I have been in limerence over one person or another for almost eight years straight. I've managed to keep it mostly under wraps, with exceptions regarding the close friends in whom I confide. But recently I've found myself dropping thinly-veiled (or not veiled at all) hints among everyone -- friends, acquaintances, even some strangers. Like Patrick Bateman, I feel my "mask of sanity" slipping. I hope that expressing my troubles here will help channel my frustration away from the areas of my life where it could irreparably damage my interpersonal relationships.

Being a limerent hurts. So much so, that any attempt to explain it is nearly futile -- especially for someone with my limited literary abilities. I shall thus resort to expletives in an attempt to get my point across, to vent:

Limerence sucks. It hurts so GODDAMN much, especially on Christmas -- and ESPECIALLY when I realize how illogical, pathetic, and downright stupid this whole thing is. I can tell how happy they are together and that there's no way in HELL things could work out the way I think I want them to. And I DON'T WANT MY HAPPINESS TO BE DEPENDENT UPON ANOTHER PERSON. I'm ashamed at my lack of self-control.

I just want this whole mess to end. I want to GROW THE FUCK UP and to move on with my life.


Anonymous
03:06:00 PM
12/28/2010

There are guys I don't know, just boys I've seen and in my head I see them as special. They have strange twists, small parts of them I want to know and get to understand. I don't love them, I just want to be close to them. Is that wrong when I'm in a relationship?


Anonymous
06:58:00 AM
12/09/2010

dear tangst,
good bye.
i'm no longer a teen (or i wont be by the time this is posted) and for the first time ever my life isn't angsty.
thanks for everything.
<3


Anonymous
8/02/2010
05:32:00 AM

I'm spending the night at my boyfriend's in a few days. It's my first time. Advice?


Anonymous
7/12/2010
02:12:00 PM

can someone just shut this website down? its too pitiful to come here and see comments that havent been posted in almost 6 weeks and counting. by the time theyre posted i'm sure the poster has probably either solved their problem or forgotten they even posted it here.


Anonymous
7/07/2010
11:23:00 PM

im racking my brain for the right words to express myself but here i find myself lost in thought scrambling to tell you or anyone how i feel, whats hurting me so deeply but my thoughts are not something i can easily tame when it comes to expressing myself these thoughts rarely leave my head their on the tip of my tounge but refuse to spill out of my lips. im giving this my best shot really i am, please say someone can relate to this feeling.. it seems nearly human instinct to seek out love but what if i dont want to seek it, will it find me?. ive come to accept that im not the kind of girl guys date or so it seems.. its not that i have trouble finding guys that find me attractive the problem is guys think im fun to flirt with, fun to get drunk with, and great to hook up with but when it comes to something more stable the crowd disappears and i find myself alone.


Anonymous
6/27/2010
02:25:00 AM

how do you decide if it is time to break up with someone? Its not love but perhaps its better than being alone... but then maybe there is something better waiting for me...


Anonymous
6/06/2010
01:15:00 AM

I am stressed out of my mind. But I can't talk to anyone about it. And I don't know how to handle it. I just want to cry.


Anonymous
5/29/2010
05:22:00 PM

My name is Anna. I still post here even though I'm semantically (almost!) not suited for "tangst" anymore. It's a part of my history and it will never leave me but for now I am done with it and I feel that as I leave my identity should be revealed (or at least just my first name.) This group helped me get through my first love and it helped me get through my latest. I'm a sophomore in college and my first post on this site was published my sophomore year in high school. I had many posts on the popular list and many posts with comments that helped me through trying times at Enloe. I was a part of Tangst history (literally, I was a part of the phase of the "I Love You (name)" phase of Tangst, okay maybe that gives away my identity but I don't care). I loved you tangst and it's a weird goodbye but it has to be said. I've outgrown you and it hurts but I'm a big girl now. I will never forget you. Thank you for all of your care, support and help.


An(na)onymous
4/24/2010
02:59:00 AM

Fuccck prom


Anonymous
4/21/2010
12:01:00 AM

I like my best friend's brother a lot. He can't stop making fun of me and I can't stop thinking about him.


Anonymous
4/18/2010
03:23:00 PM

Sometimes, I get so scared, I can't breathe. I inhale but nothing seems to go in so I gasp & gasp until bright spots appear infront of my eyes. Then everything comes into focus for a second. The lights are brighter, colors more vivid, the sound of my own small gasps more profound. I crave those solitary moments, the ones that show me how the world can look.


Anonymous
4/02/2010
02:53:00 AM

I'm listening to the arcade fire again and suddenly I can't help but miss you. It reminds me of those cold dark nights when I sat alone in my car crying because I was left by a girl that I adored. My current girlfriend can't possibly compare. But now you're happy with some other guy.

I don't know, I guess I always assumed that, even though you're going to school halfway across the country we would somehow end up together. Fuck it. Blowjobs and an easy girlfriend aren't nearly as fulfilling as love. I miss you. And I doubt you ever think of me.


Anonymous
3/30/2010
03:19:00 AM

Why do I always end up dating guys whose parents are divorced? It never ends well!


Anonymous
3/29/2010
11:32:00 AM

I just want to have sex with anyone but my girlfriend, its chase I crave not the sex itself. I miss the nights of drunken revelry and mysterious women. I am not meant to be a caged animal at least not yet. What do you do when you love someone but your not ready to settle down?


Anonymous
10:30:00 AM
3/11/2010

You've made me unromantic. I hate you for that.


Anonymous
09:07:00 AM
2/21/2010

it's been around three and a half years since i stopped cutting but now i'm doing it again. the worst part is it's better now than ever before. i hate that i've resorted to this but nothing else works.


Anonymous
10:51:00 PM
2/13/2010

I still want to know who Maverick was.
Then I want to marry him.


Anonymous
08:32:00 PM
12/15/2009

I found a picture of myself being way too drunk on my cellphone and now I don't know who took it or if they meant it as a commentary on my drinking or just drunken shenanigans.


Anonymous
11:19:00 PM
2/04/2010

I can orgasm pretty easily and everything but what gets me off hardest and fastest is to fantasize that I have a penis and am getting a blowjob.


Anonymous
05:05:00 PM
2/03/2010

who still posts on here? how long have you been here?


Anonymous
02:30:00 PM
1/31/2010

A rumor is out that my best friend's boyfriend cheated on her with me. From what I understand 3 people claimed they saw us hooking-up at a bar together (we went w/ a group of people, not just the two of us alone). Albeit we did have our arms around each other and I know that was inappropriate, even we meant innocently; so I see how in a dark bar that could of been misinterpreted. I just feel horrible because because I don't know if any of us will ever be friends again.

Guess I just want some advice...


Anonymous
03:02:00 AM
1/26/2010

Since I stopped masturbating I have weird sex dreams about everyone all the time.


Anonymous
03:10:00 AM
1/21/2010

I think I might have appendicitis... and what's bothering me most is the idea of missing so much class if I have to go to the hospital.


Anonymous
06:12:00 AM
1/20/2010

This place is dead.


Anonymous
02:26:00 AM
1/15/2010

Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!


Anonymous
01:26:00 PM
1/07/2010

I still want to know who Maverick was.
Then I want to marry him.


Anonymous
08:32:00 PM
12/15/2009

I have a girlfriend, but i can't bring myself to tell my family about her, even though it is serious.


Anonymous
09:47:00 PM
12/01/2009

This is my first thanksgiving away from my parents. Growing up sucks.


Anonymous
01:26:00 PM
11/26/2009

I never really knew if what he did to me was rape, but the fact that I've been questioning whether the act was rape or not suggests it was somewhat questionable to begin with.

I just found out that he raped--really raped--another person last year. I feel responsible. If I had called him out on what he did, or if I had reported him, maybe she wouldn't have been hurt.


Anonymous
09:59:00 PM
11/22/2009

I think... I think my boyfriend just peed on my bathroom floor. Like a lot. What the hell?!


Anonymous
11:08:00 PM
11/09/2009

I completely forgot Tangst until today. Without the help of this blog I never would have received my High School Diploma. Thanks guys for listening to me and giving me advice when no one else cared. You have done a great deal more your community than you realize.


Anonymous
12:36:00 AM
11/07/2009

I haven't told many people that I'm an atheist now. It makes me a little sad, because I always really wanted to be the good kind of Catholic, the one whose faith is important to them and gives them solace in times of need, but who can religiously rationalize the acceptance of other religions without need for conversion and who can incorporate God into the theory of evolution and quantum mechanics and all that... but I've come to realize that just because I wanted to be that sort of perfect, intelligent, principled Catholic didn't mean I ever actually believed in God. I know now that I never really did.

I can't tell if I'm more ashamed of remaining Catholic for so long despite an obvious disbelief in God, or of robbing the Church of one more possible good ambassador.


Anonymous
10/27/2009
01:13:00 AM

I haven't posted here in nearly a year. I looked back through the archives and realized that really nothing has changed. We're growing up. Sithgirl is now Heather. DocA posts more often. BoxBox is still helpful, but with a dry sense of humor.

Tangst is changing in tiny ways, but we're all still basically angsty people looking for help, and flaming others through anonymous replies.

Goodbye for another year. :/


Anonymous
10/26/2009
01:57:00 PM

Damn it. I'm in love again. I just have to keep from telling her until she's in love with me...


Anonymous
11:48:00 PM
10/19/2009

How would one go about starting a drive for something? Like a coat drive, or toy drive. I want to start one but have no idea who to talk to about it.


Anonymous
11:45:00 AM
10/10/2009

Lately I have been considering losing my virginity. Not to anyone I especially like, it's just that I'm 18 and being a virgin in such a sex-crazed world seems kind of pointless.


Anonymous
03:09:00 AM
9/30/2009

I only allow myself to go for the guys who will screw me over in the end. It hurts.


Anonymous
01:20:00 AM
9/26/2009

My best friend's boyfriend of 1 1/2 years kissed me, I didn't kiss back. I can't figure out what to do.


Anonymous
04:54:00 PM
9/20/2009

I don't know how to initiate kisses.


Anonymous
04:03:00 AM
9/18/2009

caught myself fantasizing about seeing and being with him again. the last time i saw him was thanksgiving break two years ago for three hours. i guess he's one of those guys i'll be in love with forever. he probably doesn't think about me at all. I think about him every day.


Anonymous
02:17:00 PM
9/18/2009

I always knew what I was gonna do with my life. Then I switched my major sophomore year. I'm a junior and I'm probably going to switch it again. So much for getting out in four years. Heck, so much for getting out in five...


Anonymous
11:41:00 AM
9/15/2009

Happy birthday, Tangst!


Anonymous
08:31:00 PM
9/09/2009

Four years ago someone on Tangst posted that they were in love with me. I still want to know who it was.


Anonymous
01:03:00 PM
9/04/2009

How do you tell someone, when they've done nothing wrong, that it just isn't meant to be?


Anonymous
02:06:00 AM
9/04/2009

He gets disappointed because I don't like giving him head. I love giving head. It's one of my top 5 favorite things to do.

But I need to find a way to say SHAVE AND WASH BUSTER.


Anonymous
10:12:00 PM
8/31/2009

There are lots of high school kids in my college Calc II class. They're so much younger than me that I could be legally prosecuted for having sex with them, and they are miles better at calculus than I am. This makes me feel very depressed.


Anonymous
02:43:00 PM
8/28/2009

I hate being treated like a kid. No one takes you seriously-parents and bosses- your opinions don't matter to them because you're 'young and immature' even if you've proven you're not.


Anonymous
8/20/2009
09:42:00 AM

My libido is stronger now than it has ever been before in my two decades of existance. The only good thing I can think of that could come of this is that perhaps it will be enough motivation for me that I will actually take the initiative and find a proper girlfriend.


Anonymous
8/20/2009
02:13:00 AM

I love vicodin.


Anonymous
8/20/2009
12:30:00 AM

ARCHIE CHOSE VERONICA. MY CHILDHOOD IS RUINED.


Anonymous
8/19/2009
03:36:00 PM

I hate ignorant people who post politics on Tangst like it means anything JESUS FUCK SHUT UP PEOPLE


Anonymous
8/16/2009
10:25:00 PM

my past relationships keep haunting me. i hate it. why wont they just go away? even for a month would be nice.


Anonymous
8/16/2009
01:42:00 AM

I hate ignorant people, like Barack Obama, who go around spreading misinformation like "surgeons get paid $50,000 for a leg amputation," when Medicare actually pays them "between $740 and $1,140 for a leg amputation."

Other ignorant people who support Obama will quote him word for word and spread this misinformation everywhere. News networks like CNN report that Obama's healthcare reform plan is wonderful, but they don't actually check the facts behind Obama's statements. It makes me so sad that people can be so easily lead.

The point is not whether Obama's plan is actually a good one or not -- but if it is a good plan, why does he invent statistics that can damage "the all-important trust between surgeons and their patients"?

Source.(http://www.facs.org/news/obama081209.html)


Anonymous
8/14/2009
09:48:00 AM

I've been allergic to nuts all my life and just got re-tested and found out I'm not actually allergic to peanuts! So I just had my first PB&J in 10 years.

I totally took them for granted as a kid.


Anonymous
10:08:00 AM
8/12/2009

I hate ignorant people, like Sarah Palin, who go around rousing fear in everyone by saying shit like 'death panel' when its not true. Other ignorant people who support her will copy her word for word and spew it everywhere. Then news channels like FOX start to report that everyone is outraged, but they don't understand WHY they are outraged. It makes me so mad that people like that exist.


Anonymous
06:07:00 PM
8/11/2009

I love posting comments on my own post that oppose my post, just to strike up debate


Anonymous
03:56:00 PM
8/11/2009

I really hate it when my sex number goes up ESPECIALLY if it's with someone I regret. I feel like the number needs to stay at 7 forever. 7's a good number, right?


Anonymous
11:51:00 AM
8/05/2009

I am so excited to move in with you! <3 <3 <3


Anonymous
12:10:00 AM
8/05/2009

Does anyone else spend an enormous amount of time on facebook looking at wedding pictures?

I guess we're getting to that age. I never thought I, of all people, would say this, but it's really exciting.


Anonymous
03:05:00 PM
8/04/2009

I love you, I care about you and I want to be with you until my heart stops beating. Everything about you, even the really annoying parts, attract me to you. I want to keep you forever. In my heart, I know you feel the same.


Anonymous
09:39:00 PM
8/03/2009

People on Tangst are some of the cruelest, most judgmental people I've ever known.

The Internet makes people too brave.


Anonymous
09:05:00 PM
7/28/2009

Today my mom got laid off, my dad died long ago so this was the only source of income other than what I bring in, I already buy all the groceries and we still struggle to get by each month, I really don't know whats going to happen now.


Anonymous
12:25:00 AM
7/28/2009

I'm on my second rebound, and the sight of a picture of her in a swimsuit that she had on before we hooked up once still makes my heart race.


Anonymous
11:18:00 PM
7/27/2009

I feel like every friend I have, even the ones who don't know each other, got together and said "Hey, let's all blow her off and never hang out with her and see just how depressed we can make her."

Thanks. It's working, and you have all given me the worst summer of my life.


Anonymous
09:48:00 AM
7/27/2009

I'm so lonely and sad. It's past six o'clock and I've done nothing but check my email and lie on the floor reading for hours. I might go drink some of the whiskey in the pantry just for something to do, but even that seems pathetic. Fucking cold and cloudy summer days.


Anonymous
08:13:00 PM
7/26/2009

Classes ruin summer.


Anonymous
11:15:00 AM
7/25/2009

You are beautiful.


Anonymous
7/20/2009 02:08:00 PM

For the past four years of my life I've been commited, stuck, and unhappy in a relationship. We've broken up for long periods of time within that 4 year span and each time we slowly crawl back and meet each other in the middle, its become routine really.. and once again we're in the act of crawling back, i just want to be happy again and i know this is not the way to achieve that but i feel like theres nothing else. I'm the sort of girl thats never satisfied being single. Someone please distract me from this routine, change my ways.. i manifest for the best.


Anonymous
03:02:00 PM
7/17/2009

Apart from the possible sexual aspect, what separates romantic love from platonic love? As noted by someone else, "It seems like much of the stuff separating being 'in love' from friendship does friendship a disservice." In other words, the assumption exists that romantic love trumps strong friendship, which I don't think is always the case.

I know that Tangst seems to be fairly inactive at the moment, but if anyone has any thoughts on the matter, I'm game.


Anonymous
01:33:00 PM
7/17/2009

This kid I've been in love with for just over two years got engaged to a girl he's known for two days. I doubt he'll go through with it (he certainly didn't when he proposed to me) but it still worries me rather a lot.


Anonymous
11:25:00 PM
7/12/2009

He will take the stage and I will feel the fumes of lust and fury well up behind my cheeks and I will watch him and want him and hate him.

I will never, ever find a boy that likes me back. This is it, I am throwing in the towel.


Anonymous
04:34:00 PM
7/12/2009

Sometimes I want to die so badly that my wrists feel like they are begging to be cut.
I am so lonely.

Anonymous
10:08:00 AM
7/10/2009

Man I totally just got drunk and told his best friends that I want to fuck him. WAY TO GO AND RUIN YOUR CHANCES WITH HIM YOU STUPID BITCH.


Anonymous
03:42:00 AM
7/10/2009

Every time I open a Hersey's chocolate bar, I do it like Charlie would and always wonder if I'm going to reveal a golden ticket.


Anonymous
07:53:00 PM
7/09/2009

I am so totally okay with just being his drunk booty call. Don't even start with the "degrading" bullshit. I know what I want.


Anonymous
05:43:00 PM
7/08/2009

It hurt a lot when he popped my cherry, and I bled for the next 4 or 5 times after. I never had an orgasm from sex with him until like a year after we had been having sex regularly, and even then, I hardly ever had orgasms with him. I used to dread sex. Now, I'm with a new guy who makes sex enjoyable and makes me come almost everytime! Thank God sex is no longer a chore.


Anonymous
01:10:00 PM
7/08/2009

Ladies: The first several times you had sex, was it bad? Did you feel anything pleasurable? Did it kind of hurt? Did it take you a long time to figure out how to make anything feel good down there?

Please don't let me be the only one experiencing this. I already feel so alone.


Anonymous
12:53:00 AM
7/08/2009

I love my boyfriend, more than anything. But I think I'm in denial about also liking my old best friend more than I should.

Hearts can't belong to two people...
At least, they shouldn't be allowed to.

Even writing this makes me feel ill.


Anonymous
07:34:00 PM
7/05/2009

Dear Summer, please end like rtfn. I'm sick of it being way too hot and boring all the time. Yeah, sure, there are the occasional beach trips and parties but that doesn't excuse the mass quantities of fucking nothing that you hurl at me every day. A month and a half left? I don't know if I can make it that long.


Anonymous
12:24:00 PM
7/02/2009

I always thought this was normal for me, and that I'm just weird. But I just learned that the name for this is "passively suicidal."


Anonymous
12:55:00 PM
7/01/2009

there is more that i want to say then i have words for. the failure of words is one i'm not sure i've ever experienced before.

all i can say is this, i'm glad and sad and hopeful and excited and depressed and angry and lonely and for lack of a better word emotional.


Anonymous
12:10:00 PM
7/01/2009

He was a pedophile and an awful excuse for a human being but all of a sudden his greatest critics are turning into his greatest fans. Our generation didn't grow up with Michael Jackson, he was never black to us, he's always been this gonzo weirdo who dangles babies out the window. I didn't like him when he was alive and I am not going to pretend that I am sad he's dead.


Anonymous
10:09:00 AM
6/26/2009

today just isn't my day.

ps. leave me alone. stop texting me. i cut you off and i never want to hear from you again. ex's cant be friends. especially after all we went through.


Anonymous
01:53:00 PM
6/23/2009

I am 18 years old and am going to start my second year of college in two months and I still think it's fun and exciting to drive by boys' houses to see if they are home/outside.


Anonymous
08:50:00 PM
6/20/2009

Anyone have tips for performing a great strip dance? Besides the obvious removal of the clothes.


Anonymous
09:57:00 PM
6/17/2009

I might never again have friends I'm as close as the friends I have now.


Anonymous
04:50:00 PM
6/17/2009

Tonight was the last time I will ever see him. He's moving away for good and I loved him more than anything else in the world when we were together. Driving home from his house I really didn't expect any tears to come or for them to come as hard and strong as they did. I didn't expect to have to pull over because I was so beside myself in anguish that the first boyfriend I ever had was leaving FOREVER and no matter how much I want him to stay I can't change a goddamn thing about it. We broke up over a year ago but this kid taught me how to love and now he's GONE. FML


Anonymous
12:05:00 AM
6/17/2009

I can't really remember why my life is worth living.


Anonymous
06:39:00 PM
6/15/2009

I fantasize about murdering people--brutally, violently-- all the time. Usually they're child psychologists or those goddamn pretentious assholes who insult people who don't do drugs. One of these days, man, I think I'm gonna snap, and John Rosemond's gonna get a pair of stiletto heels shoved through his eye sockets.


Anonymous
12:23:00 AM
6/15/2009

I'm so stressed. so stressed. I'm ruining this relationship. I don't know how to handle it. Who to ask for help. I can't breathe.


Anonymous
11:57:00 PM
6/14/2009

How did I get so bad at maintaining friendships? They feel like burdens to me, time commitments I can't keep. People are starting to notice. It shouldn't be this hard.


Anonymous
11:01:00 PM
6/13/2009

What do guys look for in "good sex"?


Anonymous
08:25:00 AM
6/12/2009

what do girls look for in "good sex"? or how does one perform "good sex"?


Anonymous
02:34:00 AM
6/12/2009

I am continually amazed by how wrong information can be planted and flourish, despite how conclusively it has been proven wrong.

Case In Point: A fellow student at my university just told me that Saddam Hussein not only had ties with terrorists but harbored them and trained them in Iraq.


Anonymous
01:37:00 PM
6/09/2009

This summer is very difficult for me. First of all, it sucks pretty badly living at home again after being independent for a year, an issue that many of you can probably relate to. Secondly, my boyfriend lives in the town I went to college in, only 2 hours away but still difficult to see each other what with clashing work schedules and all. I miss him. Thirdly, I've spent the last 3 summers of my 4 years in NC with who is now my ex boyfriend, so it's just kind of throwing me off. I don't remember what I did during summers before him. There's so much time to fill. My mom is pushing me to get back together with him, because she likes him a lot. So this is making me angry, on top of that, I guess my mom isn't used to not mothering someone so she turned to MY dog to baby this year. So I come back home to her telling ME how to treat MY DOG. Explaining my feelings doesn't work with her either. Nothing works. Everything is irritating me and as much as I'm trying to have a positive attitude, the people around me just keep rubbing me the wrong way and pushing me until I feel like erupting in anger and harsh words. Just the pile up of things. Grr. Thank you for letting me vent.


Anonymous
11:57:00 PM
6/08/2009

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into by loving me.


Anonymous
09:34:00 AM
6/07/2009

I've gotten drunk by myself more times this week than is socially acceptable or reasonable.


Anonymous
10:14:00 PM
5/30/2009

Holy tits I'm still not over him and he's going to be gone for good very, very soon.


Anonymous
02:36:00 PM
5/30/2009

Sometimes I wish I wasn't the type of person that has an impact on people's lives. I just can't manage to leave anyone without them breaking.

Anonymous
10:37:00 AM
5/30/2009