'm comfortable, and it's ridiculous that I had to worry just as much about my gay friends' reactions as my straight ones. I have a legitimate sexual orientation, and it feels good to just go ahead and open up. REAL good.


Anonymous
02:53:00 AM
4/30/2008

i really really really hate my job. i'm probably going to quit soon so i can find somewhere else to work over the summer. what's a good place to work?


Anonymous
09:50:00 PM
4/29/2008

I wish I could forget all the times you made me laugh just so it won't hurt as much when I think of all the times you made me cry.


Anonymous
01:57:00 AM
4/29/2008

The school year is almost over.
Post someone you've crushed on this year.


Anonymous
06:06:00 PM
4/28/2008

You're rude, you're violent, you're intolerant of other's ideas, you ignore me for days on end, you're a poseur, and you ditched my friends for the cool crowd.

So why do I like you so goddamn much?


Anonymous
03:39:00 PM
4/28/2008

I don't know how to make my life work.


Anonymous
01:45:00 AM
4/28/2008

the main reason i want to lose weight is so i can wear the clothes i want to, not the ones i have to. and i'm not even that fat.


Anonymous
07:25:00 PM
4/27/2008

Everything I've done in my life has been to please my parents, and they're never satisfied. Just once I wish they'd be proud of me, but they always treat me like shit. I don't even get a "good job" when I did something well. They never seem to appreciate or acknowledge how much I try. All my life I haven't done anything for me. And yet I can't stop trying to please them. I just wish, for once, I'd get a "good job" or "I'm proud of you".


Anonymous
06:15:00 PM
4/27/2008

Can mouthwash prevent an orally transmitted disease? I was at a party and was dancing with this girl when she just kissed me. I hate her for it, it was my first kiss, and it was complete shit. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to kiss her, but I felt like moving my head away would have been rude. I didn't want to swallow but I could only hold the spit in my mouth for so long. I only swallowed once, but as soon as I got back I mouthwashed with listerine. Should I be okay?


Anonymous
04:40:00 AM
4/27/2008

The human brain is a truly, truly amazing thing.

I had sex with him last night. We're both one another's second partners. Seconds are a lot scarier than firsts. I'm actually still freaked out, but I care about him so I don't want him to know. Funny how your writing quality goes down the drain when you're quietly freaking out.


Anonymous
4/24/2008
09:35:00 AM

I called you earlier tonight in a desperate attempt to make you save me. As soon as we hung up, I cried. I knew you weren't coming, but I couldn't help wishing you were.

I need us to be over, but that's hard since there never was an us.


Anonymous
4/24/2008
02:15:00 AM

You know, it was much easier to deal with the fact that I'm attracted to you when you were off-limits. But now that you are single, I find it almost hard to be around you. Should I listen to reason, which tells me I'm leaving next semester and I don't want a long-distance relationship anyway? Or my hormones that tell me that doesn't matter?

But you don't know
Because I am afraid to tell you.


Anonymous
03:12:00 PM
4/23/2008