I just want to have sex with anyone but my girlfriend, its chase I crave not the sex itself. I miss the nights of drunken revelry and mysterious women. I am not meant to be a caged animal at least not yet. What do you do when you love someone but your not ready to settle down?


Anonymous
10:30:00 AM
3/11/2010

I never really knew if what he did to me was rape, but the fact that I've been questioning whether the act was rape or not suggests it was somewhat questionable to begin with.

I just found out that he raped--really raped--another person last year. I feel responsible. If I had called him out on what he did, or if I had reported him, maybe she wouldn't have been hurt.


Anonymous
09:59:00 PM
11/22/2009

How would one go about starting a drive for something? Like a coat drive, or toy drive. I want to start one but have no idea who to talk to about it.


Anonymous
11:45:00 AM
10/10/2009

Lately I have been considering losing my virginity. Not to anyone I especially like, it's just that I'm 18 and being a virgin in such a sex-crazed world seems kind of pointless.


Anonymous
03:09:00 AM
9/30/2009

My best friend's boyfriend of 1 1/2 years kissed me, I didn't kiss back. I can't figure out what to do.


Anonymous
04:54:00 PM
9/20/2009

I always knew what I was gonna do with my life. Then I switched my major sophomore year. I'm a junior and I'm probably going to switch it again. So much for getting out in four years. Heck, so much for getting out in five...


Anonymous
11:41:00 AM
9/15/2009

Today my mom got laid off, my dad died long ago so this was the only source of income other than what I bring in, I already buy all the groceries and we still struggle to get by each month, I really don't know whats going to happen now.


Anonymous
12:25:00 AM
7/28/2009

This summer is very difficult for me. First of all, it sucks pretty badly living at home again after being independent for a year, an issue that many of you can probably relate to. Secondly, my boyfriend lives in the town I went to college in, only 2 hours away but still difficult to see each other what with clashing work schedules and all. I miss him. Thirdly, I've spent the last 3 summers of my 4 years in NC with who is now my ex boyfriend, so it's just kind of throwing me off. I don't remember what I did during summers before him. There's so much time to fill. My mom is pushing me to get back together with him, because she likes him a lot. So this is making me angry, on top of that, I guess my mom isn't used to not mothering someone so she turned to MY dog to baby this year. So I come back home to her telling ME how to treat MY DOG. Explaining my feelings doesn't work with her either. Nothing works. Everything is irritating me and as much as I'm trying to have a positive attitude, the people around me just keep rubbing me the wrong way and pushing me until I feel like erupting in anger and harsh words. Just the pile up of things. Grr. Thank you for letting me vent.


Anonymous
11:57:00 PM
6/08/2009

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into by loving me.


Anonymous
09:34:00 AM
6/07/2009

It's a fairly surreal story -- my ex-lover sends me a postcard, I write back, my reply is found by a drifter who starts writing to me fan letters, calling me thought-provoking and "a very solid and legit young woman."

We've been carrying on this odd correspondence for a while now, and I enjoy having a reason to check the mail, and while I'm thinking about M. I can't be worrying about J. who was doing so well for so long until he nearly killed himself with poisonous mushrooms.

Sometimes I even think I'm not in love with him anymore.

I've been spending my time flirting by letter, doing what I can to avoid thinking about him, reading the books that M. recommends, digging up CDs of M.'s favorite music, saving my money to leave home although at the moment I have nowhere specific to go. I'm rebuilding a life out of secondhand cassette tapes and fifty-dollar bills. For now that's almost enough.

M. took a photograph of J. when they were staying at the same house for a few days. I found it partly by accident, and he looks so sick.

It's a new year, and I've already done so much to put the past in its place, but for now I have to pause and raise my glass to missed opportunities.


Anonymous
1/05/2009
11:04:00 PM

I have never been attracted to another girl until now.

We smoke cigarettes together and weed whenever one of us has any. We've drank together. She's the only girl I've ever had sexual thoughts about. And god, I want her so badly sometimes. We get into deep conversations, revealing things we've never told to anyone else, sharing our fears and our dreams with each other. We connect on the deepest levels on the deepest subjects. And I might let all this go except sometimes I get the feeling that she feels some attraction towards me too. I think about wanting to kiss her when we have sleepovers together. I honestly would like to let this go, but I can't when she asks me to come sleep on the couch with her at sleepovers with our friends or when she tells me I look good and almost flirts with me in inconspicuous ways. It gets exhausting sometimes not acting on what I feel. I'd like to kiss her just once to see if there really is anything there.


Anonymous
05:09:00 PM
12/20/2008

i'm glad i finally talked about how we don't talk anymore. i really missed you.

we stopped talking and well...it really affected me.

i mean you were my best friend.

and i guess i want you back in my life...

i think?


Anonymous
09:07:00 PM
4/30/2008

A Lifetime Passed, Two Years Gone By...

In the last two years, I have passed through a lifetime of joy and pain. I have graduated from high school, defying all the odds. Been rejected by the college of my dreams only to be then not only accepted but given a full scholarship to said college. Been hired and fired and hired back. I have landed a job that seemed perfect, only to have it blow up in my face as a terrible misconception. I have been interrogated and arrested. Witnessed the justice system from viewpoint of both plaintiff and defendant. I have been heartbroken by women, only to find a love deeper and stronger than I could have ever imagined.

I have been shot at, lost my virginity and gotten blackout drunk for the first time in five years. I have traveled across the world, finding that all I really needed was a home. I have become a different person from what I imagined I would be. Realized dreams I never had and lost dreams I have held my whole life.

Just when I think that my life is going in a certain direction, something happens that forces me to reevaluate, rethink everything I did. I feel that I have done and seen more in the last two years than some will experience in their whole lives. But all I want is some certainty. I want to know that my life is going somewhere concrete.

I do not even know what to think anymore. It is the most peace I have felt in a long time.

I was in a bad mood and arguing about little things (but not in an angry way.. I just do that when i'm tired and unhappy). He stopped talking to me because he argued with his parents last night and didn't want to deal with anymore drama. He didn't feel like dealing with me... I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel.


Anonymous
07:31:00 PM

What I'm most afraid of is that I'll ask you out and you'll say yes because you don't have anything better to do.


Anonymous
01:23:00 AM

i'm going back to school on wednesday, and the very thought of being around all those people that i used to care about makes me want to go jump off a bridge.

people don't change.... do they?


Anonymous
09:47:00 PM

I am infatuated with my literature professor from this past semester. She is beautiful, talented and an amazing writer. More than that though...she saved my life. And I don't know how to tell her without scaring the hell out of her.


Anonymous
02:48:00 PM

I can not deal with, or know how to deal with, people that are filled with self hate so much that it consumes them. I have run out of things to say or try. I have tried everything i can think of, I have evne mentioned it to authority that can do somethign about it. It has begun to annoy me (which i know is horrible, but i cant figure out what to do for them and im facing 100% resisitance at every step). what can i do? what should i do? nothing i say helps. nothing ive done helps. they refuse to get better on thier own, or with my help.

and it isnt like they avoid it. it is all dumped on me, so it is obvious that they are seeking something (it might just be a vent) but...what to do?


Anonymous
10:33:00 PM

i liked him in seventh grade and he turned me down after i wrote him a note asking him to the sadie hawkins dance. we didn't talk for two years and it was really awkward. then we got to high school and it was okay for the most part. i've always kind of been into him, he's exactly what i'm looking for in a guy and he's just so damn nice. we don't hang out with the same crowd but every time we talk it feels like there's a spark... or i could just be making this up.

dammit! i don't even know if i like him! i don't know what to do.


Anonymous
06:49:00 PM

I hate to ask this on here, but I'm starting to worry a bit...

How is the AP World History exam, for those who have taken it?


Anonymous
04:11:00 PM