This might violate rules, but I wanted to post it all the same.

What I Would Tell Him...

I would tell him that I think I'm in love with him,
That I'm not quite sure, but it's probably true.
I'd tell him that I think of him at odd times
And that the strangest things remind me of him
Like Greek food, or The Daily Show, even Strom Thurmond.
That whenever I hear the sound of deep, stunning laughter
I get this funny, aching feeling in my heart.

I would tell him that I miss him whenever he's not around,
That I miss him to a point somewhere beyond distraction.
I'd tell him I can't focus on anything except him
And when I try, I end up feeling frustrated, confused, and alone.
So I'll go for a walk, which is stupid of me
Because I'll start thinking of him again, his voice in my head
Telling me to enjoy the calm, the silence, despite the fact I hate it.

I would tell him that this is too hard,
That I need him to go already, and break my heart.
I'd tell him that he should leave and never come back.
And that yes, it is necessary.
That I don't think I can go on with this existence.
Smiling, pretending everything is alright while I'm screaming inside.
Maybe I just won't tell him anything at all.


Anonymous
01:58:27 PM