"I have always considered myself to be an independent woman."
But lately, I've been getting really frustrated with the loneliness. As everyone's starting to pair off, I'm starting to realize exactly how much I've been longing for a boyfriend.
Someone that I can talk to and not feel guilty complaining to when I have a bad day, he'll do so right back when he feels like it. Someone I can tell everything to, and not have to worry about whether or not he's going to judge everything that comes out of my mouth. Someone that understands me and isn't just going to avoid confrontation when I'm being terrible.
What I really want though, is someone who isn't afraid to touch me. I miss getting hugs. But whenever I get them I always feel smothered now. All I want is that safe, protected, loved feeling again. Like nothing could go wrong. I miss that feeling way too much.
Browneyes
04:30:30 PM
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"All I want is that safe, protected, loved feeling again. Like nothing could go wrong. I miss that feeling way too much."
One of the best feelings in the world...well I suppose it's really the giving a safe and protected feeling...but I guess that's just a gender difference?
Mmm...everybody IS pairing off!!
I know what you mean, PChis (and inverse of what you mean, OP). Sometimes I just want somebody to hold :/
It seems like it would be nice.
So does sex. Yeah, sex would be nice.
But also just the relationship.
I could be you if I had brown eyes. It really does seem like everyone is pairing off, and all of us "we don't need guys!" types are left alone to wonder if we're really happy.
i've been feeling the same way. it's hard. all of us lonely anonymous people should go boy-hunting together or something.
safari it up!
Loners by definition will end up alone.
Considering, do you really want to be one?
you wont be able to tell a boyfriend everything
" you wont be able to tell a boyfriend everything"
that depends on who your boyfriend is eh?
I think that no matter how serious a relationship gets you should always have some secrets. Without secrets how can you be an individual?
i don't think its about feeling like an individual. it's like a balance of power. without secrets, someone can know you completely, and then when or if they judge you (as most people are bound to at some point)it's an absolute judgment because they know your mind, your heart, your past... and the chance that it could be a negative judgment is what keeps us from telling all our secrets.
^wow that's profound. I never would have admitted that.
maybe its a bad thing to have many people know you too well, but i like having a secret-keeper - a confidant if you will.
the risk of negative judgement is destroyed by the benefit of the reality check it would bring, the security it gives me.
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