im racking my brain for the right words to express myself but here i find myself lost in thought scrambling to tell you or anyone how i feel, whats hurting me so deeply but my thoughts are not something i can easily tame when it comes to expressing myself these thoughts rarely leave my head their on the tip of my tounge but refuse to spill out of my lips. im giving this my best shot really i am, please say someone can relate to this feeling.. it seems nearly human instinct to seek out love but what if i dont want to seek it, will it find me?. ive come to accept that im not the kind of girl guys date or so it seems.. its not that i have trouble finding guys that find me attractive the problem is guys think im fun to flirt with, fun to get drunk with, and great to hook up with but when it comes to something more stable the crowd disappears and i find myself alone.


Anonymous
6/27/2010
02:25:00 AM

I'm listening to the arcade fire again and suddenly I can't help but miss you. It reminds me of those cold dark nights when I sat alone in my car crying because I was left by a girl that I adored. My current girlfriend can't possibly compare. But now you're happy with some other guy.

I don't know, I guess I always assumed that, even though you're going to school halfway across the country we would somehow end up together. Fuck it. Blowjobs and an easy girlfriend aren't nearly as fulfilling as love. I miss you. And I doubt you ever think of me.


Anonymous
3/30/2010
03:19:00 AM

Damn it. I'm in love again. I just have to keep from telling her until she's in love with me...


Anonymous
11:48:00 PM
10/19/2009

caught myself fantasizing about seeing and being with him again. the last time i saw him was thanksgiving break two years ago for three hours. i guess he's one of those guys i'll be in love with forever. he probably doesn't think about me at all. I think about him every day.


Anonymous
02:17:00 PM
9/18/2009

Four years ago someone on Tangst posted that they were in love with me. I still want to know who it was.


Anonymous
01:03:00 PM
9/04/2009

I love you, I care about you and I want to be with you until my heart stops beating. Everything about you, even the really annoying parts, attract me to you. I want to keep you forever. In my heart, I know you feel the same.


Anonymous
09:39:00 PM
8/03/2009

Apart from the possible sexual aspect, what separates romantic love from platonic love? As noted by someone else, "It seems like much of the stuff separating being 'in love' from friendship does friendship a disservice." In other words, the assumption exists that romantic love trumps strong friendship, which I don't think is always the case.

I know that Tangst seems to be fairly inactive at the moment, but if anyone has any thoughts on the matter, I'm game.


Anonymous
01:33:00 PM
7/17/2009

This kid I've been in love with for just over two years got engaged to a girl he's known for two days. I doubt he'll go through with it (he certainly didn't when he proposed to me) but it still worries me rather a lot.


Anonymous
11:25:00 PM
7/12/2009

He will take the stage and I will feel the fumes of lust and fury well up behind my cheeks and I will watch him and want him and hate him.

I will never, ever find a boy that likes me back. This is it, I am throwing in the towel.


Anonymous
04:34:00 PM
7/12/2009

I love my boyfriend, more than anything. But I think I'm in denial about also liking my old best friend more than I should.

Hearts can't belong to two people...
At least, they shouldn't be allowed to.

Even writing this makes me feel ill.


Anonymous
07:34:00 PM
7/05/2009

Tonight was the last time I will ever see him. He's moving away for good and I loved him more than anything else in the world when we were together. Driving home from his house I really didn't expect any tears to come or for them to come as hard and strong as they did. I didn't expect to have to pull over because I was so beside myself in anguish that the first boyfriend I ever had was leaving FOREVER and no matter how much I want him to stay I can't change a goddamn thing about it. We broke up over a year ago but this kid taught me how to love and now he's GONE. FML


Anonymous
12:05:00 AM
6/17/2009

This summer is very difficult for me. First of all, it sucks pretty badly living at home again after being independent for a year, an issue that many of you can probably relate to. Secondly, my boyfriend lives in the town I went to college in, only 2 hours away but still difficult to see each other what with clashing work schedules and all. I miss him. Thirdly, I've spent the last 3 summers of my 4 years in NC with who is now my ex boyfriend, so it's just kind of throwing me off. I don't remember what I did during summers before him. There's so much time to fill. My mom is pushing me to get back together with him, because she likes him a lot. So this is making me angry, on top of that, I guess my mom isn't used to not mothering someone so she turned to MY dog to baby this year. So I come back home to her telling ME how to treat MY DOG. Explaining my feelings doesn't work with her either. Nothing works. Everything is irritating me and as much as I'm trying to have a positive attitude, the people around me just keep rubbing me the wrong way and pushing me until I feel like erupting in anger and harsh words. Just the pile up of things. Grr. Thank you for letting me vent.


Anonymous
11:57:00 PM
6/08/2009

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into by loving me.


Anonymous
09:34:00 AM
6/07/2009

The thought of leaving home- leaving you- makes me so sad I can hardly breathe. I can't imagine living without you, and I know that's unhealthy, but I can't help loving you...


Anonymous
09:21:00 PM
5/27/2009

When you wake up alone
Do you love me still?
Do you question the choice you made?
Do you wake up at all?


Anonymous
12:10:00 AM
5/27/2009

Deprivation, In Three Parts (also titled, 10:31am)

I.
Restless / breaking / from lack of sleep
Dying / but from lack of You
Slowly, draining, tossing, turning
Nothing coming for the weary
Nothing, headed nowhere
Fast.
I am far gone - and
I am done.


II.
I have thoroughly given up on sleep tonight
today, this morning?
As I lay here, thoughts drift to you
Asleep, peacefully snoozing (snoring) across the ocean
exactly 5 hours and approximately
three thousand one hundred fourteen miles
(five thousand twelve kilometres)
away
I miss you terribly, awfully, completely
There is always the phantom feeling
of you at my back
bare skin, full body
Arm wrapped around my torso
ever protective, ever caring
Every shift mirroring the other's
Remolding to the nooks of our bodies
sticking together, gliding against
the largest organs
the most sensitive organs

I want to fall asleep to sound of your breathing

I want to wake up to your smile


III.
Every caress of the breeze through my window (the drapes)
lifting my hair, baring my neck
The air (the cold) a contrast to your breath (the warmth)
with which I am unfairly (surprisingly) familiar (intimate)
The wind (like your cane) cracks the cloth (like my ass)
making it taught (tense) before easing back (the next stroke?)
On and on the pattern drags, lulling (relaxing) me
into sub -consciousness (-space).


Anonymous
02:25:00 PM
5/04/2009

Sometimes I wish life were a fairytale and you would come and sweep me off my feet on the back of a white stallion. I know life is not like that and you try really damn hard. I love you for being you.


Anonymous
07:30:00 PM
4/29/2009

I love waking up every morning and making love with you before even saying a word, and afterwards, the first words said are "I love you." I think every relationship should be this way. <3 <3


Anonymous
02:00:00 PM
4/26/2009

Loving you is killing me.


Anonymous
08:34:00 PM
3/17/2009

Holy shit I just realized I'm a player.

Anonymous
09:20:00 AM
3/06/2009