Lately, I've been having a really hard time and wanting to get back into some old habits. So in attempt to purge thoughts from my system I'm going to do some self therapy and identify issues (I know it's being posted on here...but on here I kinda feel like I'm talking to someone...lame, I know).

Reasons I used to cut/feelings that make me want to again: Self punishment, lonliness, helplessness, hopelessness, attempt to escape emotional distress

Reasons I stopped/Reasons I won't (can't) start again:
1) Theatre- 5 shows per year...I'm always in my underwear around people...they'd notice
2) Fear of ruining my parents' perfect image of me
3) Trying to stay strong and be there for other friends...I'm the group therapist.
4)Vanity..don't want scars
5)Summer's coming...and I don't wanna have to hide it
6)If I start again...it'll be 300 times harder to stop.

Reasons not to outweigh reasons that I want to, right? Let's just hope I can maintain this self control.


Anonymous
08:56:00 PM

"THE ONE" (assuming he actually exists)

-- Musical / Artistic
-- Tallem
-- Honest
-- Not of the world (not attached to all the shit out there)
-- Confident but not Cocky ...and slightly shy around me
-- Funny ( can make me laugh, really laugh, laugh hysterically!)
-- Sees something in me that I do not see myself
-- Respects me -- Doesn't try to kiss me, even hold hands, for a while. This is all he wants to do but he doesn't show it. And he doesn't act, because I am more than just pussy. I am [my name withheld] and he doesn't even deserve me. (OOh but he does. He deserves so much more.)
-- I can tell him everything, and I do.
-- He'll hold me and whisper in my ear when I'm a crying emotional wreck.
-- He'll know all my weaknesses and love me anyway.
-- He will tell me when I'm being stupid.
-- He'll give the best advice.
-- He'll give me up if he thinks it's better for me.
-- Knows how to reach me through art, music
-- Respects my parents
-- Tells me to do the right thing, rather than the fun, wrong one
-- Is a best friend before he becomes anything else.
-- Doesn't hit on me all the time
-- Sees no one else but me
-- Comes to me (initially) unexpectedley; when I'm not looking
-- Takes initiative
-- He makes me happier than anyone else
-- and there are NO regrets

Tell me you're out there....I don't want to settle for anything less!!


Anonymous
02:00:09

Post one thing you have to do before you die.


Anonymous
09:10:30 PM

1. There's nothing wrong with being a brown-noser, which includes being a rat. Now, if someone's cheating, I don't say anything generally. If someone's skipping a class, I don't say anything. But if I think there's some benefit for me in telling on another student (a new curve, I don't get in trouble as a result, etc... then I'll do it.

2. I dislike being overweight. I wish my Total Health Triangle were more balanced.

3. I often regret being a guy who likes guys. And I often regret the fact that I regret it.

Okay, so, that's my life. I'm a pretty happy person overall, there's a lot more that could be wrong with it :D

...and more than half the time I forget to think about this stuff xD

Considering the recent formation of Enloe's "honor code committee", I've decided to write an honor code of my own. Please add, edit, and share.

-The Real Student Honor Code-

The Cardinal Rule: Unless someone’s well being is at risk, never turn in another student for breaking a rule. Ever.

Put your fellow students first in all situations, then teachers, then administration.

Always give your friends information about an upcoming assignment or test unless specifically told otherwise by a teacher.

Always let someone copy your homework if they’ve let you copy their homework in the past.

Cough when someone’s cell phone rings in class. You’re not fooling anyone, but it’s still fun.

Never tell a teacher that a student you saw in an earlier class is skipping.

Sneak underclassmen and people without lunch passes off campus as often as you can.

Don’t plagiarize blatantly. You’re making the rest of us look bad.

He who collaborates gets an A.

Ignore class rank. We’re all in this together.

It will all be over soon. Make the most of it.


Anonymous
10:39:21 PM

1. Don't lie to me.

2. Do your damn job.

3. Don't put all this stress on me, because not only am I finding it ridiculously hard to deal with, it's NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY.

4. Since you're doing nothing, I would appreciate at least getting all the information I need to do it for you.

I hate people like her. I hate that she can't do a job that she has been assigned to since school began, I hate how I was put in charge of an offshoot of this whole thing, and I hate how I'm basically running the whole damn thing. I honestly cannot deal with this right now. But I don't have a choice.


Anonymous
09:39:09 PM

I see no reason to keep trying with this whole "life" bit. Failure seems to be compounded by failure until the whole thing falls apart like perforated toilet paper in the rain.

Anonymous
06:06:47 PM