this is an interesting blog and idea. kudos to the originators.
unfortunately, i have put my teenage years behind me. i miss them. i miss the feeling. so many thoughts and emotions, from so many different directions, about so many different subjects, ALL pulling at you simultaneously.
great eFing times.
now, seeing as this is supposed to be centered around teen angst and drama, i'd like to comment on a couple of the major themes. y'know, having recently gone through them myself, emerging out the other side in your mid 20s as an adult who's first question always will be: "what happened?"
love. the gravity of love when you're a teenager cannot be emphasized enough. just about every one has some form of entanglement with it at one point or another. there obviously are endless things i can talk about here but the main thing to remember (incidentally to the mind of the teenager this seems impossible) is that it will PASS! gauran-fucking-teed. if love is not a source of misery or anxiety for you, then all the better. but not another minute should be wasted dwelling and sulking and writing sad poetry. do not feed your "broken" heart. you're a teenager. you're feared, envied, and revered. start to act like it!
drugs. do them. try them. be responsible. know your source, substance, and body, but don't be afraid. circumstances and environment are always important when trying things for the first time. be with people you know and trust. plan things out. don't let buzzwords like 'brain damage' and 'overdose' scare you. walking the 'straight line' will prove to be a detriment to your mental and psychological growth in the long run. drugs will help with the expansion of your consiousness. ideas, beliefs, morality--everything will be fine-tuned. be smart. do some research. talk to people who've had experience. KNOW YOUR BODY. KNOW YOUR SUBSTANCE. KNOW YOUR SOURCE.. and do not abstain from taking drugs.
the future. relax. it's coming. way too much anxiety about college and careers and 'what are you gonna do when you grow up?' i have a news flash for anyone who is confused about how to answer that question: you don't ever really grow up. things simply change, mature, and evolve. a big mistake is thinking that you need to know now what it is you want to do. an even bigger mistake is propelling yourself in a particular career direction without being certain of what you want. to HELL with what people think. (again, difficult to accept, but true) don't involve yourself in something that you don't have passion for, and don't lie to yourself! don't deny the reality of your feelings. don't be afraid to say you don't know. you must necessarily not know. it's only normal to not know. you will suffer great misery in the long run if you realiz that which you have dedicated so much of your life and time to has always just been a front, and not what you've truly wanted. WAIT. figure it out. don't be rushed by your peers and surroundings. relax. the future will come and you will be ready for it.
hmmmm. i feel like i am definitely ranting. haha. perhaps i should stop. this might have been for my benefit only. hope someone reads it. hope it helps.
life is a game.
so relax,
take it easy,
and play.
Anonymous
08:31:00 PM
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
I've realized just how much I dislike people who are like myself. I find traits in others that I have, and find them annoying to say the least. The person who takes on that condescending tone when they are talking about something they believe they know most about. The person who talks (a lot)about how their parents get mad over the most trivial of things. The person who speaks loudly with their friends in the hall and acts crazy while thinking that people around them will think she's cool for it (I can't explain why I do it). The person who puts up certain away messages in the hopes that a particular person will ask her about it.
I have to change these things about myself.
Anonymous
06:38:00 PM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I would say that you are my best friend. But how come is it that I can't seem to tell you anything anymore because I know that you are going to turn around and tell other people. I can't trust you anymore. I don't think I ever did. And if I can't even trust what I call my 'best friend' with secrets, then who can I trust? I don't think thats how a good friend should be...
Anonymous
10:52:00 PM
Enloe's on the front page again. It's less of an "Enloe hates muslims" argument and more of an "Enloe is ignoring the constitution and promoting religion in schools" argument.
I hate how Mr. Esco's actions are being construed as the general feelings of the whole school. At least that's what the paper makes it seem like.
Anonymous
08:46:00 AM
Monday, February 26, 2007
You have until Wednesday after school to ask me out. 4:30 PM at the absolute latest.
Seriously -- I am getting tired of this game, this back and forth banter with coy smiles and inside jokes, late night conversations and lingering goodbyes. I can't do this anymore.
I think three months is long enough. After Wednesday, I give up. After Wednesday, we will only ever be friends.
Anonymous
06:54:00 PM
I want to find a relationship that allows me to have romantic, lazy afternoon sex as the setting sun creeps through my window covering the tangled bodies of my lover and I with it's warm, heavenly glow. I want to steal kisses in the dark and explore one another's curves under the covers. I want my own personal secret sex god. Any takers?
Anonymous
03:54:00 PM