Josh, please stop killing yourself. You're better and smarter than that. I miss who you were and you're scaring me.


Anonymous
12:46:00 PM
7/29/2008

I smoke weed every once in a while. Not nearly every day or even every week. When I feel like I want some I buy some, maybe once every two or three weeks if even. One of my friends completely freaked out on me because of it and started citing health problems and how I'm going to fail out of college because of my "habit." This post is dedicated to all of you overprotective and wayyy too sheltered friends out there: fuck off. I'm not going to fail, I'm not going to die, and I'm not going to go crazy. It's just weed. If you don't want to be around me when I smoke it I completely understand 100% but that doesn't change the person I am when I'm sober so shut the fuck up.


Anonymous
08:13:00 PM
7/28/2008

take leaps of faith it is worth it ten fold.


Anonymous
01:03:00 PM
7/25/2008

Im so happy , I feel better than I have in a long time, I dont care about eloquence or style I just want to cry out to the world my joy.

Anonymous
09:06:00 AM
7/25/2008

if you just completed your first year of college and your a guy can you date a girl who is just coming into college?

If two people go on a date that might or might not be a date should they guy still pay, should a guy usually pay?

If a girl has got a crush on another guy but seems interested in you how could you tell if shes just friendly or if there is more?


I feel embarrassed just asking these questions but They are occupying the back of my mind and stuck in my head like sand in a oyster. Ive come across most of the questions/ situations before but this time it just feels different, its something I really don't want to mess up.


Anonymous
05:41:00 PM
7/23/2008

damn. I was sort of hoping we'd go a whole month without a post.

I've said this before....Tangst is dead.


Anonymous
01:01:00 PM
7/20/2008

god I cant stop thinking about her and it terrifies me. She scares me and excites me more than anything Ive every encountered. I only hope I'm brave enough.


Anonymous
12:59:00 PM
7/20/2008

holy shit I just figured out how sex is supposed to work and it is AWESOME now!

that's all.


Anonymous
12:45 AM
07/20/08

I got my AP score! 4 in English IV :D


Anonymous
7/18/2008
08:02:00 PM

...I hate to be the one to ask, but what the heck.

AP scores, anyone?


Anonymous
7/17/2008
07:45:00 AM

i've been waiting for a long time for my post to get up so i can read comments on it. i guess the admins are all on vacation.

which means i guess most everyone else is too. no comments for me.


Anonymous
7/14/2008
11:47:00 PM

I give my boyfriend oral because I'm afraid to have my REAL virginity gone forever, even though I know we love each other.

It is NOT that much fun to give, and I don't get the same kind of pleasure that he does in return. I really wish I was ready for sex.


Anonymous
7/12/2008
01:27:00 AM

My summer self seems to be so different than my school self. I seem to get stupider in the summer, it's probably just the idiots that I hang out with, though.


Anonymous
7/05/2008
08:32:00 PM

remember the boat times?


Anonymous
7/04/2008
08:25:00 PM

wow its been forever since i've been here. just reading up, and here's a recap.

hair: i got really hairy nipples. dark ones. i pluck, but its probably ab 15/nip. and i gotta pluck the happy trail. also gotta shave my legs every other day. yup, that hairy for a girl.

sex: i was gonna save myself for marrage, but then i dated a guy for a while who loved me and we did it. he loved me but i pretended i loved him. never did. never will, and i dont even feel bad ab it, though ive been broken so many times. he still loves me. i've moved on and i'm dating guy. feel like i totally wasted the sex.
at least it was fun.

porn: i swear i'm the only girl who ever watched porn. i was addicted for a while. i've only been clean for 2 weeks and thats pretty darn good for me.

work: my job is one of those good experience jobs, but it sucks. i hate all the stupid office work. sometimes i pass off work to the guys who are older bc they're gentlemen and take it.


thats good for now.


Anonymous
6/30/2008
11:59:00 PM

Power naps at work are the best...right up there with visiting tangst on the job.


Anonymous
6/30/2008
02:14:00 PM

Food for worms

Begin emotion defragmentation subroutine
0%...
Corpse
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Ghost
Definition: A Soul without a Body.

We need both, in short.

10%... Make my day
You do it without trying
I am sensitive to your words
Your touch
Your breath.
Breath
Definition: It keeps you alive. See also: love

20%... Feel something
This is not a suggestion.
Every day I remind myself
Every time you miss something
An angel gets its wings.
Love
Definition: This will wreck your world. See also: Hate, Lust, Fate, Trust, Fake, Dust.

30%... God
Talk to him
He will not listen
Talk to yourself
You will not listen either
35%... (No one is coming to your rescue.)
Faith
Definition: Insanity, pretty packaging. Used in a sentence: My faith is of the slave’s towards the slave master. I know when he will beat me. I know what he wants from me. I know how he feels about me. I trust that he will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, violent. I trust that He will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, wrathful.
Ire
Definition: You’ll know it when you feel it.

40%... Despair
Welcome.
Please try to keep your feet clean.
The mat of human emotion. Wipe them down.
When you focus on one thing you might not succumb.

50%... Alone
I am never alone.
Eyes watch me through crevices.
Cracked blinds and huge bay windows.
Standing outside and waiting for me to join them.
I watch myself and feel the eyes from the future.
When I look back on my actions what will I see?
A story: When I was younger I would sit in my room and feel someone watching me from the ceiling. I have come back to that memory countless times from the viewpoint of the watcher. I am the watcher.
Attention
Definition: If you pay too much you might go broke. If you go broke you might do something crazy. Pay attention to that too. See also: Despair.

60%... Art
Make it when you feel it bubbling out of you.
I look in the mirror and see it spilling out of me.
I can feel it in the hands that clutch at me. See also: Corpse.
Don’t wait too long: the willow bends but the oak breaks under the strain.

70%... Love, redux
Every time I hear love described as a hurricane,
I can feel it welling up in me.
The violent eye wall tearing out of me something necessary to survival. See also: Ghost
Love
Definition: You need this more than anything. See also: Money, Pain, Loss, Gain, Blood, Stain.
Definition: “A hundred miles of pounding rain.”
Definition:

80%... History
Don’t let it define your future.
We aren’t trapped in a glass box called Earth.
We aren’t polluting your water.
We aren’t stuck in these bodies.
We aren’t lost and searching.
We aren’t breaking down now.
Error: stop.
It sucks.
Solution 1: Deal with it. Find a way to make your future bright.
See also: Ghost (A Soul without a Body.)
Solution 2: Let it consume you. The devil is hungry.
See also: Corpse (A Body without a Soul.)

90%... Emotion
Defragmentation almost complete.
Commence Erasure.
Let’s not be sentimental.
What did it ever do for you?
That sick feeling in the pit of your stomach? That’s reality.
Look at the most beautiful girl in the world.
Vapid and vacant: eyes like a cow facing the hammer.
Watch out for the pitfalls. See also: Faith, God, Love, Summer, History, Happiness, Despair.

100%... Healthy
You will feel better.
We have precisely tuned you.
We have stripped away what makes you incomplete.
Now, shattered and broken, we urge you: “Go forth into the world… something about Jesus.”
See also: Love, Faith, Despair, Corpse, 3 Days, Breath
Moreover, you will love freely.
Zeros, zeros are nothing.
10%
100%
1000% better. More effective at the things you need the most.

Talk, you zombie. Feel, you ghast. The best feeling in the world cannot match this. See also: Pressed, Against, The, One, You, Love
Love
Definition: Worth it every time. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Faith.
Definition: Not possible. See also: Pain, Discomfort, Awkward, Final, Despair, Lonely.

Nothing changes unless you change it.
Corpse
Definition: A Body without a Soul.
Definition: I want to find you.
Ghost
Definition: A Soul without a Body.
Definition: I know you’re out there.

I hope soo badly that you didn't lose my e-mail adress and that you don't forget about me and that you still think about that plane ride like I still think about it. PLEASSE e-mail me. I want to talk to you so bad.

Anonymous
02:33:00 AM
6/26/2008

I finally had real sex. Not just sticking my dick in her and pulling it out when she said it hurt too much. I actually thrusted and came.

With a condom, of course.

Anonymous
07:32:00 PM
6/25/2008

I just met this completely awesome guy who is sooo much like me it's scary. We even finish each others sentences and we just met!!! Only thing is.. he's a polygamous mormon :S

Anonymous
01:27:00 AM
6/25/2008