I've been so careful not to step too far, baby steps, taking it one day at a time, but I'm impatient, probably blew it all last night, laughed too loud, said too much, people noticed, maybe him.

And that could fuck me over, for so many reasons, because I'm not supposed to go there, and other people did see, and rumors spread fast, with people like this.

And I feel bad, not because of her telling her, and her hating me, and the dichotomy of chicks before dicks, and what is not allowed--

but because it may be over with him.


Anonymous
10/05/2008
09:22:00 AM