Thursday, February 19, 2009

i know i shouldn't, but i can't help but miss not eating and cutting and not giving a shit. i don't have the self-control to do that anymore and i hate it.


Anonymous
1/30/2009
07:29:00 AM

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I feel ya...I feel like it's something that never goes away completely...we just get strong enough to push past it...you could look at it like you have enough self control to push yourself towards that strength...

Anonymous said...

Wow I read this and thought I wrote it but after seeing the date, I couldn't possibly have written it. I miss it too, but you can't go back. Being weak like that is our comfort zone, but it's okay to break from it to develop into a strong person. You have it backwards: now, you have the self control to stop doing harmful things, which is greater than any control it takes to not eat and cut.

OP said...

the only problem with that is that i was happier back then. i guess what i really miss isn't the actual not eating and cutting, but the rest of my life at that time.