I was raped. He said he was 19, but he was actually 45. His father's house was actually his own. He tied me up, raped me, and let his dog do the same. He's in jail now, but the tape is already all over the internet. I'm a guy.


Anonymous
10:03:15 PM

She abandoned me.. I knew it was coming but I wish it hadn't.. She was supposed to be there for me no matter what... whatever now I bet if I died she wouldn't give a shit at all...

How am I supposed to take care of all my friends with problems and myself? What the fuck am I supposed to do


Anonymous
08:57:58 PM

I feel so pressured to know exactly what I want to do with my life. I get crap about it from my parents and teachers everyday. Every single freaking day (especially lately with class registration) I'M A SOPHOMORE! GIVE ME TIME! Of course I'm giving it a lot of thought (who isn't? - it's required by student services), but that's just that- I'm THINKING ABOUT IT. I don't even trust myself to make a good decision this early on. All of my friends who want to be food scientists or engineers artists are fine and dandy- just don't make me decide right now. Please? Don't rush me. I'll figure it out for myself thanks.


Anonymous
08:47:05 PM

every time I get mad enough to get over him he finds a way to crawl back into my heart. be it a one line facebook message or an im. Either way its making it difficult for me to move on.


Anonymous
08:30:16 PM

I'm being tutored in Pre Calc. I don't think it will help. I'm embarrassed that now, on top of taking the lowest level math course of all my friends, I'm doing badly enough to merit the hiring of a tutor. Who is seventeen minutes late for our appointment at the moment.


Anonymous
08:16:30 PM

Just to inform everyone, the book was "The Red Pony." And if anyone hated The Portrait of Dorian Grey, they should die all the deaths he ought to have. And As I Lay dying was beautifully written and did have plot, to argue a story that works in a semi-linear fashion with a central purpose of burying someone has no plot is to be retarded. You just didn't like that you weren't good enough to glean the genius off of the fact that everyone had their own stake in the trip.


CajunExplosion
10:46:40 PM

I want to become a tangst admin because it's obviously the fastest way into every lonely heart at Enloe.


...I just want a compliment now and then, that's all.


Anonymous
10:30:29 PM

i have this weird respect for prostitutes. i find they seem somehow noble, like they have transcended the morality needed by the rest of us in order to do what they do. it's like they don't need us, with our artificial social taboos. i am fascinated by this concept.


Anonymous
08:45:58 PM

Someone told me that they wished they were me today. I proved them wrong with cold, hard facts from my past.

"I wish I was you" goes up there with stuff like "I hate my dad" or "I wish so-and-so would die" on my list of things to never, ever, ever say around me.

I would never wish my life on anyone, and I'm really happy that I'm the one expiriencing my life, so you don't have to.


Anonymous
08:45:43 PM

i haven't showered for 5 days, and it feels great!


Anonymous
07:27:44 PM

I think that Nanotyrannus has an incredibly sexy body, and an equally fascinating mind. I hope she never finds out who I am. Especially since I'm attracted to guys.


Anonymous
07:01:01 PM

My music teacher told me the other day that I might have perfect pitch, that it just hasn't been developed. That's equivalent to someone telling me that I might have superpowers, that they just haven't been developed.

And that's how much of a geek I am.


Anonymous
06:50:26PM

I didn't actually have to leave- I was just afraid of you seeing me cry. There's so much about me that you don't know. It's funny to think that you have no idea who I am, yet we spend all of this time together. I want to tell you about my past so badly, I just fear that you'll never look at me the same.


Anonymous
06:29:46 PM

I found out last month that the girl that I lost my virginity to lied to me about not having an STD, I got tested to be sure... I have chlamydia. How do I tell the three other sexual partners I've had since her?


Anonymous
02:59:34 PM

I'm trying not to love him, but like all addicts, I have good days and bad days.

Yesterday was a good day. I only thought of him during my waking hours.


Anonymous
12:32:50 AM

I read a book that everyone hated and I don't know why they hated it.


CajunExplosion
10:19:26 PM

I don't care that he's groped her... I don't even flinch when I hear about the possibility of them having sex... So why am I so jealous if they sleep together plutonically? Why is one of my worst fears that he'll say "I love you" and she'll say it back?


Anonymous
09:19:38 PM

We've been going out for a week and four days. Already I'm disengaging myself from the relationship because I'm afraid that soon I'll lose interest and break his heart.


Anonymous
07:29:25 PM

How can I feel completely self-destructive and completely wonderful at the same time? I think I should have been warned before this started that I would get sucked in emotionally to him.


Anonymous
06:58:35 PM

I am such a fucking weakling.


Anonymous
06:25:39 PM

i've been making plans to run away in my head all day. i might do it this time.


Anonymous
02:14:59 PM

I found out that one of the bottles of shampoo/conditioner that my sister left in the bathroom after she left for college is the same kind that my boyfriend uses. I use that shampoo now, so I can smell like him. Is this too stalkerish?


Anonymous
11:05:32 AM

It's 5:07 in the morning.

...Good thing hockey's on to keep me occupied, because wonder of all wonders, everyone else is aslepe.


Anonymous
05:06:16 AM

It's been four days since I had that conversation with him.

And yet I'm still crying myself to sleep because of it.


Anonymous
01:08:37 AM

I flick my finger through the flame, nothing hurts.
I flick my finger through the flame, let it stay, nothing hurts.
I play the game, I let it stay, until it starts to hurt.

And this is why my fingers are turning black.


Anonymous
12:18:20 AM

I have an acute case of sleep paralysis. Not the kind when one wakes up and has a stiff neck for a moment. The kind where I wake up and feel (and see) someone sitting on me, I hear voices calling, laughing, and screaming at me from above or below, I see malicious shadows moving in the corners of my eyes, I see bodies of dead relatives sitting in the corner of my room, I see thieves or murderers standing ready to attack (and sometimes they talk to me or -do- attack me, but those times I pass out and wake up hours later). I can't move for what seems like hours (but is really two or three minutes). Sometimes I can't take it and pass out, sometimes I just drift off again, and sometimes I get my senses together and wait for everything to go away and for the faces to return to stuffed animals or books or clothes.

It's all from emotional trauma and family matters in the past-

-and it's going from bad to worse. My fears are now carried outside of my bedroom. Sometimes, in the hallways, I'll see the shadows behind me and feel that paranoia grip me. Every unfamiliar face turns into a malicious grimace. The noise of the hallways turns into that familiar roar of screaming and laughter. I think people are following me and trying to "get" me from behind. I've convinced myself that people stalk me and are watching me at every moment.

I just wanted to apologize to you for my acting strange and jumpy around you lately. I've noticed you noticing me, and I wanted to explain. I'm not crazy; I just have emotional and psychological problems.


Anonymous
11:52:49 PM

PAHAHAHA omg. i know what university he's going to...

is it intensely shameless that im going to apply there, even though i wasn't going to before?

See you 'round, cutie ;)


Anonymous
10:06:16 PM

the other day i tried to cut myself

it didn't work

that makes me feel queasy


Anonymous
01:39:14 PM

Hey, Mom can I go to North Carolina for Friday March 10th? Yeah...I know we live in Colorado but it's really important...I guess I'm going to meet other people who post on a blog, Tangst. But...but I really think it's important! Maybe we could look at colleges while we're there? I know it's a school day but that's not important right? Right? Hmmm...maybe I need to work on my presentation...


Anonymous
12:32:55 PM

everytime i get a bruise i secretly poke it until its gone.

i kindof want to trip down the stairs tomorrow so i can get a bruise. i havent had one in a long time.


Anonymous
01:37:55 AM

It is so much easier not to get attached to someone.

It makes saying goodbye that much harder.


Anonymous
09:07:27 PM

We fight all the time. She's a complete bitch to me, which riles me up and makes me act like an ass to her. I really hate how she is now, and the stress from our relationship is messing me up mentally.

Why can't I cut her off?
Why can't I stop loving her?


Anonymous
06:49:37 PM

I told him that I blocked her from my buddylist. I didn't.


Anonymous
12:04:23 PM

It's times like these where I seriously wish I wasn't attractive. Really. I am sick and tired of guy friends all of a sudden acting funny around me and getting really creepy about being with me. I am sick of having to avoid their longing stares. I am sick of having to give subtle hints that I'm not interested in them. I'm sick of trying to do unattractive things in front of them to just make them stop. That's all I want. I want to yell at all of them to STOP IT! STOP IT RIGHT NOW! It hurts me to see hearts break, and knowing it's because of me makes it worse. Every time I have to push you away makes me feel rotten inside. I don't like you. Take a hint.


Anonymous
11:27:18 PM

I am so tired of this. Uncertainty, backbiting, heightened awarenesses leading into some sort of competitive advantage. I might just be paranoid, but if he wants her then could he just take her, and end my hopes? I'm so sick of hoping, and so sick of failing with the whole female race.


Anonymous
07:58:21 PM

What did you get on the SATs?


Anonymous
06:42:35 PM

I don't like him anymore. I actually seriously dislike him quite a bit.

He got a girlfriend.

Why am I jealous?


Anonymous
05:50:09 PM

We had a test in Language Arts and after going to the front of the class I turned arond and the girl behind me had her binder in her lap and was checking her answers. She looked up and saw me and slid her binder down next to her desk. Later, she remarked to her friend while glancing at me "That test was so easy...I didn't need to use it." And then she complemented my on my shirt-which I prided myself in noone liking. I'm not going to rat her out. I think I'll just hold it against her like if we become friends and get in an argument or something. >:)


Anonymous
02:32:08 PM

Pretentious.
You are.


Anonymous
02:39:44 AM

I finally had the courage to shave my legs today.

It's kind of stupid, but I'm really proud of myself for it.

My mom didn't want me to, but she doesn't know. Hooray!


Anonymous
09:41:14 PM

I'm so fickle. Sometimes I think I'm in love with him. Other times I don't think I even like him. I wish I could decide one way or the other.


Anonymous
07:23:14 PM

I really hope orange highlighter comes off. Because I'm thinking that it'll be hard to scrub the top part of my back. :D


Anonymous
04:13:49 PM

I've found that my life is like a puzzle. for a while; things are going great and all the peices a fitting into their right place. But then, someone(usually me) accidently knocks half of it off the table and I'm stuck picking up the peices to rebuild it again.


Anonymous
12:12:36 PM

The mountain does not laugh at the river for it is lowly,

Nor does the river laugh at the mountain for it is slow and cannot move about.

I'm sitting in a class where I have to write two pages every day to earn my honors credit A. It's easy enough, but I don't like deceiving the teacher like this-- I'm not writing. I don't have any inspiration today. Ah, well... inspiration will come eventually.


Anonymous
11:11:43 AM

I have no idea as to why I still care.


Anonymous
12:27:24 AM

even some vegetarians dream of eating the leftover chicken in the refrigerator.


Anonymous
11:10:26 PM

You say you don't think I cared when you said "Maybe we should stop this." And I just said "Okay." But, believe it or not, I really did care.

It's just that I knew we were going to break up today. I knew from the moment I opened my eyes this morning. But when someone breaks up with you it's over. And, more than anything, that's how I felt. Like it was over. So, I didn't say, "Please don't go. I really and truly want to be with you." Because that's not the sort of person I am.

No, I just walked away. I went home. I ate dinner. I did my homework. And as I folded my laundry I cryed. Because that's the sort of person I am.

And now, it's over.


Anonymous
10:00:37 PM

I miss talking to my friend whenever I don't talk to her. Whenever I talk to her is always makes me smile and laugh... She makes me want to live my life... She makes me feel like I'm worthwhile for even just one second.. it's friends like her that are hard to find


Anonymous
09:59:45 PM

almost everyday in school when i get really stressed out I promise myself that i'll work as soon as I get home, or that i'll actually do homework on a friday. i never do. It made me think that if I can't even keep promises that I make to myself then how am I supposed to keep promises that I make to other people? I realized that I can promise other people things and keep them because I don't want other people to think i backed out. To myself I know the reasons and don't have to prove anything. It still aggravates me that I do it but I never have the motivation to change it. It seems to be a never ending cycle.


Anonymous
09:12:35 PM

I only post my poetry on kids sites, so even when I get a bad review I can still feel superior.


Anonymous
08:31:36 PM

I had one of those You Only Read About It In Books moments today.

As I was experimenting with a different route to class, I saw the Most Amazing Girl I have ever seen before. Seriously. I didn't know girls like her went to Enloe. I swear, I couldn't stop staring. She just kind of...stood out. I could go on forever describing her- the way her eyes shined, the way her hips moved, the clothes she wore, the way her bag sorta of pulled her shirt up in a nonchalant way. She seemed so- cool. Cool and beautiful. She was smiling with her friends. Oh how I wanted to go up to her and say "You're an angel, my dear."

I saw her twice today, actually. But reality hit me full force as I pointed her out to my friend and he explained that yeah, she's a year younger than me (more or less- a grade below- a sophomore) and she's a really cool girl that pretty much everyone knows and likes (or in the case of myself and apparently more than a few others- loves)

I want her to myself to like. I feel like I discovered her and that she's -mine- and that no one else can have her to like.

Needless to say- I'm taking that route more often.


Anonymous
07:16:16 PM

for me, being at all attractive is a huge, concious effort. it's hard. i wish i didn't care so much. or that i didn't have to try.


Anonymous
03:13:58 PM

The girl that i'm going to prom with, told me today that she is not dating this year. I had a crush on her. But now whereas she was just very attractive, she is now unattainable and her attractiveness has increased exponentially, and i have a huge crush on her.


Anonymous
10:47:11 PM

Fine, I admit it: I'm jealous of all my friends, who are either in a relationship or perfectly content with not being in one.

I am neither.


Anonymous
10:35:03 PM

If anyone is goin to Prom and wants to post who they are goin with...you can do it here and let the whole world know it.


Anonymous
07:35:31

I find that the mood i'm in on a certain day is proportional to the clothes I wear. Like whenever I dress well and wear my favorite jeans and favorite shirts or whatever I all of a sudden feel bolder and more confident in myself. I think its really stupid but I can't help myself. I just feel like I can do anything I want.


Anonymous
04:44:06 PM

Hurrah for changing ways...

I broke through a big barrier in my social life last night.

I actually took the initiative and asked a girl to prom.

And then an amazing thing happened. She said yes. A major cornerstone in my fear of rejection has crumbled, leaving the whole structure unstable.

What a great feeling. Thank you.

And now a parting shot from my pool of advice that I can't seem to follow.

Focus more on how life could be lived, and less on how it should be lived. Never let your mind slow you down, because you will die with more than your fair share of regrets.

Please realize that your mind does try to warn you when you are doing something outrageously stupid, so do listen to it sometimes (Exe: asking a girl out = okay; standing in front of a moving train = stupid). Catch my drift?

G'night everybody, and good luck in life and love.

My friend made funny and sometimes mean Valentines for people. She told one of my friends to shave off his unibrow; for mine she apologized for laughing at me all the time.


totoro_fan34
09:26:26 PM

As a sophomore in Ms. Paradise's English class, I believe that going to her class each day is a little piece of paradise.


Anonymous
09:26:14 PM

I heard about Freshman Seminar today. It will be mandatory for freshman next year. Isn't that exciting? As a freshie, I wish I could have learned more about Enloe this year.


Anonymous
09:25:29 PM

i am a horrible, awful, terrible, despicable, disgusting person.

im embarrassed to be seen in public with my boyfriend.


Anonymous
09:22:38 PM

I'm scared of going to school.


Anonymous
09:04:52 PM

I just looked back at a post I started a while ago. I posted a few comments on it myself, but I can't remember which were mine and which were others'. The downside to anonymity, I guess.


Anonymous
08:46:19 PM

I shouldn't have taken him seriousley. Damn he tricked me. I hate myself for it.


Anonymous
08:26:17 PM

I think it's sweet that you like me, but you're.....................


Immature. There. I said it.


Anonymous
08:09:59 PM

I secretly watched, all lunch period long. My stupid hopes all high and mighty.
The green Mazda 626 never came.


Anonymous
07:29:11 PM

Downey is soooo pissed at me right now. And I'm not even totally sure why. He just apparently said that I shouldn't go near his room for several weeks. That will make it very hard to buy a prom ticket, won't it?


thewordofrashi
06:43:01 PM

YAY! I got asked to prom. I am SO excited.

Hm... now I'm going to have to spend money, though. But I'm looking forward to it so much...!!!!


Anonymous
06:40:47 PM

Don't you sometimes wish you had never been born, because you love life so much that you're terrified of dying?


Anonymous
05:57:33 PM

I'm so sick of people hurting me.. especially when they are supposed to be my friend


Anonymous
03:51:20 PM

a few summers ago i had a lesbian fling with my roommate at summer camp. not many people know about it. it ended really badly, and ever since i've been afraid of having another relationship. it makes me question my sexuality a lot that this happenned. it was my first and only relationship, and i'm afraid i'll never have another one.


Anonymous
03:36:47 PM

♥_______________________________________________♥somehow my heart can never stay in the same place. maybe i do that on purpose so that Cupid can never get a clean shot.___♥________♥_________________________________♥


Anonymous
12:04:56 PM

I hope your happiness this Valentine's day exceeds the size of this post.


Anonymous
05:50:31 AM

I just posted this on that Tangst poseur's website:

The Disclaimers for this site are almost exactly the same as the ones for Tangst. Tangst just has more rules than here.

This plagarism is in violation of Tangst's copyright. I'm surprised that Heather hasn't said anything yet.

Almost all of the language is exactly the same. Syntax, rhetoric, even diction is Heather's.

Learn MLA. Cite your sources. Don't plagarize.

P.S. And don't even pretend that you wrote yours first based on timestamps - I've been going to both sites since their inceptions. Tangst was first.

Obviously Tangst is the best. I can not believe The Watcher had the nerve to pick and choose from the policies Heather put so much thought into modifying from the sites she cited or wrote out originally.


Anonymous
11:46:10 PM

I never bother to read the prose, with all its paragraphs. I only read the poetry.


Anonymous
11:26:59 PM

i get a huge thrill from finding comments on the "share a secret" post. i feel like i've accomplished something by seeing them before even the admins. really it's just sad that i check Tangst that frequently.


Anonymous
11:16:26 PM

I believe in illusions.


Antagonist
11:12:34 PM

Tomorrow is Valentine's day. I'm putting the finishing touches on the cards I'm handing out to my friends.

Tomorrow, I will go to school and be cheery, bouncy even. Pretending to enjoy the holiday, happy for the excuse to gorge on candy all day.

At the moment, I'm talking to my crush. About the Valentine's card he's writing to his new girlfriend. And helping him decide whether he should get her a present because if he does it might seem like overboard but if he doesn't he'll seem like he doesn't care.

At the moment, I'm alright. Kinda numb feeling, but alright.

But I know that in half in hour, when I finally climb into bed, I'm going to cry myself to sleep.


Anonymous
11:10:13 PM

I have a habit of chewing on the cord to my headphones on the computer while I am surfing. I find the idea mildly amusing that I might accidently electrocute myself. Please pardon any spelling mistakes.


Anonymous
09:57:59 PM

I hate you, Mrs. P

I hate you

I hate you

I FUCKING HATE YOU

Why the hell weren't you paying attention?

FUCK YOU


Anonymous
09:53:24 PM

Exactly what date/time is prom? i have when the tickets are on sale memorized, but it does no good to not know when the damn thing is.


SD
07:25:49 PM

I'm so used to having my hopes dashed that it doesn't really hurt that much anymore. My heart has hardened and I'm okay with it. I've started to have really scary thoughts about being single forever- and I feel no emotion when I think them. I don't feel sad or lonely or distraught or happy or exited or liberate. I feel....comfortable. Kind of like it's the way I was meant to end up.


Anonymous
06:33:10 PM

We totally had a chance to have sex the other night, but I said it wouldn't be a good idea. Now I can't remember why and I'm sort of frustrated with myself for refusing.


Anonymous
05:44:09 PM

I was so close to asking her today. I had her alone, there was no one around. I almost did it. But I chickened out again. I get the feeling I'll never be able to say it.


Anonymous
04:01:51 PM

I made a difference tonight.. in a huge church community.. I took a stand for all the teens.. Everyone was telling me how great I was..





Why do I still feel worthless?


Anonymous
11:33:11 PM

All of my friends really love William Faulkner's As I Lay Dying. I think it's okay, and his writing style is certainly interesting, and there are few things more fun than passing your friends in the hall and yelling "MY MOTHER IS A FISH!" loudly as a form of greeting, but I'm just not getting into the book. This reflects a trend in me; I used to get completely sucked in to good literature, but lately, I just haven't been interested. When I used to find it impossible to put a book down, I now find it impossible to pick one up. I'm gonna get my pretentious bookworm license revoked if I don't fix this!


Anonymous
09:59:26 PM

i put off all my homework and chores and everything until the last minute, so now i have 2 projects due tomorrow and an essay due tuesday and a lot of practicing to do and a bathroom to clean, and there's no way i'll get it done before i go to bed. this is Really Stressful. high school should not make me feel this Old.


Anonymous
08:26:37 PM

Don't have angst.


Jaromir Blagr
06:44:05 PM

TA - Tangsters Anonymous

"Hello, my name is Anonymous. And I am addicted to tangst."

Honestly, I /am/ a tangst junkie.


Anonymous
06:31:30 PM

Hey, I got your url on smalltime.
Just figured I'd leave you a message, cause messages are fun.
(Unless someone's bitching at you, that's not fun at all.)


xRiotxGrrrlx
05:47:03 PM

When I saw this on PostSecret, I thought "Yes, this is it exactly."

I really do wish I knew how to fall out of love. I used to know, but my method doesn't work anymore - in fact, it makes things worse. And this time, it's lasted too long and is still driving me crazy.

I need for it to end.

I'm going to ask her tommorrow.


Anonymous
12:30:55 PM

He's too busy for me and I'm too busy for him.. What if he forgets about me? We barely get to see each other but that one night we spent in each others arms.. That was heaven... Ugh damn being busy


Anonymous
11:28:04 AM

I'm the happiest now that I've ever been.

Oh, but I lie. An hour ago, I was the happiest that I have ever been. Curfew occurred, and the joy faded. The memory of it, however, will never fade.

Happiness is the most addicting drug ever.


Anonymous
11:57:22 PM

The Key Club Dance was not lame.

The people who left early were.


Anonymous
11:35:54 PM

Listen to me. I am your best friend.
I hate your boyfriend.
I HATE YOUR BOYFRIEND.
I HAAAAATE YOUR BOYYYYYFFRIIENNNNDDDD.

You say you love him more than you love me, but your actions say otherwise.


Anonymous
11:28:03 PM

I'm dating a vampire, and it is so damn sexy.


Anonymous
11:26:40 PM

Why am I so afraid of losing him when I can't even bring myself to care about him? Why don't I just break up with him? I wish I knew.


Anonymous
10:26:12 PM

YES, she said shed go to prom with me....hallelujah


iced_t
08:49:55 PM