Monday, April 07, 2008

A Lifetime Passed, Two Years Gone By...

In the last two years, I have passed through a lifetime of joy and pain. I have graduated from high school, defying all the odds. Been rejected by the college of my dreams only to be then not only accepted but given a full scholarship to said college. Been hired and fired and hired back. I have landed a job that seemed perfect, only to have it blow up in my face as a terrible misconception. I have been interrogated and arrested. Witnessed the justice system from viewpoint of both plaintiff and defendant. I have been heartbroken by women, only to find a love deeper and stronger than I could have ever imagined.

I have been shot at, lost my virginity and gotten blackout drunk for the first time in five years. I have traveled across the world, finding that all I really needed was a home. I have become a different person from what I imagined I would be. Realized dreams I never had and lost dreams I have held my whole life.

Just when I think that my life is going in a certain direction, something happens that forces me to reevaluate, rethink everything I did. I feel that I have done and seen more in the last two years than some will experience in their whole lives. But all I want is some certainty. I want to know that my life is going somewhere concrete.

I do not even know what to think anymore. It is the most peace I have felt in a long time.

8 comments:

PChis said...

I really had no idea sir.

Life's a funny thing, no?

Anonymous said...

I think you write like a pretentious dick.

Anonymous said...

Ditto, anonymous two. When you get into this "college of dreams," take a writing class.

Anonymous said...

anon1/2 are bitches.

I admire you knight.

knight_racer979 said...

sorry to have offended your sensibilities, o anonymous posters. Maybe I am a pretentious dick. Or maybe I just write what I feel and the rest of the world be damned. Though that might make me a pretentious dick in and of itself.

Maybe...

And thank you anonymous3. It is always nice to have admirers, especially when you cannot admire yourself.

Anonymous said...

anon1 your a pretentious dick and anon 2 your just dumb because you said ditto to yourself.

Anonymous said...

I think maybe they meant the second poster, who was also anonymous. Coooooome on people.

Anonymous said...

au contraire, knight-racer. I get the feeling your admire yourself very much.